more pictures!!!

here are some pictures of my intro to film class and our french canadian teacher miss melanie morisette

(the tutorial groups)
(.... and miss morisette... [dont u just wanna go Mise-en-Scene!!!*in thick french accent* =D ])
(all hell breaks loose.... a fight going on to my left [watch where dx has his hands at... therefore the grimaces on erez's and nigel's faces haha... and miss morisette being sneaky nearly getting me with rabbit ears... and all the other crazy stuff happening.... ]
lets say it again... together now! Mise-en-Scene!!!

silence is golden...

trying to get back to being more of a listener again... been havin that problem alot lately... talking too much when i technically dont need to... planning to face paint myself and mime my way through the next league game... gonna learn the meaning of silent as the the grave (go ifan all up to u man.. u need to stand up and be heard... ) really really wanna concentrate on my game.. i was so lost the first 3 games... but im beginning to see a little more of myself in the ntu game.. so who knows... smiling and keeping quiet is the way to go...

gonna have a long week... gonna try have as much fun as i can get whilst gettin all my stuff done...

monday
-photography final assignment editing
-demonstration show rehearsal 2

tuesday
-photography final project presentation

wednesday
-finish school@ 10am..
-study for storytellin test

thursday
-storytelling techniques test

friday
-art&design final project consultation...

(oi les garcons de riviere!!! we must get ready the props for our art&design!! when we do??? i vote for tuesday and wednesday... -its the only 2 days i can yep yep... and and wanna face paint and show her something extra on friday anot? haha show her we know what designs we want yesh yesh.. must live up to expectations and do some extra stuff...)

theres really nothing much to talk about already... most of it is just thinking...

"The past his history,
The future is a mystery,
And now is all that's worth living for..."

Music is art
the art of expression....

KISS face painting weeeee!

haha... dx and me decided to try out the face paint we bought yesterday this morning @ around 12.15am.... pretty fun stuff =P ... i wouldn't mind painting my face everyday if i had the $$ to buy face paint haha..
i think i will wear face paint for the last game in the season.. 5 games to go... we lost today but im still so happy!!! like smiling through the whole game... pretty looney stuff... oh well yes back to face painting... first.... get a template u can copy.. (unless u wanna do ur own design then make sure u draw it out first so u can plan what to do first....)
Here's my template... KISS drummer Peter Criss... (theres suppose to be green stripes around the eyes but i didnt do it cause im using a Green Screen to film on... all that special effects and cripe...)

so im still trying to find a nicer way to do out the entire design... cause if u paint ur entire face white first, it will smudge around so u have to wipe the unwanted white parts away with a wet cloth... but i did my best... and here are the pictures.... (dun forget to get something to hold up ur hair if its long..)



and the nose....




the whiskers could have been better.. so many smudges here and there... but of course! im not done yet!! the biggest and most important part are the eyes... it has the biggest effect on appearance out of all the others..




and after all the hard work with face painting... the best way to enjoy ur work of art is to be random and take photos...


-pat me!!!

-heeeeeeeee =D

-that kitty in love....

-depressed

-welcome!!!

-step off!!!

-sad/tired/just woke up

-air geeeetah!!!!!

-rock fan!!!

-*smile..*
and thats all i have.... haha... fun fun fun... probably gonna try the KISS bassist design soon... haha.. dx!!! WE R HARDCORE....
funny funny funny... =D

fun fun fun!!! =D

aint that the most beautiful thing u've ever seen?
haha... it cost $450... and thats already the discounted price... (though im not gonna say where =X ).... soooooooooo nice!!! i want want want!!! (me and my materialistic dreams... oh well.. if u wanna live this life to the fullest get what u want! and of course work for it..) probably gonna find a job over the 2 month hols and earn some $$$... so nice!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

haha waiting for dx to hurry up go and bath so we can video conference and pain our faces like KISS with the black and white face paint we just bought from this costume shop for our art&design final project... hahaha... we did alot of other crazy things there tooo haha...

Once upon a time there was this evil knight who lived in a "forrest" (check out the err hungry looking wolf and bear... O.O )...He was feared by all the creatures in the "forrest" as he was a cold-blooded merciless hunter...

But deep down inside he was a sad lonely person... with no friends or relatives to talk too... and so he lived his days as usual hunting and hunting...
One day, a spaceship crashed in the forrest and out came 2 astronauts from Dumbo land...
Astronaut DX-"We've crash landed in a strange world maosi... the grass is red and rough... do you think it is safe to remove our helmets?"
Astronaut MAOSI-"Yesh strange place... sorry heeeeeee i know it isnt the best time to tell you but... errrrr i didn't pass the driving test... heeeeee =X .... erm *tries to change subject* theres only one way to check if the air is breathable and safe...
Astronaut DX-"U DIDNT WAT?!"
Astronaut MAOSI-"Here let me show you how to check!"

*maosi opens dx's protective helmet visor.. exposing him to the air outside...*
maosi-*prays that dx suffocates and dies so he cant scold him for not passing u know what*
dx-"Oi boy! Wat u try to do?!
maosi-*realises his plan didnt work* "i was checking if the air was safe...?
dx-"safe your LJ!!!! u stupid !@#&*!@#&*!@&#*!&@#(*&@# never pass ur &()**)(*)(* and then now we crash land in this ^&*(*^$ planet with ^&((^% red ^***&^ grass and u try to ^&#$!% kill me by exposing me to the &**^*^ atmosphere?!"
maosi-"k...ki... kill you? no sir nooo... i never ... "
dx-"Im gonna arrest you! put ur hands up! Im actually a secret agent for British intelligence...
dx-" see i have the hat to prove it!!!
dx- *whispers to audience* "shhhh dont tell him... im just trying to scare the shit out of him hee hee hee..." "GET ON THE FLOOR AND GET UR ASS IN THE AIR U IMPOSTER!"
maosi-"u forgot and attempted murderer..."
dx-"SHUT UP AND DO IT!"
knight-"WHO DARES ENTER MY DOMAIN?!?! WHO WHO WHO?!
dx-"who the hell is that?"
maosi-*whispers to dx*"must be some alien .. but wait.. we are on his planet so we are the aliens but if we are....."
dx-"shutup and stop thinking so much... We are from Dumbo Land.. WE COME IN PEACE *shows peace handsign*"
maosi-"eh boss.. u got the peace sign wrong ... i think u are showing him your middle finger =x"
dx-"it might mean peace on this planet... to late to change now anyway... PEACE! *waves middle finger*"
knight-" HOW DARE YOU?! HOW DARE YOU POINT THE FINGER?? AT ME?! DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHO I AM?!
maosi-*raises hand*"some guy who is mentally ill and so needs his rest.... we'll jsut go..... "
dx-*pulls maosi back into position*
knight-"I RECEIVE CABLE TV FROM EARTH TOO YOU KNOW? I KNOW PERFECTLY WELL WHAT *points middle finger* means.. and..."
dx-"aiyah cut the crap... WHO THE HECK ARE YOU ALREADY?!"
knight-*takes off helmet*"I AM ALSO THE KING OF THIS PLANET!!!"
maosi-"eh... whos the guy behind you?
king-" Huh?! Who?"
CrazyGuy-"I AM THE KING's TRUSTY LION!!! AND I'll eat you!!! RARRR Fear ME!!! OI! change my name to the LION... Why isit crazyguy?!"
king-*rolls eyes*"zzzZZZzzzZZZ.... lion.. cant u see im busy here?! cant u be crazy somewhere else?"
crazyLion-"I AM NOT CRAZY! Oi change my nick!"
king-" LION! GO BACK TO UR CAGE NOW!"
lion-"aiyah ok lar ok lar..." *walks away sadly....*
king-"now where was i? OH YES! I AM THE KI...."
maosi-"coool wat's this?"
maosi-"eh dx! look im a knight!!! Hurrrr hurr hurr... *dances around* *grabs camera and takes a photo"
king-"Put my dad's helmet down u bugger!"
maosi-*takes another photo*
king-"OI!! IM SERIOUS MY DAD WILL HAVE MY NECK FOR BREAKFAST!!"
dx-"hurrri bet u r daddy's little boy arent you? coochy coochy coooo!!"
king-"im serious get him to take it off.. please! ill do anything!!!"
*maosi dances in background with helmet*
dx-"anything??????"
*maosi starts testing strength of helmet by running head first into a tree*
*CRASH*!
king-" YES ANYTHING!!!"
dx-" OI MAOSI!!!"
maosi-" hmmmm? oh ok.. stop... hurrrr .. sorry couldnt resist... "
dx-"yeah i realised u stupid tin head..."
king-"he broke it!!"
FatherOfKing-"Broke what junior?!
*maosi quickly throws helmet at the feet of the king*
FOK-"what did who brea..... JUNIOR!! YOU BROKE MY FIRST HELMET!!!"
king-"HUH? what me?! who what where when how... *looks down to see helmet at his feet* IT WASNT ME!"
FOK-"IM GONNA EAT YOU FOR BREAKFAST!

