the reds without heads...

dumb people for the day...

Rafael Benitez(Liverpool manager)
-stop the stupid squad rotations!
-why put Momo Sissoko who can't score even if a goal danced infront of him unwrapped let alone gift-wrapped... why put in a defensive midfield player in a game you should attack? lack of confidence?
-why leave out Aurelio after a amazing match against Galatasary? why put Risse who can't cross as good?

Assitant referee(Liverpool half in the first half)
-yah... Sureeeeeeeee Reina hugged the ball out of the gk area.. sureeeeeee... talk about zero error...

Risse
-for thinking he's Ronaldinho and trying to dribble pass opponents when there are clear passes available... carryy onnnnn

Heros and Winners for the day...

Sam Allardice(Bolton Manager)
-simply because i like to watch his face haha.. he's angry and shouting at one player and in the next second *pooof* anger's gone and all praises for the next player.. haha...

Kuyt(Liverpool striker)
-though he had a 2-inch gash across his head he continued playing all the same... with a new hair dye haha.. (it looked cooool i mean if u didn't know it was blood u'd think.. man Kuyt's got taste! think gold hair with a artisticly curved red blotch)

Evan Campo(Bolton midfielder)
-friends through thick and thin indeed...

the rest of Liverpool squad
-for trying their best.. "You'll Never Walk Aloneeee!"

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i saw the Bolton team using this machine where the players stand on it.. and the platform will vibrate.. it's one of those "expermental" but i think on edge of becoming "facts" kind of things... we discussed a wee bit about it during the coaching course...
here's the theory for those of ya interested.. (don't worry it wont be as long as the heavy people one)
so basically our bodies are never stationary for one moment.. even though we don't feel it, our bodies are actually vibrating just that weee bit and this vibrations are from (i think it was the arteries or something)... and the vibrating platform sort off help's ready the body by aiding blood flow and through if your blood is circulating faster you will be more able to react quickly... fascinating stuff aint it?

okie gonna go watch a movie on ch5...

more random shite...

the other day i told one of the jc teachers, jocilyn, that fat people have B.O. ( to be forward )... after looking back on that huge statement i realised a couple of things...
1) i sounded really really really mean... =X (eeeeevillll.. i feel so irritated with myself for being so heartless... shoot me.. oui)
2) i've a reason to believe so especially after going through the coaching course...

basically people who are heavier (seee im becoming more mindful of people and their feelings!! =D ) require a considerable amount more energy to move their body around..
a slim person who runs puts 7 times his own body weight on which ever leg hits the floor sooo..
if we use this theory (which i believe is true because i have my reasons) it will still remain the same for a heavier person 7 times no change there... BUT... we forget the person is infact heavier! and considering the possibility they have the same amount of muscular strength as the slim person they will need their muscles to work harder, muscles working harder would mean more contractions would mean more heat produced would mean more perspiration produced to keep the body temp. at normal body temp. of around 37 degrees C..... seee! i've a scientific explanation!! i'm not meannn.. mmhmmm... i mean even if i were to perspire i would stink after awhile like DUH... because what we smell is the salts and minerals that came out with the water as perspiration but the water is gone now so what we have left is the salt and stuff and that stuff don't smell too good especially having been in a human body which isn't the nicest place to be in at all... no sir... i mean do you stink immediately when u just start perspiring? NO! of course not u stink when the perspiration evaporatesssss.... and u get sticky and everything...
But there are exceptions...
where the fat person ( don't be ashamed... to be ashamed of oneself is to deny ones own existence and state.. and denial isn't good no sir... ) has a considerable amount of muscle mass.. in which case would mean the person probably does exercise regularly (but not enough to lose the weight or because they over indulge themselves.. no shame there brothers and sisters i just bought really sinful stuff from the mama shop and i'm planning to kill myself later during the liverpool game hur hur hur...=D weeee ok where was i..) or have exercised before muscles do not disappear even if u stop exercising but the thing is there are the energy systems which is a whole different concept from muscles which is why i felt the coaching course was so worth my money and time and effort to get down to buena vista.... i won't go into energy systems because it would be dragging yall off course... THE POINT IS! people who are heavier need to work their muscles harder, which makes their muscles heat up faster which creates a bodily response called perspiration which IS one of THE MAIN SOURCES OF BODY ODOUR.. thank you very much... *takes a bow*

(do i get my Long-winded-but-detailed-explanation-for-random-shite award nowww?? pweeety pleeaseee? =D haha...)

work today was ok.. though it took 2 hours to give out everything i couldn't complain much.. there was air-con where i was standing it was raining.. and everytime the terminal doors open when a bus arrives i breathe in the freshest air evers... and there were mooncake sellers everywhere and just looking was good enough... haha... and my sec4 english teacher took a paper from me but thank god she didnt see me... maybe thanks to the cap and my height... and thats about it for work today... c'est simple....

liverpool is playing at 7.40pm.. weee i've been waiting the whole day for the match.. i slept for an hour just to pass the time but woke up again at around 6.30 because my mum brought the "shi-fu" from the temple to come and bless the house again... and i had to be polite and get my aching bum(just the right side...=( ) up off the bed and say hello.. and of course get mineral water sprinkled all over me and get my forhead all shiny from the "Fuuuuu" which he rubbed on me head oui... (i'm a freethinker)

i think that's about it really... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm tomorrow is going to be extremely boring... staying at home.. unless anyone wants to go out with me catch a movie or something!!! like ifan! have u finished ur promos? or do you still have another week? or should i go with tw in the morning???? like where is everybody when you need them!? haha... oh well.. gonna go slack another 20 minutes away before i go crazy and wear my imaginary Liverpool jersey (it's expensive to buy the actual thing for home purposes... though i'd love to do the logo kissing thing everytime they score... haha... )
Au-revoir tous les jeunes!!!

.... enough

i'm too scared to choose, scared to refuse, tell me what i'm suppose to do?

training today was mad.... it's been such a long time since i was made to do pushups and situps with extreme amounts of repetition... my right arm screams everytime it doesnt have anything supporting it... wonder how i'm gonna be able to give the papers out tomorrow... yesh work tomorrow... but still better than slacking away a saturday isn't it?

i will not give up, cause i can almost breathe the air right beyond my finger tips...

bleh... who am i kidding? (myself?) i'd rather slack the day away rather then having to give out papers... oh well the bright side is that there's liverpool to watch tonight.. but what am i gonna do the rest of the dayyy? should i go to republic poly after work to play floorball? nahhh.. my arms and abs are killing meeeeee... i'll probably just get off at yck while on the way to woodlands from toa payoh...

i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall asleep, coz????

someone told me something todayyy... and it made me think (as usual..) alot alot alot... and i feel stressed out by it... i feel uncertain and uncomfortable... cause i can't see what the others see.. but they dont know the full story.. so how can they make a statement as bold as that one?

and i'm not ever gonna know!! cause we're all going in the same direction..

i hope i'll be able to just knock-out later and not be over-powered with my dumbum thoughts... seriously 'SHUCKS' me... bleh blah bleh... go figure..................... now everything takes time don't it? ('course it does...) and some things take longer than others right? (oui!)

i've given up on giving up slowly, but i'm not blending in... cause i don't wanna be part of the crowd... and their "technicalities"...

ok i've had enough of complaining... it's time to look on the bright sides of all of the above...
cozzzz

all in all just another day's gone...

Just... focus.... don't hesitate..

left, right, left, right...

the french teacher improved today... because i actually learnt something in her lesson haha... like finally yes yes yes...... she's got a werid way of teaching.. and people usually don't like change.. but if she continues to listen to our views and give us what we need to understand i think it'll be fine... though she teaches a weee bit too 'dry' for my liking.. (but u cant have the world...) i mean.. u can always count on smiley lady to be 'high' due to lack of sleep and muscle fatigue from 5 hours of skating ( Are You MAD?! ) haha..

i cant feeel!!! the way i did before... (sorry linkinpark is playing on iTunes... )

i'm feeling as usual... tired... i think i've forgotten what it feels like though...
watched the liverpool game at 2.30am this morning... hoooooooo!!!
haha.. "And You'll Never Walk ALONNNEEEEE! You'll NEEEEVER Walk Aloneeee...."
(sorry getting abit carried away...)
Crouchy scored a brilliant overhead kicky... to start the 2nd half off... and i didn't realise but i naturally stood up 'With Arms Wide Open' stunned at the sheer brilliance and err stunningness(haha) of the shot... i would have gone jumping around the house if it hadn't been near 4am and if my muscles weren't hinting me at fatigue...
c'est magnifique!

standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down...

i'm not looking forward to the weekend at all... =( gonna be boring.. i'm not sure if i wanna follow tw on sunday morning.. i mean "it's" a big commitment... and i dont wanna throw myself into something i wont be fully committed towards...
it wouldnt be hmm meee... and commitment is the first key item required to any good performance isn't it???
(especially since in this case it's towards something i've been well... looking away from .. yes yes sinful me... god knows what im gonna do man... -literally-)

i flew out the windowwwwww.... it's all messed up again... am i just a bedtime story?

on a lighter note! (June don't kill me okayyyy? haha)

Why I Think Our Education System Is (well to be forward) Screw'd Up..

so the JC promos are finally here and to every student it's well a nightmare... (let me correct that to every JC student... haha.. yes shoot me im in poly...) it pays to meet people like 2 fun JC general paper teachers... cause they can share their funny experiences with us... likeeeee

1. the student who wrote about (get this) "Rudolf Hitler" yes my friends it's the Nazi guy... and yes he's got the brightest nose in all of germany ( i mean no disrespect to the german people and country...)

