.... enough

i'm too scared to choose, scared to refuse, tell me what i'm suppose to do?

training today was mad.... it's been such a long time since i was made to do pushups and situps with extreme amounts of repetition... my right arm screams everytime it doesnt have anything supporting it... wonder how i'm gonna be able to give the papers out tomorrow... yesh work tomorrow... but still better than slacking away a saturday isn't it?

i will not give up, cause i can almost breathe the air right beyond my finger tips...

bleh... who am i kidding? (myself?) i'd rather slack the day away rather then having to give out papers... oh well the bright side is that there's liverpool to watch tonight.. but what am i gonna do the rest of the dayyy? should i go to republic poly after work to play floorball? nahhh.. my arms and abs are killing meeeeee... i'll probably just get off at yck while on the way to woodlands from toa payoh...

i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall asleep, coz????

someone told me something todayyy... and it made me think (as usual..) alot alot alot... and i feel stressed out by it... i feel uncertain and uncomfortable... cause i can't see what the others see.. but they dont know the full story.. so how can they make a statement as bold as that one?

and i'm not ever gonna know!! cause we're all going in the same direction..

i hope i'll be able to just knock-out later and not be over-powered with my dumbum thoughts... seriously 'SHUCKS' me... bleh blah bleh... go figure..................... now everything takes time don't it? ('course it does...) and some things take longer than others right? (oui!)

i've given up on giving up slowly, but i'm not blending in... cause i don't wanna be part of the crowd... and their "technicalities"...

ok i've had enough of complaining... it's time to look on the bright sides of all of the above...
cozzzz

all in all just another day's gone...

Just... focus.... don't hesitate..