*Rescue ship arrives and dx and maosi escape from the planet of red grass*


hahahha ... hope u guys liked the story... completely invented as i was typing this post... haha...
Okie! time to go face painting!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

the m&fs in my life...

*Now Playing Relient K - Getting Into You*

when i made up my mind
and my heart along with that
to live not for myself
but yet for God
somebody said
" do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

when i finally ironed out
all of my priorities
and asked God to remove the doubt
that makes me unsure of these
things i ask myself
i ask myself
" do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

i'm getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you
because i've got to be
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

when he looked at me and said
" i kind of view you as a son"
and for a second our eyes met
and i met that with a question
" do you know what you are getting yourself into?"

i'm getting into you
because you got to me
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you
because i've got to be
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

i've been a liar and i'll never amount to
the kind of person you deserve to worship you
you say you will not dwell on what i did but
rather what i do you say
" i love you and that's
what you are getting yourself into"

i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because you got to me (because you got to me)
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because i've got to be (because i've got to be)
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because you got to me (because you got to me)
in a way words can't describe
i'm getting into you (getting into you)
because i've got to be (because i've got to be)
you're essential to survive
i'm going to love you with my life

you said "i love you and that's what you're getting into"


so nice is this song... must learn to sing it...
finally returned the stupid lightmeter today (surprisingly no parang haha thankfully also coz i havent fill in my Will yet! i still havent decided who im gonna leave these *pulls out bag of Famous Amos cookies* haha...)
now im waiting to see if my photography teacher wants my head... also the princess haha after i "happened" to mention that muffins were fattening after she ate one ... haha (im joking! *crosses his heart and errr doesnt hope to die* haha)

the weather today was amazing... serious.. stunning... it was only 4.30pm and the sky was so dark and gloomy and it was so windy and cooling! breathtaking stuff...

music and films really affect my life alot alot... like stuff keeps happening that relates to the songs i hear or films i watch and they are definitely not coincidences... though it seems like really random stuff... (im not thinking too much!! serious! )

can't wait for saturday... another important game against NTU (who i was supposed to join in the beginning of the year... but didnt cause its crazy to travel all the way to NTU from yio chu kang twice a week... its mad!! ) but still gonna be fun... the leg is all healed up and ready for battle.. doesn't even hurt anymore.. (i was probably being too emo and extreme.. thinking too much) ... i still havent eaten anything!! so hungry.. probably gonna make myself a killer chicken sandwich or something hahaha :P (who's hungry ? )

quote of the day
"im gonna love you with my life...."

funny crew!

haha filmed by qamariah.. (quote "hahhaha...")
featuring
Rojay-black shirt and glove- as "golfer" (quote "just anyhow just wack")
DeXian-brown jacket- as Guy who wacks ermm...."balls" (quote "im wacking some "other balls")
Me-blue shirt- as Guy who gets wacked in the ermm "balls" and falls over dramatically (i should get a grammy for that haha :P)
Eugene-white shirt- (quote "eh i want to try..")
Erez-black shirt with yellow words- as Angry Director (quote "eh is the lighting done anot? why are you all playing? lighting are not done")
Stefan-black shirt with yellow words on shoulder- as the Assistant Director (quote "eh whos camera man?")
Nigel-sitting black shirt- as Slacker 1 (quote "hahaha are you filming?")
Suzie-sitting black shirt with script on lap- as Slacker 2
Pea-sitting at computer black shirt- as ComputerGraphicsperson (quote "qamaya! hurry up i dunno this arr")

hahaha... more reasons to love what im studying and my class... hahaha the silliest most random bunch of babboons hahaha... (ok maybe thats just me hahaha)

freaky day...

pic1
pic2

my classmates and me at SingaporeIdol last wednesday... (we got bored...)
we waited for like almost an hour just to have a 3 minute walk-through... aiyai yai...
From Top left to right and middle left to right and bottom left to right (Pic 2)

Mahen(Mr.ArtyFarty cant draw with a pencil but he can do amazing things with a crayon) , Eugene(ComputerGeekgames and more games.), Roger (bt everyone calls him Rojaaaay cause our french-canadian intro to film teacher has this funny way of pronouncing names haha) and Stefan(the once self-proclaimed emo kid now erm... the AssistantDirector for Demo Show gd luck!)

Qamariah (the hardworking accountant haha... and the caring mother in our class.. she happens to be the oldest among us...), YeeLee a.k.a. Ah Lian (the one who kept insisting she isnt ah lian but finally gave up haha... and a hermit crab lover... inseperable from Qamariah coz they both love being playful...), DeXian (one of Les Garcons de Riviere's 3... hardcore rock fan listening to music from Black Sabbath to Kiss and Judas Priest... YES U ARE HARDCORE! weee!), Maosi (wait one of les garcon is missing! look at Pic1.. he's on DeXian's right... and he is Erez jazzy person... plays the guitar... plays floorball with me in Nighthawks... very enthu and can get emo over gals..but hey we are all human... LES GARCONS ROCKS!),
Mathu (affectionately known as MATHUJITA! [say it really fast]... the amazing photographer without a handphone... GET A PHONE MATHUJITA!), Suzie (the angmoh who loves thinking horny thoughts and isnt afraid to teach qamariah and stefan what she's thinking off in Bio erm.. Studio class... haha), Nigel aka THE KING! (the guy who cant take jokes or he'll laugh so hard he'll cry.... hahahaha.... and his queen is PeiZhen (the one with the $10,000 violin that erez loves and the mad husky that erez doesnt love... hahahhahaha)

yep and thats my crazy class for y'all...

today's a freaky day... the big boss upstair decide to take actions to protect my knee from me haha... i was gonna go to training @ st.gabs... (though my knee isnt completely healed hey but its getting better! i can bend it all the way now mmm... virtually no pain until u press the injured area...) and so there i was... at the bus stop waiting for 72... and god said... "LET THE HALL BE USED FOR THE 'N' LEVELS" and it was.... and training was cancled so i just walked back into my hz and played guitar for an hour and then went to sleep till 8pm... and when i woke up i had the weirdest sensation... like something was wrong...

i came on msn.. and im like HEY!? where are all my classmates?! are we suppose to meet for anything today? *thinks thinks thinks* (and dx told me im insecure haha... i dont disagree... I FORGOT TO RETURN THE LIGHTMETER AGAIN!!!) haha... the people at the film cage are gonna be ready for me when i go in tomorrow... (with a parang... *GulPs*)

kk... time to remind what i need to do.....
-Bring Camera for dx..
-Bring harrypotter dvds and city of angels for the princess
-Bring french stuff
-Buy a new pencil case and stuff coz i lost the old one...
-Write my Final Essay for tomorrow

and something else i dont remember!! i remember i must meet someone tomorrow at noon... but I DONT REMEMBER WHO AND WHAT FOR!!! erm erm erm.... i really dunno.. see if the person calls me tomorrow or not... and then i'll be able to scold myself for being so forgetful.. i think i need a permanent marker and start writing notes on my hands... haha...

okie dokie gonna start doing my final essay for tomorrow...
French French! Sfe sFe sfE!

one

*Now Playing Nickelback - Far Away*

this time, this place
misused, mistakes
too long, too late
who was i to make you wait
just one chance
just one breath
just in case there's just one left
'cause you know,
you know, you know


that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing if
i don't see you anymore

on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cause with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up
'cause you know,
you know, you know

that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i miss you
been far away for far too long
i keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
stop breathing if
i don't see you anymore

so far away
been far away for far too long
so far away
been far away for far too long
but you know, you know, you know

i wanted
i wanted you to stay
'cause i needed
i need to hear you say
that i love you
i have loved you all along
and i forgive you
for being away for far too long
so keep breathing
'cause i'm not leaving you anymore
believing
hold on to me and, never let me go

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sometimes all you need is one song...
sometimes all you need is one thought...
sometimes all you need is one dream...
sometimes all you need is one perfect orange day...
sometimes all you need is one person...
sometimes all you need is one moment...
sometimes all you need to make is one decision...
sometimes all you need to say is one word...
sometimes all you need to know is three words...
sometimes all you need to know is to hold on...
sometimes all you need to do is listen to your younger brother play this song from his computer to realise what u've been missing for so long... (haha)... like here come the love songs again... (haha)

And "I love you... i've loved you all along..."
"I keep dreaming you'll be with me.."
"I wanted you to stay.." in my mind..
one rock show can change the world...
one song can change maosi... (and his mood)
merci beaucoup to mon frere... though i dont think he reads my blog.. dont think he even knows i have a blog.. but its better i kept it that way.. then at least i have one place to nag about him haha nah kidding...

im so happy and hyper now after the long nap i had... probably gonna start editing the video for tomorrow's class later tonight... and then tomorrow i'll be able to have another long afternoon nap and get up at night to do up my Final Essay for thursday... and maybe french homework...