2. the student who thinks the government should give permission to 'unplug' a lady who was in a (here it comes) "VEGETARIAN" state... but the goverment deemed it would be against the "Vegetable rights lawss" in our lush, green country...

3. the student who wrote how humans should think about taking care of themselves FIRST before even thinking to bother about the earth.... apparently not all of us were born 'down2earth' ...

there we are ladies and gentlemen the future of our country... hahaha....

i'd like to clarify myself... if anyone felt insulted by this... i meant no disrespects to anyones (human, vegetable, reindeer(?) or alien) and not all JC students are this way... it's a very small select few... who maybe were really stressed out by their exams...

everything will change... i wanna see a reaction....

If I Could Be Like That...

i'm hoping this is what i'll be doing in my 3rd year...

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Dear all,
Robyn, Darren and Gabriel have put in lots of effort to put things together for the very first FMS student leadership pow-wow. Some of you may already know that Robyn and Darren are heading to Hawaii for their half-year internship tomorrow. But they still painstakingly work on the post-moterm thingy. So, let's give them our support, wherever we can, k? :)
Here to wish you all the best. Have a great holiday!

Best regards

Dr Brian Lee
FMS Student Talent Development (a.k.a. fms talent scout...heee)
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where's he going? some place exotic maybe.. where's he going?

*Now Playing 3 Doors Down - Be Like That*

He spends his nights in california, watching
The stars on the big screen
Then he lies awake and he wonders, why
Can’t that be me

Cause in his life he is filled with all these good intentions
He’s left a lot of things he’d rather not
Mention right now
But just before he says goodnight, he looks up
With a little smile at me and he says

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

Now and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,
Watching the people as they pass
And all she wants is just a little piece of
This dream, is that too much to ask

With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a
Quiet little street
All she wants is just that something to
Hold onto, that’s all she needs

Yeah!!

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

I’m falling into this, dreams
We run away
If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do
If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do
If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

