because.....

there was this movie this afternoon on tv... and one line from that movie..
"tell him that though a person doesn't show up , it does not mean he does not care.."

all sense sucked out... no answers to burning questions... no words to comfort the questions...

i think im gonna die tomorrow... studying for the coaching test hasn't been that successful... might just flunk it.. should be studying now... but while im here... im not gonna miss a chance to watch Liverpool.. (maybe only under the most desperate circumstances will i pass... and those circumstances dont come to often... )

maybe when the need is dire.... for now i'll let the clocks tick... i'll let the calenders flip...
-but till when? when will this become a desperate circumstance?
when all hope is nearly lost.. and i'll realise that ive waited too long.. thought too long... tried to understand something that was made crystal clear but my eyes choose not to seee... my ears choose not to hear... i quickly shunt away any idea they may drag my hopes dangerously high...
-and if it goes the wrong way... i'll never forgive myself... for being so wrong... for putting false thoughts in my mind.. for taking so long?

i need a new song... diary of jane is becoming ______________*boring...*___________

"Point Me!"