*Reminders to forgetfull maosi*
-Return the bloody lightmeter that has been overdue for 2 days already...
-Bring photography stuff to show mr.siew
-Bring harddisk with edited video tomorrow
-Prepare for floorball @ st.gabs tomorrow...
-donch go for floorball if the knee says no... (but if the heart and mind says yes?)
-donch go!
-Pass the princess the harrypotter dvd's
-fill in my Will cause if i forget my head will definitly roll this time... (haha)

still listening to the song...... *sighs a contented sigh*
"I keep dreaming you'll be with me...."

i hope the knee is gonna hold up and get better before saturday 2pm... and i dont do stupid things that threatens its recovery... (like not looking where im going and nearly spraining my left ankle going down the stairs at YCK mrt... =/)
*prays*
pls bossy pls pls pls let me be able to play this saturday's game... i wont survive the thought of sitting out a match.. i dont think i can take sitting out of a match... and not doing my part for the team... please!!! and i swears *crosses his heart* that ill be a good good boy for the rest of my life... i swears!!!

i wanna hear 3 words...
i know i know i know...

the post that never made it...

was gonna post a pretty long-winded post yesterday against my better judgement...it was obvious i needed someone or something to stop me... and god answered "LET BLOGGER CRASH!"*deep commanding voice* and it did... and the post never made it onto my blog...
never got to be saved and never got to be retyped... (haha)

and so here i am and possibly im gonna type it out now *Thunder in the distance* hmmmm ok maybe a summary *Thunder getting closer*... ok a short summary? *Loud Thunder right outside my classroom* ahhh fine i'll forget about it... haha...

sobasicallyyesterdaywasamazingcausewewatchedourinterview
recordingshowwas amazingcauseithinkourshowrockedand
theother2classes'sshowswas
boringboringboring(imnottryingtobecockybutitstrue!)andthenwentonacrazyracearoundsingaporegettingallourpropsforthe
demoshowand
reachedhome@9.30pmandwatchedsometvandwonderedaboutatheoryisaw
*angry rumbling outside*

i've a feeling the next time i step out under the sky im gonna get struck by
lightning haha...
*runs awaY*

lesson just finished.. yay! no more lesson! weeee! gonna go home soon but ive gotta
meet some guy to get some video that needs to be editied by tomorrow...

still wondering.......
*rumble RUMBLE rumble*

heal me

i look in a mirror and i dont recognise who i see...
ive changed... im not what i used to be...
u talk to a stranger that isnt me...
ive lost myself from a path i cant see...
im stuck in a trap.. but i cant flee...
someone help me...
someone save me...
someone...heal me

the power of rock...

Rock is KISS.....
"one great rock show can change the world.."
I'll say.... One Great Rock Show Has Changed maosi..
be proud dx... a KISSER is born......
*sticks out tongue both hands saluting the God's of Rock*

"Out on the street for a living
Picture's only begun
Got you under their thumb
Hit it

Out on the streets for a living
Picture's only begun
Your day is sorrow and madness
Got you under their thumb

Whoo, black diamond
Whoo, black diamond

Darkness will fall on the city
It seems to follow you too
And though you don't ask for pity
There's nothin' that you can do, no, no

Whoo, black diamond
Whoo, black diamond

Out on the streets for a living
Picture's only begun
Your day is sorrow and madness
Got you under their thumb

Whoo, black diamond, yeah
Whoo, black diamond"

indecisive maosi... =)

well i was gonna try to stick to my.. i dont care phrase... and it went well for about thirty minutes (what can i say? im stubborn =P) so i got bored i was looking for something to do... i didnt feel like chatting on msn.. cause thats really something only no-life people do yesh... i didnt feel like watching videos on youtube... i didnt feel like watching tv... i didnt feel like practising floorball though my game is tomorrow.. i didnt feel like doing much and yet i felt like doing so much...
and then i remembered i hadn't watched "Amelie" this french movie i just got that we watched in Intro to Film class... it's a really really good movie if u can look past the couple of scenes with obscene stuff... (not all R21 films are porn flicks ok people!) and while watching i began to notice the amount of quotable quotes that i can in one way or another relate too... and it pretty much makes sense to me... (if u guys are sleepy/bored/whatever like got better things to do, go ahead and do whatever u gotta do unless u wanna be lectured on life)

ok sufficient warning....

Today kiddies in Life Class... we gonna understand certain quotes from Amelie..... and lets study how they relate/affect maosi.... (open ur laptops and open this webpage http://finwe21ancalimon.blogspot.com =D)

1. "...the hardest part is the looks. I sometimes feel like they deliberately change their mood behind my back..." (the Glass Man and his painting with people in it...)

-people dont tell u what they think in your face... they do it behind your back...-

2. (on the girl with a glass of water in the Glass Man's painting)
GM -"She's in the middle yet... she's outside."
Amelie-"Maybe she's just different from the others"
A -"Maybe her thoughts are with someone else. More likely a boy she saw somewhere and felt an affinity with."
GM -"You mean she'd rather imagine herself relating to an absent person than building relationships with those around her?"
A -"Maybe... or maybe she tries hard to fix other people's messy lives."
GM -"And what about her? Who will fix her messy life?"
A -"It's better to help people than a 'garden gnome'"
GM -"Tell me about the boy she saw. Did they meet again?"
A -"No. They're into different things"
GM -"Luck is like the "Tour de France". You wait and it flashes past you. You have to catch it while you can..."
A -"She's in love..."
GM -"And yet she does nothing..."
A -"Shes devising a stratagem..."
GM -"Yes shes fond of stratagems... In fact, she's cowardly... That's why i cant capture her face"
-a garden gnome... a lonesome garden gnome... a garden gnome that's been neglected by itself...
im outta luck.... .......-

3. (Bretodeau...)
"Life's funny. To a kid, time always drags. Suddenly you're 50. All that's left of your childhood fits in a rusty little box."

-a pretty funky statement all by itself... im not gonna say what it means.... if u know u know...-

4.(narrator)
"Amelie has a strange feeling of absolute harmony. It's a perfect moment. Soft light, a scent in the air, the quiet murmur of the city. She breathes deeply. Life is simple and clear"

-i know that feeling... how everything goes right... how the entire world seems beautiful... how the air u breathe is so much fresher... how a deep breath makes ur heart feel whole and complete..."

5.(recipe for love)
"Take 2 regulars... mix them together and let them stew. It never fails..."

-not in my case... this is for all the 99.99999% out there... and Love@first sight... the misconception of what love is... -

6.(newspaper booth lady)
"... a woman wihtout love wilts like flowers in the sun..."

-it works both ways...-

7.(failed writer in the 2 windmills bar)
"We pass the time of day, to forget how time passes."

-speaks for itself again-

8.(narrator... amelie finds the advert nino posted wanting the photograph album back)
"any normal girl would call the number. Meet him, return the album and see if her dream is viable. It's called a reality check. The last thing Amelie wants."

-the last thing i want....-

9.(nino and talking pictures on his lamp...)
Pictures -"She's in love"
Nino -"I dont even know her."
P -"You do...."
N -"Since when?"
P -"Since always... in your dreams.......

-but dreams dont come true... never has never will-

10.(boy to nino staring at a statue pointing to the sky...)
"The fool looks at a finger that points to the sky....."

-ive just proven im the king of fools... (i stare at the sky like 30 minutes everday = )-

11.(amelie to heartless grocery shop owner..)
"You'll never be a vegetable, even artichokes have hearts..."

-to all u nasty people out there... -

12.(grocery shop helper to glass man)
".. when they die, they'll put their ashes on a satellite and shoot it up into space so it will shine forever... "

-immortality... without life's sorrows...-

13.(failed writer)
"Failure is human destiny
Failure teaches us that life is but a draft, a long rehearsal for a show that will never play..."

-too right he is... too right he is...-

14.(amelie's co-worker)
"the people i like are mentally unsound"

-speaks for itself-

15.(nino)
"absence makes the heart grow fonder...."

-speaks for itself-

16.(the glass man)
"Your bones arent made of glass. You can take life's knocks. If you let this chance go by, eventually your heart will become as dry and brittle as my skeleton(glass)...."

-dont wanna dont wanna dont know dont know dont wanna, know...-

17.(HIPOLITO)
"Without you today's emotions would be the scurf of yesterdays"

-just when u thought it couldnt get worst eh?-
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whaT?!!!

you know what?
ive come to a decision.. possibly a turning point in my life....
who cares bout all that stuff that brings people down?
really!
the people who get thrashed down to the ground the hardest are those that care...
so im gonna stop caring bout the dumb things and instead save the caring for things that deserve my attention...