Falling in
I feel I am falling in, to this again

~~~~~~~
waiting on tw to come over.. gonna create 'musical fusion' (hopefully) haha...

where am i going?

Here....
Men’s U19 World Championships
(November 2007)
Switzerland
the...
i've got just about a year to prepare myself... this isit... it's the first real challenge ahead of me...
for the next couple of months i will fully devote myself to floorball.. it will be my priority one...
thickest...
the first part of the challenge is the singapore floorball league div1 next january... it'll b a huge jump for me from div2 up to the top flight... but i'm gonna give it all i got..
3 months more to train myself.. suddenly time isn't on my side anymore..
line...
i won't let myself down again.. i don't think i'll be able to take it... the disappointment i felt in myself after the tryouts a year ago... it was a awful feeling... truth was i wasn't prepared.. not even close...

everything else pushed to one side for now... it's going to be a long climb up the steps...
will i be going aloneeeE?

smudged colours...

im so disorientated now... and with good reason.. i've just been stupid and slept my entire tuesday away (not that the time matters...) but when i woke up i was having the impression it was still 2pm (maxing out at 3pm)... the sky was dark and gloomy.. but i waved it away thinking it was gonna rain or something so the rest of the day would be nice and cooling..
*checks phone clock*
O.O"

wet paint with no time to dry....

josh groban's new album, Awake, coming out on november7th... hopefully it's another good one like Closer...
training tomorrow.. which means no sleeping excessively tomorrow.. i've to do my carbo-loading so that i've gt energyyy mmhmmm.. (never thought i say something like that.. im actually starting to plan my own meals.. )

a phenomenon of visual reactions from the mixture of oils...

i've gone and done somethine i feel is stupid...
forget the 'blonde'!!
i must must must must must... need's to slow down the pace of the game...
i often follow the pace of other's just like in floorball (which is why i sometimes struggle to make a impact..) but now i've been improving on that aspect i've gotta apply it to life as well... or everything is gonna look like a art masterpiece which to the layman would seem like some 7 year old had too much paint and freedom given to him....

uncaptured reactions in the mind that loses it's way deciphering the details...
toss it a rope so it can drag itself from the whirlpool of quick sand...
it won't relax and spread it's weight but continues to struggle...

yeah sureee.....

the plan...

it wasn't that late,
we'd just wrapped up and went our different ways.
walking in the light of the setting sun,
i slid my phone up for the time.
"hey" i thought to myself,
im nearby, it's not that late.
"maybe i'll 'sneak' over and take a peek,
just a quick one, not planning to stay there forever."
but then i thought of several possibilities,
how sometimes the thing you dread most becomes reality.
and 'chickened-out',
it's not that important, besides i'd be going away from where i was supposed to go.
"i am really tired,
nah forget it i'm going home..."

lucky me i did... it was a no show...
but it's the thought that counts dunnit?

it's all about the dream isn't it?

leadership course tomorrow.. all the way at bukit batok.. gotta get up so early... at least now i've got music to bring with me on the long rides (hint hint)... yesh ive finally got me first mp3 player thing.. it's not a beauty.. but it'll do... it'll do...

i was having fun with my mum just now haha.. (she was the fun =D haha.. nah i was just joking around with her.. and she knows i was..)
so she's got more than 2 msn accounts ... and 2 laptops.... and she signs in with both.. at the same time!!! im looking and im like... when did i have 2 mums? hahaha... and i tried picturing what it'l be like if 'both' my mums talked to me (@ the same time of course) here's what it might look like haha... i'll be the ~ and my mum 1 will be - and mum 2 will be =

-hey babe..
~heya momaa...
=hey babe..
~heya... wait didn't i just say hi to you already?
-isit that difficult to say hi to your one and only momma twice?!
~no but...
=don't no but me sirrr... i'll give you what for if you ..
~ ok ok .. hi mom...
-have you eaten yet deary?
~no i ...
=you better have done the laundry.. if i get back and there's clothes in the washing machine i'll kill ya!
~*O.O*
-so have yah?
~*O.O"""*
=what cat got your tongue? answer man!
~'course i have .. *gulps*
-you sure deary?
~ yep! =D (im dead im dead im dead)
=you'll be in big trouble if you lie to me mister!
~okay.. so i havent done it just yet.. but i was
= i'll have your guts for garters when i get home! mister.i-did-the-laundry
~im going im going ok ok .. relax calm down.. it's not like i spoilt ur printer or anything..
-(in unison)= YOU WHAT?!?!

haha... mmhmmm... nah my mum isn't like that.. i've to admit she maybe a weee bit highly strung at times.. but she's ok haha... (id have to say that.. i wouldnt wanna incur her wrath... i would most certainly die..)

let me ask all of you a question.. and yall must answer me as honestly as you can haha...
Am i scary?
haha... i mean.. i walked over to my portable fan yesterday.. i was in a bad mood.. and i was gonna jsut walk by it you know and it just killed itself O.O
it snapped its own neck and it wasn't even on!!!
im like thinking (Shite i must look like some ghost or something... haha.. )
or it was just its time...
hahaha..

Feeee Fiiiii Foooooo Fuuummmm I smell the blood of a errr... portable fan?

i should be sleeping but there's so many things to doooo...
(or more like im being stupid and procrastinating haha...)

sometimes i dont believe myself haha... mmhmmm just asked me mum if she wanted to do this mini entrepreneurs interview for the smiley lady... haha.. and me being me... am very "persuasive" haha... (*roll eyes* if you want but im serious)
my starting line being me was..
~"Momma...."
-"what.."(she goes on clicking away on her mouse.. she's playing FreeCell or Solitaire... shes's amazingly good at FreeCell)
~"Do you love me?" (hahahahha...)
-"No...."
~"are you sure??"
-"Yes.."
~"So Yes you love me?"
-"No....."
~"Comeon...say you love me.. you can't possible not love lovable maosi" (*gags himself* haha)
-"What do you want?"
~"A small favour.."
-"No..."
~"it's just a small little interview for a entrepreneur like yourselfffff.... "
-"No..."
~"but buddha wouldn't want you to not help poor innocent overworked students struggling to finish their projects..."
-"No..."
~"So you agree with me buddha disagrees with your previous answer?"
-"What isit for"
~"It's a school thing... for a friend.. you know.. the future of business in the world and stuff.. kk?"
-"*snorts*"
~"you don't have to have to do it.. just take a look at the questions first.. and think it over...so you'll do it?"
-"No..."
~"Huh... whyy?"
-"as you put it i've a choice..."
~"Only after you've seen the questions then you have the choice to reject the offer mademoiselle.."
-*no answer*
~"oh well.. i guess i'll go then... i'm going...*walks to door...opens door*"
-"send it to me..."

hahaha... im the biggest suck up in the world...

a beautful mind

"if we all go for the blonde, we block each other, and not a single one of us is going to get her...
so then we go for her friends, but they will all give us the cold shoulder because nobody likes to be 2nd choice..
what if no one goes for the blonde?
we dont get in each other's way and we don't insult the other girls..."
(john nash's theory on getting the best result for the individual and the group...)

"as you will find in a multi-variable calculus series there's often a number of solutions for any given problem..."

" (2 way)
-how big is the universe?
~infinite...
-how do you know?
~i know because all the data indicates it...
-but it hasn't been proven yet?
~no...
-you haven't seen it?
~no ...
-then how do you know for sure?
~i don't... i just believe it...
-mm... it's the same with love i guess..."

"there's no point in being crazy if you can't have a little fun..."

"i need to believe that something extraordinary is possible..."

"all our dreams and nightmares ... you've gotta keep feeding them for them to stay alive..."

just some of the nice bits of dialogue from the movie "A Beautiful Mind"...
another one of the great enchanting master-pieces.... with a engaging storyline... if the audience is aware enough they'll see some signs throughout the movie of the final twist in the story... (where nash becomes hospitalised... that's all i'll say.. dont wanna spoil it for yall...)

watched the Godfather yesterday... i can see why it's such a classic... waiting on the Godfather part 2 and part 3...
my 80gb external harddisk is down to it's last tenth of space... i need to delete some of the old stuff and make way for the new things... pretty fast how 70gb has been filled up.. thinking of getting another big external harddisk...

the muscles arent screaming today.. their stiff really stiff... like flexing themselves when i'm relaxed.. crazy stuff...

what if no one goes for the 'blonde'? *thinks thinks thinks*

hattrick day...

today was a day of threes
3 buses to school
3 buses back
3 mrt rides
scored 3 goals (and a assist thank you very much.. during the friendly game against ngee ann poly)
liverpool won 3-0 against fulham...
hmm... i think thats roughly it... haha...
(god i love being random =D)

i wouldn't really know...

oh yes.. and it's the 3rd time i've played floorball in 4 days... (would have been nicer if it were 3 but i'll take what i get....)
the muscles are screaming for rest haha... and im pretty much gonna listen to 'em and rest the entire day away tomorrow... before monday's leadership course..
i've just received a email advertising my new team's own blog haha... (notice team not club... in the club 'millenia skools' there are a total of 5 teams... 3 guys teams and 2 girls teams just random information for the random reader) i'll be adding the link up soon.. hopefully we'll be able to get full match commentary yep yep yep... and pictures! ooooo... i've always wondered what i look like when i'm playing.. i've heard alot of things but i aint gonna state any till i see it for myself (which is difficult i can't take pictures of myself during a game now can i? or carry a mirror with me... again random)
(let's count the number of times ive used the word random-this one doesnt count- awww darn.. 4.. not 3...hmmm)

the messages...

things are definitely looking up.. im happy with how training is going.. my love for the game could not have been stronger.. ive finally gotten into the good books of 'the coach' (he is one really strict man... 'he's a disciplinarian(izzat how it's spelt?) through and through' someone once told me.. and i couldnt have put it better myself... but he's also a really nice guy... so i wouldn't mind playing under him mmhmmm.. the stricter the better.. time to get some morals and hardwork into me, too long have i been slacking... and it's not the nicest feeling knowing im slacking my life away *watches time fly out the window*

im not sure what they mean...

ive got so many films i wanna check out from the french film fest... 10 movies in fact.. i would go for all if i were 21 if u get my drift... again it's the line between seperating the 'mature' from the 'immature'... too bad they measure 'maturity' by time... there are sick people in this sick world who are above 21 you knowww... (mayb if they reduced the age limit there might be More sick people in this sick world haha... i've just proven myself wrong o.O) ok fine the limit is there... i'll probably just buy the movies when i have the $$$.. u won't be able to download these movies online.. i doubt many will have 'em..

what am i suppose to think? nahhhh *waves away the thought* just a random thought...
and random thoughts don't turn out to be real (but some do) still! *waves away*

it all cant be that bad now can it? (yes it can precious... yes it can... )
well it must suck to be you.. (u r forgetting something...)
what? ( i am you...)
ahhhhhh....

open 'em googly eyes...

*Now Playing Hoobastank - Look Where We Are*

I still remember the time,
When this all felt like a dream.
So completely out of reach,
Frustrating.

We kept our nose to the grind,
Make the days turn into weeks.
Hoping time will heal the pain,
