bad thoughts at 444

so kinda happy am gonna go to tioman tmr with marie..

but right now kind of thinking of some thingg.. and ponderinggg.. 

and thinking about possibilities...
majority of them are bad..

and i don't really want to picture it.. and i don't think I want to confront it..

maybe we'll just wait and see and it may just turn out to be nothing..

stupid really.. should have just gone to bed instead of waiting for the stupid movies to be ready to be synced into my iPod for the loooong bus trip.. figured i'd go surf the web.. 

saw Something, read Somethings, thought about those things.. put A and B together.. and?

A + B is either = to Tragedy, Anger, a betrayal of Trust, a betrayal of Freedom, and so much more Anger.. 

or

A + B = nothing..

after all i have jumped to conclusions before.. and often this usually lead me to laugh the whole situation off after.. though i feel like shit then.. 

so i'm praying it's nothing, and i'm thinking to deep, and that this is not All going down the drain like Before..

(oh my god look... look... look...)