"ARE YOU READY?"
Yeah! im ready ... im ready to not care anymore...

the list...

another one on the list of unspeakables?
yeah it looks possible.
ive a feeling once this one goes on,
its never coming of no matter what it does....
ive readied the pen of blood red ink,
readied a key so i wont think.
coz i try to find a alternative decision,
but its impossible in my position.
the higher i went,
the harder the fall that will dent.
ive readied the mask,
coz it wont survive the task.
its already damaged beyond repair,
thanks to life and how it is not fair.
mais, c'est la vie non?
i'll find my smile
soon i wont weigh a ton
cause ill realise hey! its been awhile.
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not good *shakes head*my mind's blank coz i only just woke up... and im not exactly looking forward to the prospect of filming at orchard later... i dont want my life to be like this phrase.. "C'est metro, boulo, dodo"

ive got the perfect answers...

"so why are you running away..."
if u listen close enough, theres so much in the last 6 lines...
ho hoo hoob hoobastank!

things ive been missing

i woke up today feeling crappy... but im gonna sleep today feeling happy (in fact on the brink of being the happiest person on earth... if not for one thing)

stayed up to 2.30am... trying to find a idea for my art&design final assignment... and it then at the most unlikely of times ideas from somewhere(dont ask me where... i was so tired already i have a feeling i was talking complete rubbish that actually made sense haha...)
but still felt like crap though roughly i knew that les garcon de riviere were on the right track for the art&design project...

i tried to sleep but couldnt... kept tossing and turning.. i had a feeling (a very bad one infact) that something was gonna go wrong today... and when i finally did fall asleep... it was with a mind so tired yet so doubtful and worried.... (like running out of memory space =\ ) and i had this weird weird weird weird weird weird dream... (id keep saying weird cause it is weird to the max!) and it was in colour *nods head* (lucid dream! yaya =D) haha...

so in the dream(i wont tell u everything but i'll tell most of (not all) the important stuff....)
so in the dream, les garcon de riviere are filming a project at this old abandoned house that looks haunted for a project... guess what once inside we find out the "haunted" house actually is a haunted house (cheeesy but bare with me...) and theres this lady ghost er... 'floating' around mmm... so what happens is to my horror (hold on to ur eyes cause they are gonna roll right outta their sockets...) the ghost somehow falls head over heels in love with me *ROLL YOUR EYES!!!* (haha i can practically here dx saying his famous line haha "LET'S FACE THE FACTS HERE! the ghost would have fall in love with me not you.." haha thats dx for you in a sentence... ) ok so yes bare with me (its my dream after all so yah...) im trapped and i tell her im actually in love with someone else who i have no idea is for a excuse... (cheesy yes bare with me!) and it actually works coz i pull off a grammy winning performance and managed to escape...
am i suppose to feel bad for the lady ghost? i mean shes lonely yah... but do i want to give up life for her? when i dont even know her... (or maybe i do get to know her but i cant remember!) and then again i think... if "amore" is involved... it technically doesnt matter how bloody different u bloody are if only u know what you want... (i only just made this conclusion... and NO DX she didnt grow whatever haha.... =P) mmmmm... i think im gonna write a long long long long love story during the break already haha... INSPIRED! HOooooooo!

lets see oh yes! back to the other things that happened today...
so during Intro to Film class i was really happy with myself cause i managed to spot that in the film (we watched in class) they didnt show the faces of the soldiers murdering the poor civilians mercilessly (maybe other ppl spotted to and im the only one who said first but hey im actually beginning to catch details again like at the beginning of the year! =D )

And then during break before our Art&Design evaluation on what we have thought off so far les garcon de riviere managed to come up with more extreme ideas for our story which is completely mad! from zeros to heros!!! inspired by rock mmm... haha... so ok the evaluation went Much much much better than i would have ever expected... but still i was kinda worried about the last and msot important thing ... Interview Show "live" Recording...

i as the director am in-charge to make sure every damn thing goes perfectly well... and i have to say.. i thought i was screwed... thought i was gonna drag the whole class into a deep whole of shite(i mean merde).... we took so LONG! to get everything ready... and remember when i said i knew something was wrong thats why i couldnt sleep? well guess what... i FORGOT TO BRING THE TAPE containing the music video by the band... and THERE WERE SO MANY OTHER PROBLEMS TOO!! like the guests were late... like the vinyls we were hanging were so troublesome cause we could see their shadows in the background making everything look so crappy... and like when the guests came they wanted warm water so we had to run and find warm water... and i was rushing to perfect my camera script... and then the studio was like a freaking toaster and the Guests and host and camera people and floormanager were all getting cooked inside... and rehearsals were so like Il Blaissez! im like VA TE FAIRE FOURE! everyone! im so frustrated cause things keep going wrong and it was already 8.40pm we needed a 10 minute recording and we still needed to have a rehearsal cause we were not ready! and its like we only get one shot at recording ! and like STRESS!!!!! and like then the tape player wouldnt play the tape that the guests brought... BUT! then! suddenly everything turned around... like THANKGOD! *gets down on his knees and kisses everything from the floor to the sky to peoples feet*

the show went so smoothly! like O.O its my first recording and i was so nervous... but i gave the right commands though i thought i would be so jumpy id say the wrong things and crap up the world 2 times over.... but everyone did a amazing job! the only mistake in the show was mine... when i cut to a shot when the guy was suppose to pick up the acoustic guitar but i went to a Long Shot which meant everyone can be seen when i should have kept the camera at a Mid SHot of the presenter only and then cut to the guests when they were ready to sing.... OMG! big big mistake maosi!!! WHY?! and so close to the finish line... if we score low for this interview show... i will not stop the crew from blaming me yes... its really my fault yesh yesh ... cause i keep forgetting to do things that i know i am suppose to do like bring things...

but anyway after the show ended (1o minutes and 3 seconds... hurrrr i wanna thank Surreal for being such Amazingly interesting guests! and Nicolette for being a stunningly good host mmm and the crew for being patient with me this past few weeks for being so stressed out at times and shouting at u guys ... hope yall understand stress got the better of me mmmm )

oi! when u guys want your cheese pratas? haha 12 cheese pratas please uncle! ( u guys should know this offer is valid until 21st July midnight... hey isnt that like 20 minutes from now? haha)
nah im just kidding ... MY TREAT! =D

so after another long day... im here boring the socks off of all of you again... mmmm im still listening to Goo Goo Dolls Black Balloon... like nearly every single line i can relate too... its pretty crazy...

im hoping this Sunday ill be able to smile during my game... hoping hoping hoping... *gets on his knees and prays for happiness* .... tomorrow is another long day.... gonna do a street interview with people at orchard road outside wheelock place in the afternoon... so tiring! but still must do hoping its gonna be fun =P "pushing the wheelbarrow is easy.. thinking about it is the hard part" haha.... yep yep yep.... and im still refereeing the 4pm game on sunday.. and then still have my own game at 8pm (probably gonna reach home really really late! =( )

oh my... this has gotta be one of my longest most longwindededededed posts everererererer!!! ( i think yall get the point..=P ) and my bowl of rice is like hardening infront of me...... im not sure if im gonna sleep early today.... i feel the need to reflect on a day where i found things ive been missing.... and most the thing still missing..... =D
good night to the world... ill be back to see ur beauty again tomorrow.. *sighs a happy sigh*

"coming down the world turns over.. and angels fall without you there......"

merci tw...

rejoice cause ive found my confidence and happiness again... u all should go shake tw's hand cause when i heard the lyrics of the song below, i managed to see something only a blind man can... (pretty weird sentence but if u think hard enough u might get the meaning)
i sometimes wanna keep imagining that ive got a "cat" in the box... and i dont want to open the box... neither do i want to leave it (in case the "cat" comes calling) [its from a short film i watched in class.. i think its called the Hiensberg theory or something] the story has so much meaning though it looks so plain... just like most sentences are... but if u only think to use a magnifying glass and examine them carefully u'd be surprised as to what u can find...

its 1.20am.. i know i should go to sleep.. but im suppose to be preparing for tomorrows 'live' interview show recording... (no its not airing live.. but we only get one go.. and since im the director.. im need to make sure everything is perfect... or if everything is screwed up the fingers will point usually at the top man... or it'll reflect badly upon me.. i wonder why i even wanted to be a director in the first place... so dumb??? then again its my dream to direct in films... so u have to start somewhere i guess...)

"Im coming down..."

its pretty crazy what a tired mind can come up with.. u'd be surprised...
for example.. all those sad "heartsick" poems ive been writing past couple of nights/early mornings... all came to me when im pooooped... interesting eh? *wonders what i can do when im fully charge* (for full effect roll eyes now)

"Pushing the wheel barrow is easy.... thinking about it is the hard part..."

no one ever says anything about how hard it is not to think about it...

im trying.. but i think im the only one...
i think i need to start writing happy poems.. but no inspiration mmm...
TW! start practising the chords for the song... we shall record it during school break...