Of waiting.

Now it seems so long ago.

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won. (?)
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

I used to wonder if I,
Would ever have the chance to be,
Something more than what you see.
I doubt it.

We learned to open our eyes,
Now I think we'd both agree, (?)
That we're better off than when we started.

There's still so much left to go (?) -doubt-

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

And the best is yet to come.
'cause our story isn't done.
No! No! No! No! No!

Just look back on,
How far we've come.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

All we've done,
Our battles won.
We've made it somehow,
Look where we are now.

Look where we are now.
No! No! No! No! No!
Look where we are now.

Look where we are now.
No! No! No! No! No!

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and again and again and again and again and again...
reason for my dreams...
=D sfeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

the leadership course thingy is funny haha... we'r suppose to be going bowling somewhere during the session haha... which is bad because i suck at bowling.. i havent played since god knows when.. plus they've got this show and tell thing... ladies and gentlemen... i am in trouble haha...

im hungry for ice-cream :P

the boy with the big goofy glasses... (A Story)

there was this boy... he just entered primary school...
he had big goofy glasses with really really thick frames...
he wore pants too short for him...
he had a wallet too big for him... but it was empty most of the time...
he never asked for much... he didnt need new toys.. he didnt need a computer... he didnt need much because to him life was perfect all the time... he'd lose himself in his dreaming whether he was asleep or awake... it didnt matter to him... he liked the nice quiet life he had...
and because he was always so quiet... he never really talked to other people much... they weren't in his little circle of flying cars, knights and dragons. (he of course at that time didnt understand the need for damsels in distress) his little adventures were to him, already really really interesting...
"Girls? bahhhh dont need one of those in my stories..."

he never made many friends because he was quietly drifting in and out of space...
the few friends he had were his classmates sitting to his left and right... and his "Buddy" or elder brother in P.5 ...
his buddy was a pretty happening person.. but the only thing the little boy liked about his Buddy, was during recess when he would bring him to eat the school's char siew rice...

he wasn't the smartest little boy in class... seeing as he never did quite pay attention
... but he had one strength... he was very speedy and quick for a 7 year old... it seemed he was a natural sprinter... he'd get chosen by his form teacher to lead the inter-class relay team...
he'd outrun his opponents by a large gap.. and build up a insurmountable lead grabbing the gold even before his other teammates had ran...
he'd get challenged by seniors of the school to a race... the first to make it from one side of the basketball court to the other and back wins... the bet $5 (of course he didnt know anything about betting being the innocent thing he was... u see he never did care much for the outside world...)
he won and got cheated of the $5... as soon as he had reached the other end of the court and was beginning to run back, the seniors (who were seriously not even close) ran off..
he didnt know what to make of it really... he decided im gonna finish the race and did... and then got booked for running in the basketball court (the girl prefect was abusing her authority laR! girls... sheeesh..)he stupidly gave his name to the prefect and simply waltzed off to class as though nothing had happened... (and nothing did happen..) people picked on him all the time.. a malay kid punched him in the stomach for no apparent reason and he didnt complain... (a prefect saw took the kids' name down and) the next day the litte boys mama came down to school and showed the principal who's boss and got the malay kids' momma to come down for a chat toooo... the little boy couldnt care less.. he simply stood watching the fishes in the principle's office while the big fuss was going on behind him... not knowing what was wrong.. and why some people did the things they did...

his p2 chinese teacher particularly hated him... the teacher would get him to crawl out the back door and into the front door like a dog whenever he was caught day-dreaming... he pretty much began hating chinese lessons.. he didnt do his work.. and the teacher pulled his hair really really hard while yelling at him... threw his heavy bag at him and punished him for every little thing he did like asking to go to the toilet... pretty sooon mama came by the school again.. and took the little boy away from kebun baru primary for the last time... he'd been transfered to a new school..
"mommy why do i have to wear new uniforms? why cannot go back to school? i wont be able to see ashley anymore...." (ashley was his best friend in kebun baru... his full name was Ashley Fox... and the little boy didnt know it but he was for a time best friends with the brother of Cheryl Fox... who would become a celebrity in time to come..)
"u are going to a new school.. u'll make new friends... and i heard there is a ice-cream shop in this school.." said his mom encouragingly...
of course it worked... this little boy knows the meaning of ice-cream shop in school.. he'd be able to buy as much ice-cream as he could.. without his parents stopping him

(he loves ice-cream... this one time in kindergarden before he knew the meaning of $$ he crossed the road after school to the mini mart to get ice cream while waiting for his momma to fetch him...
"Uncle one ice-cream please *points*"
"50 cents boy..."
"Huh? what is 50 cents?"
his momma came just in time with a big 50 cent coin for her little boy who made her worried sick... he had slipped away from his teacher's sight and jay-walked to the shop... (of course the teacher never could hear much after that...)

the next couple of years in his new school, St.gabriels primary, went pretty much smoothly of course he still didnt do his chinese homework though the teacher tried and tried to encourage him... he just didn't want anything to do with it... it was the "Evil" subject..
he still didn't have many friends... he was one of those kids that would spend recess alone enjoying his charsiew rice or ice-cream...
then one day when he was in p.4... a friend asked him to join them during recess to play football.. he knew wat it was of course.. he'd seen it on tv... but he'd never been asked to play before... why not he thought...
day after day he got better and better... but he was still the same quiet boy... he would score a goal for his team and quickly run back to defend the next kickoff without celebrating.. he never had much confidence in himself...
one fine day... his friend(the footballer) asked him to try out for the school soccer team... of course he didnt mind.. just followed blindly... and he immediately made a huge impression on the coach from the first training.. using his god-given talent.. he out paced all the other boys during sprints .. and as simple as that.. he got into the team and with that he was no longer invisible to people... he became a prefect not long after... he got above average grades which was a huge step for him...

but he never did lose his dreams... and he developed this love of movies because they were so like his dreams.. there were no limits in a movie... he'd beg his elder sister to bring him along whenever she and her friends went for movies... and he'd follow quietly... not making a noise.. not wanting to be a burden... afraid his sister would never bring him for movies again....

to be continued....
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that was alot of typing... haha.. im really really tired... and im hungry somemore.. probably gonna get some food before sleeping.. its already 10 past midnight...
french was excellent today haha.. a new teacher came to take over miss dumbbumdramaqueen... mmhmmmm.. i wish we will be able to petition and get her as our teacher... learning stuff isnt fun.. if someone boring (or psychotic hahahaa) is teaching it...
kk im gotta gooo... long day tmr too.. training at night...

the things other people say...
the things you dont...
but i wont ask questions of you...
i'll just wait... yep yep yep...

dumb you!? no.... it's me

the timetable is out... and its not the prettiest sight ever... ive to wake up 6am on mondays, wednesdays and thursdays... and 7am on tuesday and friday...
crazyyyy... and they mixed our classes up! some crazy people decided 1 full academic year would be too long for a class to bond together... and throw us into different classes again... wheres... t1b1 gone??????? *sob* les garcons de riviere is split up... ( i did say i missed it...)

on a brighter note! =D (nothing 'seems' to dampen my spirits... does it?)
i received a call at like 11.30 this morning (while i was sleeping.. dumb lady... let me sleeep! haha)
anyways the news was i got nominated by one of my lecturers... (ive a pretty good idea whooo..) to go for this Leadership course... the coolest part is! (What was the 1st human weakness?)
FREE SHIRT! haha... its not just any shirt.. its the 'Film and Media School' society shirt.. how cool is that?! :D

(psst.. erez is being a (erm another word for donkey).. he's comparing our timetables.. and how he has "shorter days".... *rolls his eyes so far back u can only see whitesss*)

im Xtremely tired!
after training today... (which was superb! i couldnt believe myself!! its the first time i've hit my top form in such a long long timeeee)

(erez is being a bigger 'DONKEY' by saying at least his dad can send him to school.... so he can leave his house later.. which technically means dont need to wake up so early... anyone got a impact drill? i'd like to hmmm... (its pretty graphic stuff... ill tell yall the key words...
*starts counting em off his fingers*
brutally, mutilate, and lastly (how can we forget the subject right?) EREZ)

ok i dont feel like ermmm (keywords) him anymore mmhmm..

Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
me 7.15 coz atleast my dad can send
=]maosi[= standing '3 doors down' in 'my world' says:
STOP RUBBING IT IN!
=]maosi[= standing '3 doors down' in 'my world' says:
haha
=]maosi[= standing '3 doors down' in 'my world' says:
thank you
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
hahaha i am not
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
man i guess i win some i lose some man
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
i get ____ and ____ but then i think my timetable the most lucky
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
so god is fair i guess
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
ask me wake up early so i can pray my dusk prayer and then go home early
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
but it wont be same with out u bradder! haha
=]maosi[= standing '3 doors down' in 'my world' says:
wah lao.. im touched...
=]maosi[= standing '3 doors down' in 'my world' says:
*sniff*
Dumb Melvin...Dumb Bloody Dumb. What Did i do?? I get good classmate? haha says:
hahaha

(the blankos away are people mm.. i shall say no more.. but this.. Industry Observers! ok)
-i wanted to tell him something erm selfish...( someone shoot me..) when he said "I win some i lose some..." i think yall can pretty much guess.. but it didnt come out of my mouth! doesnt count-
isit me or am i a little crazier today? i think its the fact i've been having a huge headache since this morning... (and i still went for training heeeee *guilty*)
i'd like to say so many other things... but ill get one sentence to sum the whole story up...

"Hearts are broken, by words left unspoken..."

mhmmmm... *refuse* to say anymore...

theres a liverpool match later @ 2.55am!! im so tempted to watch! but theres work tmr! and after work tw and me are going to play street soccer with some old mates... not sure if ill have time to come home to sleep and go back out for dinner with the french classmates before french lessons.. (im willl stoneeee... mademoiselle smiley! u are not allowed to stone tomorrow haha.. u've to be snappy and help tw and me out if the dramaqueen decides to give us group presentation again...

wheres the couple of words u used to say? though it doesnt seem significant.. it means a whole lot lot lot to me...
"it's not what you say, its what you do.. because what u say will be forgotten someday..."
but these words are more like hmm a action to be done... it's a 'dynamic action'...
ahhh nevermind... it's just the human mind being silly as usual ain't it?

the goo goo dolls are singing iris in the background... sheeesh... "perfect timing"

*New!*

"Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog."

the old tagboard is gone... so now if u guys wanna tag me, click the COMMENTS link where the tagboard was...

i think the palm trees are nice.. but maybe ill put them in another place dx haha... like beside a jacuzzi? or indoor swimming pool? hahaha...

yes benja.. i'll make sure i consult you and leave u incharge of the interior design aspects of my house haha... (do i get a discount FRIEND? haha... =P )

the dream house as promised..

as always... i let my dreams get the better of me.. and ive always thought.. if i'm gonna dream, i might as well dream big...

i'd like to have my house look very hmm... glassy... glass everywhere.. so even though im indoors.. i wont feel trapped within walls.. cause i can see wats happening outside.. hopefully a nice view of the sun rising and setting... and i can just sit and stare out the walls of glass... lose myself in time... haha... cool right? plus if i have a big big hall like this one.. can have like mad parties or something.. movie screenings get like a projector or something ... and have parquet(isit spelt like this?) flooring... i always prefered the feel of nicely finished wood rather than tiles... (can even play floorball if its big enough haha.. ill buy special 'GerFlor' matting to protect the wood floor...) wow im thinking big haha...

Who wouldnt want something like this? (ignore the indoor palm trees haha...) im talking about the staircase... so nice.. overlooking the entire main hall... nice nice nice nice... dont know if i'll want a lift haha... going up and down the stairs like that look troublesome.. hmm maybe a lift only for cargo like erm.. super bulky items like furniture? and all that jazz.. or if i fall and leave myself wheelchair bound for the rest of my life ... i'll use the lift... mmhmmm... man i can picture it in my head alreadyyyy...
*sighs a contented sigh*

but it'll only be a house... warm love is needed for a home...

i'll get a couple of pets then haha... like a oldenglish sheepdog maybe? haha... (it'll probably mop all my floors for me with the super long hair...)
'quiet', 'interactive' pets... they'll add in companionship in such a huge house like this one... big and small... and i'll get my sister to do all the vet stuff haha (@ a discount of course! i am her brother after all haha...)

the future seems bright... and not so distant...

and im gonna learn driving immediately after my birthday next year... and i'll get one of those "Clean Cars" that run on hydrogen haha... k im really losing it...

dream on till your dream comes true...

captivated...

im erm... well perspiring..
this is usually the case when something is powerful enough to make such a impact on me that my heart rate increases... my mind speeds through many thoughts of incredible significance...
so much so it is over-whelming... thus the perspiration... (and on other occasions driven to tears..) they all mean the same thing.. ive just seen a mind-blowing film... today... 2 haha...

i had the appetiser, another Nicolas Cage movie... it's called 'Matchstick Men'.. the plot is strong... u'd have to watch the film right from the start.. and watch every single second of it... the details are @.@ ... and at the end of the movie.. the answers too all questions just smacks you right in the face... haha..

and then the main course...(i was bored... so i thought i'd search through all the old vcds in this dump we call a house haha... and i found a Steven Spielberg film... one i haven't watched (yesh i must be blind or something not to have seen it till today... but then again it is a blessing.. if i hadn't found it i wouldn't have had anything to doooo mmhmmmm..)
it's called 'Amistad'
a 2 hour 15 minute ride through ... hmmm.. im speechless.. haha.. i can't find anything to describe it.. but its definitely one of the best films ive ever seen.. and trust me.. i dont see one of the best very often... (once in a blue mooon..) my heart is still thumping.. and it's been over for 30 minutes... ive this tingly feeling in my head haha...
IT IS A MUST WATCH! MUST MUST MUST!

im lazy to tell you all bout my dream house haha.. maybe later.. its ten past 9pm already... and i've been putting dinner off long enough... maybe after i've eaten...

training tomorrow.. at last.. floorball..

say say say....

mmhmmmmm

the 'i can't' post has become irrelevant... (keep in mind i was having trouble sleeping haha...) irrelevant but for this one line... most wont see... most cant notice...
hidden in the thickest 'line'
inbetween lines...

saw this pair of cats this morning while walking out of my place... and they looked absolutely alike.. but for their size (probably age difference)... i wish i'd been awake enough to take a picture with my phone... and post it up here... would have been a really nice picture... and i can't (im trying to stop using can't ok?! haha) put it into words... it's just one of those things that can only be appreciated visually... and u'd be at a lost for words if you tried verbally...

i think im gonna go sleeeep my afternoon away... and then i'll come back and blog about how while waiting for the coaching test to start, i was inspired and thought up a design of 'my dream house(wanted to say home...but some of u might know why i say house instead.. who knows the answer? raise ur hand! u'll win a treat haha...-treats are strictly while stocks last- :D ) '... haha... this time i have pictures of the 2 most intriguing details/items in the design =D .. its crazy to think im dreaming of a house and im only 17 (well in chronological age... but developmental? emotional? social??? no one can measure the experience someone's gone through... theres no formula.. no guideline no law... ce n'est pas possible)

ok ive been delaying sleep long enough... Good Night! :P

i can't...

i can't sleep...
because i can't understand...
i can't understand why i can't understand...
because i can't tell myself what to make of this...
because i can't stop over-thinking...
because i can't stop wanting answers
because i can't find the right answers...
because i can't think straight...
i can't CAN'T CAN'T
i just can't understand....
i just can't understand why won't you understand?
because you can't?
if i can't and you can't? then who in this universe can?
they can't...
they can't understand...
they can't see the elements of a bigger picture...
they can't change...
they can't get pass the exterior...
they can't see the good inside...
they can't see the pain inside...
they can't bother to look at anything other than what is infront of them...
they can't picture a different story...
they can't possibly know you can't...
because you can't say the right words...
because you can't...
and i can't tell you the words...
because i can't find the right words...
i can't even say them to myself...
because i can't take the bitter truths...
i can't hate
because i can't take pain of that magnitude anymore...
i simply can't...
and if you can't be that painkiller, and they can't ...
i can't escape the dark promise of the undying lands..
a eternity of can'ts....

maybe i can't say i can't go to sleep after this post...
just a self-reflecting post... i thought i'd get down.. so in the future i'll remember i used to say
I Can't...
but you can... =)

yeaaaahhhhhhhhh....

i can see it in your eyes...

coaching test was super over-rated haha... (over-rated by myself of course)... fear for the worst and u shall not be surprised... (errr in a bad way that is...)

maybe i can read minds...

sgNewWave seems interesting enough... not a whole lotta people went for the meeting thing... though my friend and i were erm... fashionably late? (15minutes isnt that much what.. haha but they were kind enough to restart the slide show for us haha... kind people... or maybe it's cause my friend was (in their eyes) hunky? i'll never knowwww... haha.. -someone grab mr.erez before he floats off to the high heavens- hahaha....

like mel gibson in one of his funky movies... (haha...)

-random....- (so kill me...if u dont like it.. =P)
there was this chinese guy on the mrt standing beside me... he came on the train at i think little india station.. and he smelled really bad of sesame seeds... and i cant take the smell if its over-overwhelming haha... would have puked all over had it not be for the timely departure of a kind(though she didn't know) lady.. the man took her seat.... and i breathed the fresh air again...
(am i super drama or what? haha...) maybe the guy nearly drowned in a huge tub of sesame seeds... haha... wont anyone add honey? he'll come out looking like one of those snacks with sesame seeds stuck on him.. hahaha... (imagine the possibilites....)

tell me everything you need anything at all...

haha.. drama reminds me... was talking to my aunt (who's living in texas) on msn the other night... and she mentioned once when my family and i went to visit her in hongkong (she used to live there)... her ex-husband brought her daughter and me for ice-creamsss (haha weee :D) .. and the ice-cream on a stick dripped all over my shirt (which was probably white) and it jsut happened that it was a red ice-cream and i went...
"Hmmmm?"
*does a double take*
"OH MY! BlooooooOOOOOOOoooooooD!!!!!
*freaks out and does weird (but energetic) i'm dying dance...*
haha.. and the guy has never forgotten me and how erm... lovably? drama i was haha... man i love dumb things i doooo ... haha... and i dont remember it ever happening... just one of those things...

just one of those things i could hang on my wall...
somethings i wish i could...

im beginning to talk in mini-riddles again haha...
*does a hammy when he says "But I'd Like A Cookie...."
"But i like talking in riddles..."
haha... oh my... work tomorrow... not expecting the world to change overnight...

but they dooooo... all the time... won't you change it for me?

ok ... im shutting up...
*zips and throws away the ziphead*
haha...

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh yeaaaaaahhhhhhhhh

smile with me... ce n'est pas incroyable...

*Now Playing Lifehouse - Undone*

I can see it in your eyes you're hurting
but pain is part of learning who you are
all these truths can sometimes be deceiving
when your whole world comes crashing to the ground

tell me everything you need now anything at all
and I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall
yeah, when you come undone
when you come undone

you know I can't be like everybody
cause I can't tell you what you want to hear
I don't know if I can make it better
all I know is I will be around

tell me everything you need now anything at all
and I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall
yeah, when you come undone
when you come undone

when all the plans you made are lying on the floor
and all your dreams are turning into nothing more
when all your hope has left you know you're not alone
just hold on, hold on

tell me everything you need now anything at all
and I will be the one who's waiting anytime you fall
yeah, when you come undone
when you come undone
when you come undone

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a song to remember this... great song oui........

if i knew the right words to say... i'd be like everyone else...

busy day ahead... heading to school for a film club meeting (sgNewWave)... looks very interesting... mmhmmmmm.... and after that i've still got my coaching course test to sit for at night.. though thankfully it'll end earlier today.. will be able to get home and get a good nights sleep... work tomorrow morning... and then... a completely free day? haha... not sure what i'll do...