-to the world, goodnight... sleep tight... and i'll be back to see ur beauty tomorrow-

*Now Playing Goo Goo Dolls - Black Balloon*

Baby's black balloon makes her fly
I almost fell into that hole in your life
You're not thinking 'bout tomorrow
'Cause you were the same as me
But on your knees

A thousand other boys could never reach you
How could I have been the one?
I saw the world spin beneath you
And scatter like ice from the spoon
That was your womb

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder

Or are you someone's prayer

You know the lies they always told you
And the love you never knew
What's the things they never showed you
That swallow the light from the sun
Inside your room, yeah yeah

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
Always someone there

And there's no time left for losin'
When you stand they fall, yeah

Comin' down the world turned over
And angels fall without you there
And I go on as you get colder
All because I'm

Comin' down the years turn over
And angels fall without you there
And I'll go on now and lead you home and
All because I'm..all because I'm
I'll become, what you became to me

sleeeeeepy...

such a waste of time goin to SI...
in the end, the "grand tour" around the control room took less than 3 minutes...
luckily i didnt have to skip french class just to have a walk through to see screens and monitors, and busy people...
and standing tickets.. crazy...
smoke machine was bloody behind me... zero fresh air...
crazy screaming people everywhere
the only highlight of the event was sneakily lifting erez up onto our shoulders haha...
i think we should have tossed him up onto the stage haha...

y does time pass so slowly when u r sitting around with nth to do?
mayb im bored... but i dont feel like doing much... suppose to be typing out my 3rd draft now..but i dont feel even a teeeeneey weeeneeey bit inspired cause i feel so crappy now...

how to smile on sunday's game man?
im hoping tomorrow, friday and saturday will bring me some happiness...
but then again i dont think so...
so many things to do... and i am just one person...
(but one person can do alot)
theres too much detail in everything happening now...
its filled my mind to the brim...
and soon its gonna start over-flowing...
im waiting for august... when the school break will start...
and i can try to find back my motivation....

He rests his head on the table red
and dreams of what awaits him in bed
shadows and unknowns in his head
if only he had a guide to read
a guide that would lead him out into light
where everything isnt so tight
and he wouldnt have to fight
for things to be right

sfe sfe sfeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

i love afternoon naps in cool rainy weather....
i love my messed up hair after every afternoon nap...
i love my momma...
i love chocolate pancakes! (ahhh just make that all chocolatety stuff :P)
i love this feeling!
i love this feeling that i love that feeling!
i love this feeling that i love that feeling that loves that feeling!
i love this..................................... ( u get the picture haha... )
i love amazing music with amazing lyrics...
i love erm... food?
i love french
i love movies
i love Pirates of the Caribbean
i love all intriguing languages (that doesnt include chinese haha.. [yes i know im biased] =P )
i love all my pals....
i love all my club mates... (or try to... [some are jsut like .....will u stop that!])
i love the fresh fresh fresh air that i can smell outside...
i love my classmates in school.. (yesh t1b1 weeeeee!)


I love where im taking my life too at the moment..
~i love my game..
~i love how i referee my game...
i love the fact that im doing something useful with my life... and it is a choice that i made...
i love the fact that im living for myself...
i love my nice small family... (ma maman, ma soeur et ma frere.... c'est ca..)
i love the fact that im late for my class fieldtrip but im still calm... and composed.. (wait... im latE!!!!?)

ok im off... dont forget people... turn on ur tv's at 8pm to channel 5.. and if u see me and my ugly mug... drop me a sms telling me how stupid i look haha....
au-revoir monde!

the monster in a neglected soul

No longer can i neglect my soul,
no longer will i be something foul.
I cut its path
and drag it beneath the depths.
the depths that is my mind
and one day i will return and shine
now i search and find
for a world that is mine....

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I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'cos I have been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel the love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
bye=)

mmm on a brighter note!

watched pirates of the caribbean today... (suppose to do a project but... oh well...all work and no play makes maosi a sad boy :( )
it was amazing mmm... whos up for round 2?! haha... i wanna see it again! but i know it wouldnt be the "smart" thing to do now....

i need to get a job... (psst! a sigh's missing)
pay for my own bills and everything...
*calculates in his head*
(if i ref 2 games every weekend, i make $40 a week.... thats $160 a month... thats $320 every 2 months... so i can pay for french *Ka-Ching*... and im left with about $80... i need about $95 for my concession fare per month!... can i do 4 games a week? [will i be tired? =/] most likely yes... spending my weekends earning dough... but i dont think the ref committee will approve.. [they're very strick on 'employee welfare'... hmmm if i take over as coach of the st.gab's team [though i doubt mr.ng will want me =( ] i can make another $50 a week... so estimated earnin a week is now $90... still short... *shakes head*... if i get a part-time job over the holidays i might get more... but might be a little tooooo tiring... what else can i do to earn cash??? [if only i was smart enough to give tution than can like theprincess "over-charge" ppl money...haha] but im no teacher haha... how how how?! sign up as a intern in mediacorp? no way.. my most hated classmate is going to.. and if i go im only gona be getting myself high blood pressure plus they dont pay alot for interns... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......... go basking? haha.. nope definitely no.. dont wanna steal money from the poor folks who really have none... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... i need to think of something and quick! and i've still got phone bills!! -looks like no expensive food from olio @ l'alliance anymore haha-)

hmmmm... oh well.. im sure i'll find someway to solve this problem... mmmmm..

*Now Playing Robbie Williams - Angels* =)

"im loving angels instead....."

the devil....

so long since i last saw "it".... and i want it to stay this way...
"it"'s not worth my time...

"it" commands me to meet "it" every sunday from 10am to 6pm...
obviously the answer is a straight NO!
doesnt "it" like having the 'freedom' to do whatever "it" wants?
didnt "it" leave without a backward glance?
and now "it" wants to get a court order and make life complicated for us?
i wonder its like being the devil......
(if i was left alone on earth with "it", i'd kill myself no doubt.... i'd rather suffer in hell for suicide than live an eternity with "it")

smile...

Lonestar's Smile...

I still remember the night we met
You said you loved my smile
But your love for me was like a summer breeze
Oh, it lasted for a while
I could hold on a little tighter I know
But when you love someone you gotta let 'em go so

I'm gonna smile
'Cause I want to make you happy
Laugh, so you can't see me cry
I'm gonna let you go in style
And even if it kills me
I'm gonna smile

Kiss me once for the good times, baby
Kiss me twice for goodbye
You can't help how you don't feel
And it doesn't matter why
Give me a chance to bow out gracefully
'Cause that's how I want you to remember me

I'm gonna smile
'Cause I want to make you happy
Laugh, so you can't see me cry
I'm gonna let you go in style
And even if it kills me
I'm gonna smile

I'm gonna smile
So you can find the courage
Laugh, so you won't see me hurtin'
I'm gonna let you go in style
And even if it kills me
I'm gonna smile

"and even if it kills me... im gonna smile.."

killer lyrics...
my deep dark sad side says today was a complete waste...
but the brighter side of me says todays was just another beautiful day...
so i know theres at least someting to smile about tomorrow...
...
i thought i had it covered... but it seems theres some lopeholes in my "Unstoppable" plan....
oh well... gonna go to bed... i'll probably realise wat i have to do by the time i wake up... hopefully it isnt another depressing decision (though it may be the happiest, wisest decision i make down the road)...

"my head speaks a language i dont understand..."

Oh yes! of course nearly forgot... Rez... your nick is gonna become a poem haha...
(the first 2 lines are from one of Les Garcons de Riviere msn nicks... i decided to play around with it haha...)

Tears of a mindless heart

I wasted all my tears,
Wasted all those years.
But now i've got nothing to fear,
Cause i know im the only one here.
I only wanted you to hear,
But now ive found the cure.
And baby it isnt you,
This is no longer a game for two.
I stand here now healed by my wrongs,
I stand here now cured by my heartless mind
which no longer longs for your touch,
cause it no longer cares much.

okie... sleep is upon me...
*Hopes tomorrow bring "better days"*
"i wont watch my life crashing down on me..."

crash and burn....

Ppl! ppl! turn those speaker knobbies up!! comeon!

*Now Playing - Ronan Keating & Leann Rimes - Last Thing On My Mind*

Four o’clock in the morning ~
My mind’s filled with a thousand thoughts of you ~
How you left me without a warning
But looking back I’m sure you tried to talk it through

Now I see it so clearly
We are together but living separate lives

So, I wanna tell you I’m sorry ~
Baby, I can’t find the words ~
But, if I could ~
Than you know I would, yeahhhhhh

No, I won’t let go ~
Know why we can be ~
I won't watch my life crashing down on me ~
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh ~
Girl I’m sorry now we're the last thing on my mind

You carried me like a river ~
How far we have come still surprises me

Now, I look in the mirror (look in the mirror)
Staring back is a man that used to be with you
How I long for you ~

No, I won’t let go
Know why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh
Girl I’m sorry now we're the last thing on my mind

Girl I’m sorry I was wrong
Could have been there, should have been so strong ~
So, I’m sorry

Ohhhhhhh
No, I won’t let go
Know why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh
Girl I’m sorry now we're the last thing on my mind (on my mind)

I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh
Girl I’m sorry now we're the last thing on my mind
On my mind (on my mind)


let maosi explain the frustration he has...
so he was this happy carefree chap.. not a care in the world but living life his way...
and tra la la la la BANG... he walks right into a pit in the ground...
u'd think he would have broken his legs but in this pit he's floats like a cloud in the orange skies... everynow and then though, he is sent crashing down to the bottom...
he manages to climb out of the pit... swearing to the world never to fall into another anytime soon... guess what? on his last step out of the pit... he slips and falls right back in... (blame soil eroison... haha) and this time he's going to give the new life a go... one with floating and everything... knowing one day... he might just float straight through heaven's gates...