was thinking of setting myself a training schedule... train myself... 2 days of aerobic training(long-distance) and probably 1 day of anaerobic lactic training..(sprints lasting more a minute at a time... sounds tiring right? but its for the better i guess haha... training this wednesday night! weeeee so excited... finally... a chance to see how rusty i've become... and theres no french hw for thursday (we think she forgot see... and convieniently "forgot" to remind her...) haha...
and training on friday toooo... and possibly a friendly match against my school on saturday haha.. (this will be the 2nd time im playing against them for my new club.. they've improved alot.. we've deproved a little... ) man i wanna join the ngee ann poly team... maybe next year... but i wanna play for IVP... hmmm.. dont think they'll take me into the IVP squad now... i haven't been going to training a whole year can? haha.. asking for something like joining the IVP squad given my position would be *slits throat* mmhmmmm....

all in all just another day's gone... so hold on... hold on... and i'll be the one waiting anytime you fall....

because.....

there was this movie this afternoon on tv... and one line from that movie..
"tell him that though a person doesn't show up , it does not mean he does not care.."

all sense sucked out... no answers to burning questions... no words to comfort the questions...

i think im gonna die tomorrow... studying for the coaching test hasn't been that successful... might just flunk it.. should be studying now... but while im here... im not gonna miss a chance to watch Liverpool.. (maybe only under the most desperate circumstances will i pass... and those circumstances dont come to often... )

maybe when the need is dire.... for now i'll let the clocks tick... i'll let the calenders flip...
-but till when? when will this become a desperate circumstance?
when all hope is nearly lost.. and i'll realise that ive waited too long.. thought too long... tried to understand something that was made crystal clear but my eyes choose not to seee... my ears choose not to hear... i quickly shunt away any idea they may drag my hopes dangerously high...
-and if it goes the wrong way... i'll never forgive myself... for being so wrong... for putting false thoughts in my mind.. for taking so long?

i need a new song... diary of jane is becoming ______________*boring...*___________

"Point Me!"

" 'Ere The Sun Rises! "

the journey is nearly over,
it seems we are but steps from the undying lands.
it is the new world over the horizon that comes closer,
where dreams will never end,
where shadow and darkness dare not cover.

finally i will not see him with my waking eyes,
at last! i will be free from this devil.
at last! here the sun rises,
and it shall rid our world of evil.

too long have we walked in fear,
fear of the unknown on the path set before us.
but the fog that was is nearly clear,
we shall build our new world where,
nothing no evil can touch us....

"the good die young"
yes maybe so... but the evil suffer what seems a eternity, before being claimed by death and returning to beauty and a world without cares...

=) the turn around ive been waiting for is nearly in reach.....

diamonds in the mist...

results are finally out!

gpa : 3.2
MODULE
Art & Design ------------------------------C+
Exploring Contemporary Issues -------B
Individual & The Communiry ---------C+
Introduction to Film --------------------B
Photography ------------------------------B
Storytelling Techniques ----------------B+
Studio Production -----------------------A

=D
studio pro! weeeeee hmmm was kinda hoping i'd get a A for storytelling toooo ... oh well... i cant ask for anymore from the rest of the results haha... (art&deign... sheeeesh...)

the my trusty phone has succumbed to old age.. (its been with me since... hmmm sec2? dont know...)
got a new phone :P the 6280 (that was bought as a backup just incase my old one dies.... )
i've to say.... its quite a "loud" phone haha... but very lousy... memory card only 64mb.... irritating... cant store that many songs on it...(my old one had a 1gb mem card lar! and cant use that one for this one cause its a different size... why cant people just make one standard size?! WHY?!)
the battery is very long-lasting... i've been playing songs on it for 30 minutes now.. and the bar hasn't moved one weee bit...
but its super bulky! *hates*
irritating!! (but i guess i'll learn to erm... love it... haha)

i miss schooooool... my house is boring... might go watch the last lord of the rings movie before coaching course.. or read another couple of chapters in the book smiley lady lent me...(mademoiselle... the book is 'enchanting' haha)
i think i might write a script for a movie for it mmhmmmm... since ive got so much time on my hands.. but have to finish reading it first....

was unwell this morning.. so crappy that i didnt feel anything yesterday.. and only felt ill when i reached toa payoh lar! i think it's stomach flu or something... i puked my stomach out and then continued at the other err... end? haha.. then someone (or more than one) stole my remaining 1 and a half stack of newspapers (coz i rushed off to the toilet...dont tell but i am thankful they did... i was really suffering!!! ) and someone stole tw's scissors lar... (maybe took without knowing cause tw slotted it into his stack and someone (or more than one) grabbed the stack when he was not looking....) im feeling better after resting (came home and knocked out for awhile...) have to make myself alright enough to go for coaching course.. today's the last lecture (Yay! and NO!!!) coaching test coming up... *shivers* damn scared... i hope they dont ask any question on nutrition and foood... cause im such a erm... well lets jsut say i dont plan my meals haha... (the stupid book says to get the most out of my athletes i must plan their meals like a week before a tournament... O.O... but who will follow haha... -especially if i decide to be bad and ask them to eat more vegetables ... heee heee heee...)
i feel like eating ice-cream... but i know it isn't gonna be good for the stomach now.. so im gonna wait till im better.. and drown myself in some ice-cream :P haha... im a little crazy and random today.. dont know whys....

kk think im gonna go watch lord of the rings.. (must look away from words until tonight's lesson.. definitely gonna be packed to the brim in detailsssss .... and cheeemology words from latin and all that jazz....
(i wanna learn latin!)

the words with 'S'

STUNNED

i applied for a singing job on jobstreet.com... waited a couple of weeks but no show so.. thought it was bull.... but

"Hi, with regards to your application at Jobstreet.com in Singapore.


Congratulations you have been short listed to work with us. We are an international group of companies from USA, UK, China, Malaysia, and Singapore of high reputation where we have politicians or internationally renown academicians serving in it. For interviewing purpose we will not review any of the names of the companies for we would like to ask questions where we would like to see your answers not knowing our background except the Malaysian company which is Top Brain Sdn. Bhd. where it has a work force of more than 100 staff. The other companies are much bigger than Top Brain.

The website of Top Brain is www.topbrain.net

Special points about us

1) Our group of companies pays in US dollars so after converting into Singapore Dollars you would receive close to double compared to other similar jobs in Singapore.

2) You get to travel to different countries where the expenses are fully paid including visa and entertainment and stay in 4 star hotel accommodations. The traveling is not too taxing don’t worry. In fact it is real fun for you to get to meet people of different nationalities in our inter companies gatherings, trainings, events, etc.

Only one fast interview by one of our corporate top management people is needed for you are already short listed among more than 100 applicants this will be the one and only round of interview--no 2nd interview is needed. The interview will only last 15 min. because it is done by one of our corporate Top Management person. This person is trained to evaluated you in 12 to 15 min.

The venue of the interview is:
Address:

Observation Lounge, 38th Floor,
Meritus Mandarin Singapore Hotel
333, Orchard Road,
Singapore 238867
http://www.mandarin-singapore.com/dining/observation_lounge.htm
We also have postings in USA, UK, China, Malaysia, and Singapore and have multiple positions available. It will be an all in one interview. This means your chances of getting a job is high since 5 regions is involve in this interview."

can anyone say OH MY GOD?
i dont know if i'll go for the interview... it sounds too huge for a simple person like me..... way to huge... and it could be a scam.. dunnooooooooooooo

if i decide to let it go.. and its actually something of great significance... a possible turning point in my life.. for the better... i dont think i'll give myself another chance to recover...

STAMINA

work is gettin well.. theres no other way to put it.. a real pain in the behind...
i had this old lady try to give me a apple for an extra newspaper... -.-" ... another month of work to do... i must be strong... i will outlast this hurdle...

strong? in the wrong places...

STUPID/STUBBORN

they never pause to rest
they always leave me in a complete mess
they dont ever want me to settle for less
these unwanted guests
they won't get off my case
go away! leave me be! im tired of all your tests..
leave me be......

SACRIFICE

these things in the way...
they keep coming day after day...
i think ill take a step back...
i think ill look the other way...
i'll try not to return the next day..
i'll erase my tracks...
i will be the sacrifice...

Something, surely something...

book of thoughts...

i think for the past couple of months.. ive been ignoring something else... my tummy haha...
i havent been going on my usual indulging spreeeesss and to dream of food (especially on a empty tummy during coaching course lecture...) food like...

-Pecan Pie (from pinetree club a place i used ot go when i was young nt even sure if its still around... a page out of my past....)
-Scrambled Eggs and Honey baked ham with bread (for breakfast.. topped off with orange juice)
-Good Pasta (as specialy the one in San Diegoooo -sofaraway..- but it was amazing like gourmet even though it was just a small diner...
the next one jsut makes me wanna go Oh My God!
-Pancakes! from The House Of Pancakes in america... (extremely fluffy! chocolate pancakes filled full of goooey chocolate.. maple syrup for the plains.. ice cream.. and more pancakes!! OMG!)
-Mashed potatoes... (haha... no idea... where that came from..)

thats it im going to find something to eat right now... haha.. *looks around for people drooling*
:P i hope i filled ur appetite for gooood food...

hmm before i go... got a pretty angry song... but u dont feel it with this version (the acoustic version)... maybe when im really standing on the edge of the fryingpan ill put up the original hardcore, angry, scream and shout version... another time...

*Now Playing Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane (acoustic)*

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
Just let me say that
I'd like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

average...

was an average day today... work was ok.. no stupid people trying to get smart... though id say tw was on the receiving end mhmmmm
he refused to give more than one copy per person which is good cause its something like a rule
(though i'd say rules are meant to be broken *wink*) and the auntie probably said he was not respecting the elderly.. u'd have to get the exact words from him but i think she went something like -inchinese-
"Must respect the elderly... and yada yada"
but maybe she didnt notice she wasn't respecting him as an individual just trying to do his job... dumb people in this dumb world... (speaking of dumb people.. i had one encounter last friday me first day of work...)
this business woman(@ toapayoh mrt) comes by and she asks for 2 and i state clearly my limitations and give her one and she roollls her eyes in the "femaledog-iest" way and says
"At orchard they gave me 2..."
LADY! if u havent noticed! u seem to be doing quite well off in ur business suit and watever gucci high heels.. and u wanna be cheapo with me.. over a newspaper wait over a FREE newspaper? HOW DO YOU FREAKING SLEEP AT NIGHT?!

sheeesh....

erez has finally got the BurgerKing Video uploaded *yay* haha...
its funny in a lame way but hey.. we had 1 hour to kill we were bored.. and we had a video camera... thats a killer combo doncha think? u can view it here.. (mind the french!! &the spelling... he meant to say Stunned!!!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Prk78vcvb0
personally i think we were all high on something (someone send some health inspector to BK! theres something in the coke...) "dumb u erez.. dumb u"
-i think i look drunk and lost on the movie.. *stone*- i miss my long hair (tis' nt bloody emo!)
Oh My God!
Heal The World!!! but dont eat the thing!!


expect to see more videos (maybe better) like that coming out soon.. cause erez has formed something called *ahem* Hola & Goats Incorporated...
ive linked the official webby in the linky part of me blog.. check it out.. but theres nothing much there yettt...

i should be going to sleep soon.. though i doubt ill be able too.. i tossed and turned in bed till like 4am this morning.. and woke up 6am.. O.O (too much caramel latteeee.... *shivers*)

its hard to believe im down to the last 2 lectures of the coaching course... (its scary too)
cause that'll mean the test is coming!!! oh sure it's and open book test and all.. but its not straight forward answer questions... they make sure u know wat on earth u r saying before u get anything right... (which is good for the athletes i guess... safer world for them....)
learned about Physical Preparation on monday's lesson... went into stuff like Skeletal system(with the bones.. charateristics.. uses... tendons, ligaments and cartilages.. and muscular system and that there are 600+ muscles in the body.. and that muscles always work in pairs..)
and the lecturer was sharing a story on his torn ACL(which is a ligament..) and its scaryyyyyy *shivers x2* would have had a bad dream about that if i had actually fallen asleep deeep enough...
HoRRoR!

wanted to type something angry here tooo.. but after talking about all that happy joyful stuff.. dont feel like it anymores.... (i mean how can u be angry and happy at the same time? raise ur hand if u can... if u raised ur hand im glad to say... ur "gifted" =) *cheesey smile*) haha...

a good night to the world... sleeeep tight..(but not too tight or else u'll wake up with a stiff neck and watever which isnt fun.... no sir...)

hit and run....

throw me a bone will ya?
*bone hits maosi on the head*
*he's knocked out for 12 hours straight (sleeping like @ last! some good sleep)*
*when he awakes he realises the full situation......*
"ohhh... i see....." *at a lost for words but someow those 2 words escape from his mouth*

(im getting hit by alot alot of things... but this one i asked for it... haha... "you foolish fooool!")

anyways.. i think im gonna spend time today trying to get a recording of Lifehouse's 'Everything'
not sure if im gonna be able to hit the already quite high notes(though not high as the SteelHeart guy...*admits defeat*) cause of thie stupid sorethroat.. the lips are blood red... i think im 'over-heating' in the "YingYang" section like momma says... and people keep trying to get me to drink weird things... *shivers*... as unhealthy as i am.. i havent gotten sick in such a long time... weird right? (but doesnt wanna get sick.. cause when it does come.. im probably down and out for quite awhile...)

geeeeeeeeeee y didn't i send back the letter of acceptance?
y didn't i pack up and cross the ocean... start fresh from scratch?
Je ne comprend pas... y i didnt do it... (dumbest guy on earth..."You Foolish Foool!"

hmmm.. got a 'de-demoralising'(im not makin sense haha...) email from the team manager... these are the kind of things i need... i need "Feedback" as the coachin course teaches... i need to know wats to be done.. i need to have goals... short-term, long-term and inbetween?... je ne sais pas....

the scariest part is that im so dependant on "feedback" not only on court.. but offf... and noone can give me the kind of 'feedback' off court... i am basically the Team Manager of my life.... such a huge responsibility...

i realise ive been ignoring the "Maosi Team" for near 4 years now... because ive been so immersed into managing nighthawks... no wonder my mind feels so hmmm 'unattended' too.. like im some bad host you know? maybe not.. haha.....
feel like going to watch movieeesssssss... relax my mind for awhile...

"if i were a rich man...." i'd build cinema just for me... right smack in the middle of no where...
i'd run to the comfort of its dark but majestic feel... hmmmm.... (maybe i'll design it like how The Grand Cathay looks..) :P
i'll eat pecan pie(i want!!!) and watch happy stuff...
i'll eat popcorn and cry with the sad stuff...
(one day i'll get so fat.. i wont be able to get out from the place...)
k .. i'll just watch movies... (and not eat eat eat with it... haha... )

famous amos anyone? hahaha...

sundayyyyy....

went for me game... but didnt play much (like 3 minutes out of 40? benchwarmer definitely...)
i
watched 2 meaningful movies i just got...
'm
Adaptation starring Nicolas Cage...
lines to rememeber... "You are what you love, not what loves you..."
its got a amazingly creative story perspective for viewers... really good movie yep...
not
The Brave starring and directed by Johnny Depp
this one was a little draggy in the beginning but i managed to last out the entire movie and understood the things infront better...
really really touchin' and tragic ending.. (im gonna spoil it for u people.. so if u r planning to watch it skip the next line...)
-cause johnny depp sacrifices himself for his family.. yep..-
that
my neck is killin' me after 2 movies straight... thankfully theres a almost(coaching course @ night) free day tomorrow before another long long long long long long couple of days... (with early morning work? and last 2 lectures of coachin course)... but wat's happening next week is a plus point... gonna be returning back to floorball training after being so damn busy all the time with school at first and then coaching course after that...
one
im thinking about a decision that i had to make (as in decided for me..) beginning this year...
trying to think how these couple of pages in this book called "Maosi for all to see" (sounds so marketable except for the maosi part haha...) how these pages might have been something different...
if i had gone.... what'll it be like???
but i'll never know for sure... im past that page already... and i cant press backspace like i can here... every letter is being printed with "all-purpose permanent ink"...

who knows wats coming next? god? nope sorry i dont believe in fate..
"cause i dont like the feeling that im not in control of my life...(thematrix)"

i mean think about it... if there was such a thing as "fate" wat'll be the point of living? cause everything's been already planned out... whether ur gonna end up a complete wreck... or be really successful... or i dont know.. in between? wat's the point?
people's life stories would be so much more boring... because everything/surprise was "planned"...

but having a purpose in life is a completely different thing isnt it? ur life isn't decided for you... but u must find your own purpose... and find a way to fulfil that...and all the stories in between...doesn't that have a more 'Real Feel' to it?... isn't that a much much better word than fate? (ithinkicanwriteaargumentativeessayontheissuealready...)

ive the strong urge to find a new song for bloggy here... i change songs really really often... can never stick with one for that long... but i cant find anything thats got "how maosi feels" written all over it... Everything is good enough i guess.... gonna go play a couple of songs on the guitar for awhile before turning in for the night...

no name face...

just...

went to smiley lady's blog.. and she's got this neat song playing by lifehouse.. then it hit me.......
i dont have all em' lifehouse's albums yep... just got No Name Face.. and the first song that played mesmerised me..... it's Just so how i feel right now... ya know? well maybe not.. neverminds....

just... dont know what to expect...

gonna hopefully get my dayview game with skools floorball tomorrow.... i dont know if i feel confident enough though... on friday we were taught about Mental Skills Training and how it is more important then all the other aspects of your game.... and it hit me (gosh im getting hit by alot of things right? maybe the next one's.................................
just dont.... )
the reason why i cant perform in competitive games as well as i do in training sessions and watever.. is because im not mentally strong enough...
it's the human mind again...
and the lecturer told us how being mentally strong is more than just something we use in game.. but the skills we learn can crossover into everyday stuff.. like controling emotions and everything... (u'd become the most introverted person on earth... at the cost of looking like nothing is happening in ur life... nothing is bothering you... you'd be just like a stone statue... right?)
just.... how strong do i wanna be?
somehow there's this new perspective of life and stuff that jumped into me out of no where...
ha... i think im thinking too much(again?) nevermind... gonna run off into the music....

*Now Playing Lifehouse - Everything*

find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again

you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything

and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now

'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything

just... please dont say just to me.....
just move on?
just forget it?
just dont speak?
just do nothing? and let the road make dust outta me?

wanna know y?

work sucked today.. y?
cause the delivery truck came late... and 30 minutes after i started Weekend Today came Y's this so bad?
because no way can a chinese paper compete with a english paper as well established as Today
because there were THREE! 3! THREE! guys giving out Today compared to me one little person...
still y did work suck?
cause not only were there THREE! today guys... they were using human weakness to their full advantage...
1st Human weakness(esp. in Singapore) Freebies Rock! (esp. stuff in english..)
they were also giving out FREEEE Listerine to the many people... so of course there was a mad rush to the lovely stand i mean all the bad breath people would go and get some why shouldnt they? its free? BUT haha.. wats worst?
2nd Human weakness(all over the freakin world) Sex Sells (a heck of alot better than maosi.. hands down no contest.. they've won even before the game starts)
they had another 3! salesgirls to do that perfectly fine for them.. pearly white teeth... faces that look like they've never seen the sun and acne before....
"Freeeeeee Listerine!!"
"Keep em' Clean and White!!"
"Get your New Listerine with Today, today!"
but im not angry at that... i mean those people were doing their job.. like me were they not?
im angry at the fact that the marketing staff for the paper i was distributing did not do anything to deserve that kind of business... for one.. leaving one guy out there in the crowd doing his bloody best to give out 200+ copies as fast as he can... as best he can... wheres the help?
especially on a Saturday! O_O.. in CityHall... god i felt freakin embarrased.. wearing the uniform and dumb hat and smiling through the 3 hours.. though deep down inside me i felt like pouring kerosene all over the stack of newspapers behind me and setting it alight...

wat has maosi learnt from this?

Don't be a dumbbyyyyy!!! and take a weekend job... No matter how attractive the pay is...
I will NOT be paid to make a complete fool of myself no matter how much of a foolish fool i am already....

but in all the mayhem and "unfairness" there was this kind old lady.. =) .. (though i was too busy plotting the death's of erm... yah the 6 of them) she sat on the funny marble divider thingy beside where i was standing... and chatted with me... and *shhhhhh* took like 3 papers out of my 200+ stack (ok so maybe it was 5 haha...) and her excuse?
"Wo kan nee zhuo dao sou suan le...." (my chinese isnt great... but yah thats the best i could make out...)
i hope she enjoyed reading the paper(paperssss haha) as much as i enjoyed giving them to her... =D .... rofl...

it's not me... is it?

the stuff of dreams....

giving out the papers this mornin' couldnt have been any easier... and i know ive just been waiting to say this..