*knocks screen...*
oi wake up! u dont come to my blog just to sleep...

-ive no idea what im doing... im making myself a new path through the long grass... hoping and praying to find what im looking for on the other side... and not just a cliff... (AAAAaaaaaaaaa....... *splash*)-

Celine Dion!!! =D

BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME (Celine Dion)

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Celine dion mmm.... when i was *thinks* 5 years old i think... my sister and i would grab out our mums old celine dion cd... her singing voice is one of the most memorable things in my blur blur life (haha... im not the brightest kid around the block ok... i got my head stuck in errr... some place stupid lar haha... fascination of all kids who arent tall enough to stick their heads into places definitely too small for em haha...)

i think i know wat cd's im going to buy... im going to save up cash... and buy all her albums.. i think there are hundreds haha... (dun worry princess i'll save some for the charity fund haha)

and i want to go to Las Vegas to watch her live... (this has to be one of the things i would want to do if my life is ending soon...)

"You were my strength when i was weak..."

=)

time machine....

Comeon hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste

I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

Scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrive
I can see myself coming

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
Cos I got too much life
Running thru my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel
Real love and the love ever after
I can not get enough

I just wanna feel
Real love fill the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running thru my veins
To go to waste
I just wanna feel
Real love and the love ever after

There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Comeon hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand

this song is a classic... i dont think i have to tell u guys who it is...
*whispers* (but for all those that dont know... Robbie Williams - Feel)

i might just go and find myself a cd one of these days... and probably go and watch PiratesofTheCaribbean too (hopefully i can find someone who hasnt seen it yet haha... WHY ARE ALL OF U SO KANCHIONG!?)

and buy myself some new movies to watch at home..... e.g. goblet of fire, the red violin(its actually R21 like wth... just because of one bloody "Arty Farty" seen that spoils the whole movie...)

*now playing Nicole Kidman&Robbie Williams - Something Stupid*
*dances to the music*
haha....
beautiful music at its best... an escape from life at its worst for some maybe...

school tomorrow hoping we'll be watching some nice film mmm(hopin it isnt one of those cheesy chinese ones haha =P )

(i am yoda!)
so boring life is..... (or is it?)
so tiring life is.... (or is it?)
real love i just wanna feel...
Preparing to leave her before i fall in love i am....(haha dont mind that im just listening to Feel again haha...) -maythe'force'bewithme-

haha....

too much going to waste... need to find something i can keep myself busy with... maybe get a job or something when school break is here (4 more weeks =D )... keeping myself busy so i wont have so much time to think of stupid things... (though i like thinking of stupid things haha)

i feel another robbie williams song coming on...

Don't let your eyes tell the brain
You should feel ashamed
Everyone needs it baby
And I feel the same
Didn't quite catch your name

Hush, hush, hush
Don't say a thing
Let's see what the night will bring
It might be everything

Oh it hurts
When you're too blind to see
Please don't read my mind
I tell the truth to me

Sin sin sin
Look where we've been
And where we are tonight
Hate the sin not the sinner
I'm just after a glimmer
Of love and light
Deep inside

Hush hush hush
To speak is a sin
And neither of us
Need rescuing

Just relax
It's what Jesus would do
We're made in his image baby
Let's ride this thing through

Oh it hurts
When you're to blind to see
What about us
Well it was just for me

Sin sin sin
Look where we've been
And where we are tonight
Hate the sin not the sinner
I'm just after a glimmer
Of love and light
Deep inside

I won't sing of amore
It don't sound sincere
Love is a cliche
But it fits not here
I'll disappear

Sin sin sin
Look where we've been
And where we are tonight
Hate the sin not the sinner
I'm just after a glimmer
Of love and light
Deep inside
Deep inside
It's love
I love you
You love my
Hate how it it feels inside
Feels inside
Feels inside

heeeeeeeeeeee... more reasons to be happy heeeeeeeee... =D

"Change of date for Singapore Idol (Melvin, Smile!)"
haha... this was the title of a email my Studio lecturer sent to my classmates and i...
y does she say Melvin, Smile? haha

mmm she was telling us after wednesday's interview show rehearsal that she managed to get the director or producer (nt sure which guy).... of Singapore Idol to allow us to look around when they are having the rehearsal for the live show....the date first set was thursday mmmm and it would drag on to about 8.30pm... (unless i stay for the live show as well then it will end around 10 i think)
like so sad... im the only one who put up my hand saying i cant on thursday... french lessons is very expensive u know!!! ... and its very fun tooo mmm... its one of the things i look forward to every week.... and just when i was going to surrender all hope and just miss the french lesson, i found a email with that title saying that the Producer/Director of Singapore Idol says we can only go on wednesday evening...
so im like YES!!!! Hooooooooooooooo!
Not only do i get to go behind the scenes at the Singapore Idol set! (which is a once in a lifetime opportunity unless u r like some big shot at mediacorp)
I also get to go for french class! =D
and maybe go for pepperlunch before french class with tw, jam, mj and the 2 hwa chong jc teachers(im sorry i forgot ur names!!! =X ) in our class....
this week doesnt seem so bad after all! =D

heeeeeee... =D

we lost 8-3 today but im smiling mmm (no im not crazy haha)

this really wise friend told me this...

".... remind yourself that its the experience that you are after, not only the trophy..
you didnt lose everything today... you gained experience...... go get a early night. its a new beginning when u wake up tomorrow...."

i dont think i grieved at all today haha... i know i didnt play the way i wanted too in the first 2 periods...
i was so... not me... i was not enjoying the game... then right before the 3rd period started i saw something... it jolted the sense back into me...
and i began smiling (like ronaldinho does or like zidane did when he lead france to victory against brazil... yes ppl football fever still not leaving me haha...)
once i started smiling... i started enjoying my game... and when i started enjoying my game i feel i played better... (though i didnt score or assist =\ .... so cha...)

mmm.. not gonna referee the games tomorrow... im on sick leave haha... the head wont leave me alonE!!!! like headache and non-stop thinking!!! ubber heavy!!!
yes ppl... i know i should try to sleep... well tried... couldnt... gave up... and so here i am! =D

writing about wat may seem like the most boring things in my life to you... =P....

found my hoobastank cd mmm nice nice... "So why are you running awaY?"

Im your friend my friends..... =)

"Now Playing You've Got A Friend(Carole King)- McFly"

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, oh nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you gotta to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Should turn dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon i'll be knocking upon your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you gotta to do is call
And I'll be there

Hey ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
Well they'll take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you gotta to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

my random thoughts...

ReadY?

Ok so ive noticed that i am only blogging about stuff that is closest to my heart (or simply just in my head)... i feel like im a little bit selfish and i wanna change this image...
I will from now on talk about nothing of myself.. i shall talk about other people and their problems... stuff like politics...

Ok soooooooo first post of the new me...







NAH! im only joking... i think i like the selfish me =P.... (hahaha...)
so i shall be selfish and tell everyone what a bad week this has been so far... just like every other week that where life is tricking us all....




(psst... i wrote in invisible ink) ~ifufallforthisumustbecrazy=P~

ok so anyway....

i think life is crappy only because people make the wrong decisions and the stupid cause-and-effect change is actually real and decides to make single choice u make have a effect and so if u do something wrong but u didnt when u did it cause it actually seemed like a good idea at the time that u did it and in the end it turns out to be just another bad choice made in your life that leads to another sad thing in your life that leads to you feeling depressed like me(im nt that depressed) and u look and give yourself hopes like waiting for something like in DX's pov(andmine?)
waiting for someone everytime it really turns out crappy cause it really wont happen so just do yourself a favour and just give up!!!! cause the man is jsut gonna keep crapping over all over your head and turn everything u do into shite...

(note to self and everyone... this entire paragraph is to be read in one breath)
the first person to do so, tell me and i will give u a special prize(its actually a title)....

Congratulations! u've just won yourself the title of *drum roll*
"The Only Person In The World That Doesnt Need To Breathe Because He/She Is Already Dead and So Doesnt Need Air To Function And So Can Read That Long Long Long Paragraph That Maosi Wrote AND This Title"
=) dont u just feel special (whoever u are) that u are the only one who can tell others your title?
wow wat a feeling (please sense the sarcasm) ... u really should give yourself a pat on the back...