"Those Things Sell Like Pancakes!!!"
"Heck! They Sell Better Than Pancakes!!!"
(but then again they are free you know... )

and instead of having to do a full 2 hour shift... finished my 9 stacks (bout 20 papers per stack?)
in 40 minutes! (told ya they'd sell better than pancakes *grin*)

-Good Mornin' To You!

im dead tired... had to wake up at 5.55am @.@ ... and i realised i forgot wat it was like to wake up early in the mornin's and *takes a deep breath* mmhmmm.. the fresh air and all..

~Wat's so good about the mornin'?

thankfully the coaching course lecturer today was goooooood.. or i would have definitely slept in the lecture... yah...

-Wat's wrong with you? you fooolish foooool?

finally have the Singin' In The Rain soundtrack.. (so ignore meeeeeeeee.... cause i just feel like singin' and dancin')

~absolutely nothing :D coz...
"Im Singin' In The Rain................................ " (and gonna catch a fluuuu.................)
coozzzzz
"Im Dancin'! and Singin' In The Rain....."

*Now Playing somesongicantgetoutofmyheadcozitsniceinitsownlittlewayyaknow?*

someone catch me before i drift away like a cloud....

possibly over-thinking...

*pulls sleeve*
-excuse me.. are you going somewhere???

starting my "work" tmr... 2 hours of work in the morning.. @ toa payoh mrt givin out newspapers.. (i've to admit i never thought i'd be a 'paper-boy') but still... might be fun... im getting more pocket money just by putting a paper in 'em ppls hands.. how easy is that!

~me?

had another lesson of french with miss"imaevilwitchfromouterspacethatusedtobeasealion"
she's just so........................ yah? getting lost in class and when u try to get back onboard and ask for her help, she'll be "u r strong enuff u dont need my help... and yet u ask?"
*super rolls eyes...*

-yes you dumbyyyyy

i cant wait for sunday... it'll mean a couple of things...
1. pesta sukan cup and my first competitive game with my new team
2. end of 2nd week of coaching course last week to go...
3. 1 day closer to *ahem*coughcough* and maybe happiness mmhmmmm... dont know wat to expect... like really not a clue... hopeless or wat?! "you foolish fool.."

~where should i be going?

'it' is so draining.. like reeeeeeeeaaaaaaally... 'IT!' (i never fail to be a fool..)
and did bad for the french evaluation as expected... mmhmmmm... dunno wat i'll do... probably pay the french tution teacher more rabbits in hope of her passing me more knowledge... mmhmmmm...

-thats your problem... self-denial my friend... you fooooooolish foooooool...
'stuff' doesn't float around forever you know.... *points* thats where u should be heading...

~*Golem from LOTR* "It's too risky, it's too risky....."
"Go away..."

-"Go away? muahahhaha..."
that's whats gonna happen... it's gonna go away.. and im gonna go with it... and imagine... think of wat will be..... here you go... *holds out a 'red sock'* take it... tis' the key to your dreams... tis' the key to ur dreams becoming a reality... becoming ur life... but will you take it?
will u reach for the stars? or will u let it bounce past and let the world be against such a monstrosity... as you?

~*sings...* "You are... my lucky star... i saw you from afar...2 lovely eyes at me they were gleaming.. beaming... I was star-struck!
You've opened heaven's portal here on earth for this poor mortal...
you are my lucky star..."
*drifts away...*

my mum the superwoman

the end of a chapter in a book would mean the start of a new one....

im glad to say my mum has been freed... she did the most amazing things today.. i think my mouth is still hanging wide open... id say she's been locked up for a really really long time... i think it started after we moved from our tampines home... the first roof i lived under.. (stories of my older sister carrying me around the hdb block showing me off to her friends... and pictures of mum and her baking oven and the lovely bread she made.... -thoughidontremembertooyoung... =/- stories for another time haha...)

somehow over the many many many years after that... my mum turned into someone... completely different.. it was like the life had been sucked out of her... and i was really too young to notice and to understand why at the time... she'd always be angry.. frustrated... naggy... home at that time (somewhere around the serangoon area) was not the most welcoming place for me.. but where else could a kindergarden kid go? i only remember how dark the house was all the time.... (and how i didnt understand wat on earth were termites -keptthinkingdynamite.. haha...-) and we moved to where we are now... 8 floors up.. spectacular view.. and peaceful.. but mum never had a chance to enjoy much of that... she began working and she'd go out early in the mornin' and come back after midnight.. she never had enough sleep.. she never had the same energy that she had once she started working.. no more baking her lovely brownies with the gooy centre... no more of her yummy lemon cheesecake.... there goes the happiness *looks out the window* straight down 8 floors to the ground and 6 feet under....

i thought... well mum's going through a tough time.. she might never get out of the ditch she fell into.. but something happened today while i was sleeping (like finally!! after 2 weeks of 2 hour nights one afternoon of pure rest... -story for another time-) she turned the house into a home.. haha.. im not sure if u guys have heard of this saying before
"A house is made of bricks and beams,
A home is built with love and dreams..."
so nice right? =D

we'll see how it goes over the next couple of weeks.... and im hoping for the best.. cause i feel my mum's no longer one big mess mmhmmmm....

for the animal lover... 'Mr.Crikey' =)

when i woke this morning... was thinking about writing something completely different... but i saw these 5 words.. and realised i couldnt be that selfish to ignore something like this...

"Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin killed"

BRISBANE, Australia - Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and environmentalist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray during a diving expedition, Australian media said. He was 44.
Irwin was filming an underwater documentary on the Great Barrier Reef in northeastern Queensland state when the accident occurred, Sydney's The Daily Telegraph newspaper reported on its Web site.
The Australian Broadcasting Corp. said Irwin was diving near Low Isles Reef near the resort town of Port Douglas, about 1,260 miles north of the state capital of Brisbane.
Queensland ambulance service spokesman Bob Hamil confirmed that a diver had been killed by a stingray off Lowe Isles Reef but refused to say who the victim was until relatives had been notified.
A rescue helicopter was sent from the nearby city of Cairns, and paramedics from it confirmed the diver's death.
"The probable cause of death is stingray strike to the chest," Hamil said.
Staff at Australia Zoo, Irwin's zoo in southern Queensland, said they had heard the reports but could not comment.
Irwin is famous for his enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchcry "Crikey!" in his television program "Crocodile Hunter," which was first broadcast in Australia in 1992 and has aired around the world on the Discovery channel.
He rode his image into a feature film, and developed the Australia Zoo as a tourist attraction.
Irwin had received some negative publicity in recent years. In January 2004, he stunned onlookers at the Australia Zoo reptile park by carrying his 1-year-old son into a crocodile pen during a wildlife show. He tucked the infant under one arm while tossing the 13-foot reptile a piece of meat with the other.
Authorities declined to charge Irwin for violating safety regulations.
Later that year, he was accused of getting too close to penguins, a seal and humpback whales in Antarctica while making a documentary. Irwin denied any wrongdoing, and an Australian Environment Department investigation recommended no action be taken.
Irwin was also seen as a vocal critic of wildlife hunts in Australia. The federal government recently dropped plans to allow crocodile safaris for wealthy tourists in the Northern Territory following his vehement objections.
Irwin told the Australian television program "A Current Affair" that "killing one of our beautiful animals in the name of trophy hunting will have a very negative impact on tourism, which scares the living daylights out of me."
He is survived by his American wife Terri, from Oregon, and their daughter Bindi Sue, 8, and son Bob, who will turn 3 in December."

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin
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i remember watchin' one of his shows where he was touring and he said in a interview.." One day i'll be much older.. and slower.. and probably get bitten by a crocodile and im sure they'll go "We Knew One Would Get Him!""
i dont think anyone's saying that now.. i dont think anyone will say... "He Had It Coming..."
its a pity i never got to see him in person in Australia zoo as i was hoping...
proof of the saying... "The Good Die Young..."

what a way to start the day huh?
Au-revoir monsieur....

*Now Playing Daniel O'Donald - Danny Boy*

Oh Danny boy, the pipes, the pipes are calling
From glen to glen, and down the mountain side
The summer's gone, and all the flowers are dying
'Tis you, 'tis you must go and I must bide.
But come ye back when summer's in the meadow
Or when the valley's hushed and white with snow
'Tis I'll be here in sunshine or in shadow
Oh Danny boy, oh Danny boy, I love you so.

And if you come, when all the flowers are dying
And I am dead, as dead I well may be
You'll come and find the place where I am lying
And kneel and say an "Ave" there for me.

And I shall hear, tho' soft you tread above me
And all my dreams will warm and sweeter be
If you'll not fail to tell me that you love me
I'll simply sleep in peace until you come to me.

I'll simply sleep in peace until you come to me.

the smile i cant wipe off... =)

*Now Playing Michael Buble - The Way You Look Tonight*

Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you
And the way you look tonight.

You're lovely, with your smile so warm
And your cheeks so soft,
There is nothing for me but to love you,
And the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Mm... Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight.

With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart...
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

Oh... Lovely ... don't you ever change.
Keep that breathless charm.
Won't you please arrange it?
'Cause I love you ... Just the way you look tonight.

Mm, tonight.

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i just feel like dancing... like i was on court today haha... i dont understand why this smile i wear just wont leave haha... even though we were on the receiving end of a thrashing... but still smiling haha.. weirdo i am... and dancing while refin' haha... i think i feel a glowwwww coz im thinking of you.. oh please dont change the song.. cause its just how i feel tonight..

"My day will be boring if i dont get to see you..."
thats one of the nicks on my msn list... i think i should tell him listen to this song haha.. oh my oh my... i feel like dancing.. *leaps* nightfever this is...

no it doesnt touch my heart.. it grabs it and swings it around...

i think something's wrong with the stomach... didnt eat anything at all today until at night.. went with my mum to get some "ba chow meee" (erez dun ask.. its not halal... haha)

everyone wont feel the same as me.. but i'd tell everyone to enjoy such a perfect night...

to the world... id say... smile =)

something to smile about....

*Now Playing Enya - Fallen Embers*

Once, as my heart remembers,
all the stars were fallen embers.
Once, when night seemed forever
I was with you.

Once, in the care of morning
in the air was all belonging.
Once, when that day was dawning
I was with you.

How far we are from morning,
how far we are
and the stars shining through the darkness,
falling in the air.

Once, as the night was leaving
into us our dreams were weaving.
Once, all dreams were worth keeping.
I was with you.

Once, when our hearts were singing,
I was with you.

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catch the shooting star.....