"ooo question question Mr.Mao...."(jumps up and down excitedly)

WHY is maosi suddenly so happy today?
TEH TEH! WRONG AGAIN JOHNNY!
Maosi isnt happy today... hes just being stupid and dumb and wasting your time making u read all this crap for NOTHING! *Nods Head Rapidly as if Air Guitaring*

"oo question question Mr.Mao..."(jumps up and down excitedly again)
"YES WHAT?
WHY is maosi so sad today?
*please read the top because...*
JOHNNY HAS JUST WON A MILLION DOLLARS FOR BEING THE WEAKEST LINK!
"i did?"
OF COURSE U DID!!!
"is this some trick or scam?"
DO YOU want the money or not?!
(turns too look at the people in the world)"dont u guys think this is a scam?"
*takes out bag filled with a million dollars*HOW about you count that and u tell me if its a scam..
*tosses bag at his feet*
"1,2,3,4,5,6.......99........6000........999999, 1000000! it really isnt a scam?! WEeee I won a million dollars!!!!"
Yes for being stupid on my show... youaretheweakestlink goodbye.....
(starts making his way to the door and tries to open it....)
Security! SECURITY!!! that man is walking off with our million dollars!!! SECURITY!!!!
"what? who? me? but i thought..."

TEH TEH! WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!

when is the world gonna learn the world isnt like it seems?
when am i gonna learn I AM NOT THE ONE!?
when am i gonna learn to be like everyone else?!?
WHEN WHEN WHEN?! QUAND QUAND QUAND?!
I'll tell u when...... never....
U wanna know why i am the way i am? Cause I'm special*rolls eyes at himself*
Special in what way?
Im special cause i DONT! Want to be! like everyone else!!!
And that is wat makes me special in my opinion...
but the thing that just happens to tick me off is that im special...
Im so special i dont dare do something that i know i should do...
Im so special i cry at night in my sleep and jeeez im a guy?
Im so special i tell myself i AM DIFFERENT!
Im not a human being!
Im some alien from outer space!
Im not made to love or be loved! (ok maybe i can love..)
Im not made to have a perfect life! (hey no ones perfect..)
Im not made for things that i want! (Sometimes u want too much...)
Im not made for things that i need! (u really dont need those thing...)
IM made because....................................................... ive never really thought about it...
( u wanna know why u r made maosi? u r made cause god loves u and im know deep down inside u u know he loves u.... )
( u were made to make ppl laugh... )
( u were made to enjoy the beauty of life )
( u were made to tell everyone whatever they just read is really just for them to laugh and if they didnt u have failed and are probably gonna get fired and here's your final paycheck coming right now.. as u said made payable to the mrsfieldsforjamaine fund )

~EndScene~

step away...

recently, i've been getting comments like this from my schoolmates.....
"Hey are you alright?"
"Im very scared of you... u seem so stressed"
"You seem so quiet"
"You seem so tired"
"Relax..... dont stress"
u wanna know something? i feel the exact same way about myself....

in April when i first started school i definitely wasnt like that...
i wasn't scary... i wasn't stressed..
i didnt have baggies under my eyes...
i was a "Never say die" person...

im hoping i'll soon return to normal again... but i doubt it will happen for another month or so...
i really dont know...
i really dont understand....

but in all that my life isn't a living hell...
i dont think it will ever go back down to hell....
i was in hell the first 16 years of my life....
but i escaped this year... it left me..
though it tries ever so hard to destroy my peace and happiness...
dont think u know my life until u've lived it....
16 years of torture....
and even if the rest of my life is gonna be torture, i would rather live one happy day to balance the rest...
one bright, windy, orange day where nothing goes wrong... everything is perfect... (i know it seems impossible... but today i "just happen" to hear something i always tell myself)
"if u carry your hope with you, no matter how desperate and tired u are, no matter how defeated ur situation feels, hope will carry through..."

i dont wanna sleep....
i know wat awaits me...
but i know i cant flee...
from the deep
and dark dream in my sleep...


i need sometime alone... im jammed in between...
ive got a difficult choice o make...
My life or My dreams....
How do u choose something so alike? my dreams seem so real...
i really dont know what to choose... why did the 'boss' have to do this?
does he think its fun to see me suffer in confusion?
or is he actually trying to help me see that im confused about possibly nothing...
im nt gonna ask for his voice...
he doesnt speak.. he shows...
and i know sooner or later... i will see the final outcome... though i may nt like it...

ok i think im gonna sleep... i cant do the essay tonight... im simply too tired and confused...
probably do it tomorrow morning... hopefully i'll feel better...

"im searching for Better Days..."

if tomorrow never comes

one day ill end the confusion...
one day ill end the sadness
one day ill wipe away your tears...
one day ill protect u from life's worries
one day ill guide u every step of the way
one day my world will belong to you
one day my heart, mind and soul will be yours to break...
one day my prayers will be answered...
but if tomorrow never comes, u will never know ever after..........

pretty intriguing post... especially from a mind that is soooo tired ... its 1.30 am
and ive got school at 8am later (which means i wake up at 6am) ive gt so many things to do....
but ive got so many thoughts to analyze...
so many thoughts i want to understand ...
so much so that i feel my mind is blocked half the time...

"tonight my world begins again... i wish everyone is loved tonight... so take these words and sing out loud cause everone is forgiven now... cause tonight's the night the world begins again..."

i hope for a better world...
i keep none for myself....

"living a life that i cant leave behind....."
"everday my confusion grows"

"will she ever doubt the way i feel about her in my heart?"

"if u leave where will u go? before the regret u hold in your heart will start to show?"

i dream i dont sleep...




-these are all random thoughts from a random mind.... its gotta get out someway... but i still feel this heavy load on my shoulders that i cant relieve myself off.... =\ -

thinkers

"Now Playing The Corrs - Silver Strand"

music for thinkers mmmm...
like me mmm
thinky thinky thinky....

In honour of Zul....

Hi to all in this close knitted floorball community,

I am writing this email in rememberance of a friend that just passed away, Zul.
Zul had a motorbike accident recently, and he had a fellow teammate that was riding pillion.This happened on the Monday after the 1st week of Div 2 Games.
Zul is the founder of Division 2 Club, Slay-K. He was my army campmate and also a close pal. My first floorball experience was introduced by him, and till today I appreciate his kind gesture to invite the only chinese into his all malay team.He enjoys sharing with others his unique floorball passion even though he told me before, that his club seldom enjoy much playing or even training opportunities.I admire what Zul has done, making floorball enjoyable, for his close friends, neighbourhood pals and hockey boys who come from Yuhua Sec Sch. I will remember Zul for what a simple and passionate bloke he was, and for being someone who don't look down on anybody, sharing his unique floorball passion with so many people regardless of who they are, be it inexperienced in floorball, race or even money.The pillion rider, Mat Nor is still in ICU, and I hope friends who still have not heard of the accident, do pray for a fellow floorball player in arms, and wish that he will recover to the best he can.A group of us - close friends, will be setting up a small informal fund raiser for Zul's family and Mat Nor.There will be a donation box set up during this coming 15th and 16th July (Sat & Sun) Div 2 Matches @ Tmp Sports Hall. Please contribute any amount, be it small or big, and we will pass this token sum to their families, to tide them over some critical expenses.We will greatly appreciate any help during this trying time of their families and give them our support!Please spread the msg to your club members/teammates and any amt will do, try to consolidate a group amt if possible, and place it in an envolope to pass to us.Any enquiries, please contact SIM Floorball Club: simfloorball@hotmail.com

Eddie Hoon
SIM Floorball Club
PresidentHP: 93696664

(i received this email today mmmm ... may the big boss be with Zul where ever he is right now =) )

Quizzy from princess smiley...

My teacher once said that I am a fat lazy pig (for nt doing my homework and sleeping in class) =P
Never in my life have I been this happy (since the beginning of this year... happiest b'day ever!)
The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile is me, myself and I
I like lines because erm... "They are a basic element in art&design" (i scored 14/15 for the module quiz hehe =P)
When I'm nervous my hands tremble... i dont speak much cause im afraid i might puke.. my heart works overtime... my mind bounces up and down in my head...
The last time I laughed was just now... but i dont remember what for....
My hair is messy/bushy and blah blah blah... but i like it mmmm =D (be content with what u have *nods head*)
My feet are size 10 & 1/2... and they stink ( i just came home from school can!)
Last last Christmas was just like every other normal day... =(
When I turn my head left, im looking out my study window and i see the breath-taking cloudy sky in different shades of blue... and my hair is blown back by the nice cool breeze... *sighs a happy sigh*
When I turn my head right, i see my mom at her laptop(playing solitaire again i think haha... i see my sketchbook with my assignment i have yet to complete... i see my stupid apple laptop thats causing me migrains everytime cause it wont turn on!!!... i see my joystick(that i play fifa with when dx and rez come over hahaha).... and i see the rest of the messy room that is the study mmm...
When i look down i see my stinky, veiny feet? haha....
The craziest recent event was hmmmmmmmmmmm..... doing up the stupid Interview show's Proposal and its brother the Production Booklet.... (no fun no fun no fun!! *shakes head*)
By this time next year I will be erm... complaining about the work i need to do for school erm... hopefully playing with a division 1 team in the floorball league...... be very very very happy coz erm... no idea mmmm haha... (think happy thoughts!)
I have a hard time understanding the world ..... ( 2 words covers everthing there is... but lets play along mmm haha ill list some ) lets see... People (who are posers/attention seekers, or the crazy things they do), Life?, Love?(coz ppl simply dont understand the meaning of love sometimes mmm), myself? haha (thats why i drive myself nuts sometimes) and everything else that i cant think off right now mmm...
One time at a family gathering i was actually enjoying myself...(most of my family gatherings are pretty much the same.... =( )
You know i like-like you when u know... (it'll just drop from the sky into ur head haha)
If I won an award, the first person I'd thank would be the person who gave me the award ( and ask if he/she got the right person cause i didnt enter any competition haha mmm)
and the "boss" of course mmm
Triangles are stupid bcos they are SO INTERESTING!!! haha... i love them cause they are stupidly interesting... i love them cause i topped the class in a couple of math tests thanks to them mmmm (sec 4 only haha... i was failing maths for 3 and a half years and then suddenly topping the class mmm haha... Mr.Koh(my maths teacher) was like O.O... are you on crack melvin? haha)
My ideal breakfast is sitting under the sky... in a nice wide open field... its not too hot and its really windy.... people being happy left and right ... and im sitting there with someone special mmm (hopefully in the future yesh mmm picnic anyone?)
If you make me really happy i'll do my best to return the favour mmm plus i'll probably be smiling/laughing so hard that my cheeks would ache
Where do you plan to visit anytime soon the bathroom to take a shower mm haha.. i'd like to go to europe!!!!
Girls are complicated
Guys are complicated too haha
I'd stop my wedding if i know its not going to last anyway.(mm same as the princess mmm... e.g. if i found out my fiancee was in actual fact a guy mmm like OMG! haha)
The world could do without politicians.... (they are technically the main source of conflict)
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than eat it haha......
Most recent thing you've bought yourself was a no not a... was 4 chocolate pancakes for snacks mmm *Yummy yummY!*
Most recent thing someone else bought you was hmmm.... its been awhile since anyone bought me anything in real life mmm (i like to buy my own stuff mmm) so ill have to say the shirt that the princess bought me yesterday in o2jam...(though im nt sure i received it yet...
My least favourite time of the day is when i am sleepin... (though la la land isnt that bad...)
And by the way, please hold on to me before i toss my apple laptop out thw window cause it still wont start .... =/
The last time I was high i had just scored the equalising goal in the Nighthawks and Millenia game last last weekend... haha ( i did the fly emirates thingy infront of the millenia bench.. like adding oil to the fire)
The person whom I last talked to told me that i am crazy for eating so many chocolate pancakes mmm haha =D
Last night, i was doing the Production Booklet with dx for the interview show... and watching the world cup mmm
There's this girl I know who will behead me if i dont contribute constantly to the mrsfieldsforjamaine's fund =P
There's this guy I know who is the laziest person on earth *shakes head* hes worst than me mmm.... and he has the same initials as me... MC
I'll tell the next person who makes me really happy HAPPY!
I'm listening to Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
I last ate 4 chocolate pancakes? haha
My bedsheet is not expensive at all mmm haha
I smell the stink of my feet haha...
On my table, i have too many things to type out...
My full name is chan chee hung melvin (if i had it my way i would get my name changed to melvin maosi finwe ancalimon chee hung haha... then i wouldnt need to take the name of a bas*toooot* mmm...

the power of caring : lecon 2

now to prove true caring to anyone u must face the test of time...
ive got 3 songs here (1 after the next)
if anyone can stay and listen (it tkaes roughly 11 minutes)
and decipher the songs meanings...
u have got the the power of caring... mmmm

A story

(To my already emo readers... skip this post cause its gonna crap ur bloody life up)

Once upon a time there was a muscle...
this particular muscle was the most important in every body...
one day this muscle found something amazing.... something so rare on earth something so beautiful that it made it feel strong, weak and hurt at the same time...
this continued for several weeks and after much consideration, it put itself a test hoping to prove itself wrong...
the test came out the other way around... the heart had proven itself right... proven that that rare gem was nothing more than another pebble in a river...
in that one splitting second, it was as though it had fallen from the top of mt.everest all the way down to the the ground... squashed and shattered beyond repair...
it cries and cries hoping for some way that it will be alright again... but the cure it needs just happens to be a gem... a gem beyond the beauty of all others... something so beautiful it would heal the hurt within a heartbeat...
stuck, paralyzed where it is, it knows it will never find another gem as beautiful as the one it threw away... and so the heart inscribed guidelines for all the other hearts that would climb everest as well.... it wrote of its experience to the top... and how it was close to flying... and it wrote of its painful fall to the bottom where it will probably rest for all eternity... it realises it can only teach others but cant apply to its own situation... a situation beyond repair...

(this story was based on a true story mmm ... amazing how people can be inspiring right? =D )

the power of caring...

let me show everyone the power of caring...
to do this im gonna show everyone what is not caring...
im not gonna bother to put the lyrics for the song up... im not gonna put the name of the band nor the name of the song... if YOU care... you will listen hard at the lyrics and understand the song and its many hidden meanings...

that, is the power of caring.....

beauty...

never seen such beauty? well maybe u've never paused to look...
(or u simply arent lucky enough to stay on a nice high floor with a spectacular view mmm hahaha)

haha listening to "2 Become 1" remade by Paul Gilbert haha...
"set your spirit free its the only way to be....."
hahahhaa... the happy mad guys (Nigel, Dexian, Rez and me) haha singing in class
"get it on get it on"
haha... =D
*guitar solo*
"be alittle bit wiser baby..."

ok ok i'll stop singing now haha...

'a unexpected sighting... a thing of beauty'
(im gonna sigh but its a happy sigh mmm *nods head* haha.... u cant tell me i cant sigh happy sighs right princess? =P )

My "ticket to heaven"

*Now Playing 3 Doors Down - Ticket To Heaven*

I’m walking a wire, feel likes a thousand ways I could fall
To want is to buy, but to live is to die and you can’t take it all
When everything is said and done I won’t have one thing left
What happened to everything that I ever known

All thay gave me was this ticket to heaven, that ticket to heaven,
said to lie in the bed that you make
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
I’m running from everything, I’m afraid it’s a little too late

Soft voices lie, innocents die
Now ain't that a shame
And all your dreams, and all your money they don’t mean a thing
When everything is said and done, you won’t have one thing left
What happened to everything that I ever known

All they gave me was this ticket to heaven, that ticket to heaven,
said to lie in the bed that you make
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,I’m running from everything, I’m afraid it’s a little too late
It’s a little too late

All they gave me was this ticket to heaven, that ticket to heaven,
said to lie in the bed that you make
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
I’m running from everything, I’m afraid it’s a little too late

All he gave me was this ticket to heaven, that ticket to heaven,
said to lie in the bed that you make
Now I’m restless and I’m running from everything,
I’m running from everything, I’m afraid it’s a little too late
It’s a little too late


"all he gave me was this ticket to heaven"....
most people wont know what their ticket is mmm... but ive got a rough idea what mine should be haha =P (not telling!)
Rez seems emo too mmm cause he listened to "true" and you know when you know mmm.... hahahah..
and maosi is suppose to make people happy not make people emo no no no...
i am suppose to be the cure top sadness, anger, emoness, and whatever... im suppose to get people happy again mmmm with my laughy laughy here and there.. im suppose to make everything seem so much more funny mmm (in a good sense.. nt in the sense that it isnt important *shakes head*)
NO MATTER HOW EMO I AM! I will keep fighting for a world without emoness mmm... hahahha... but for certain people who act emo to try to get attention, sorry cant help you.. thats out of my league mmm why do people need to pose/act like someone else (usually someone they idolise)
i mean look at maosi!! i am 100% sure that no one else has my hairstyle hahaha bushy and thick and watever at least its original hahhaa (coz im too lazy to go get it cut =P)
who else in this world makes people think hes a nerd but actually happens to be something more interesting? (roll eyes now to get full effect) haha erez should understand this sentence best....
Onz!
Sue!
LAI!!!!!!!
haha les garcons de riviere
we should call ourselves Les Garcons Heureux de Riviere
the happy river boys mmm hahaha =D

this has definitely gotta be one of my happier posts mmm...
"coz all they gave me was this ticket to heaven"
and i think i found it
and i think ill be getting on that train (calling all angels) soon mmmm hahahha... [maosi has gone looney]

But! *yanks head out of the clouds* ive still got my 1st draft for the final essay to do!! cause the first one was so like (Grande Merde!!! ) haha dx and rez should understand that mmm haha

to the world of happiness...
where loneliness and sadness are sins...