hit and run....

throw me a bone will ya?
*bone hits maosi on the head*
*he's knocked out for 12 hours straight (sleeping like @ last! some good sleep)*
*when he awakes he realises the full situation......*
"ohhh... i see....." *at a lost for words but someow those 2 words escape from his mouth*

(im getting hit by alot alot of things... but this one i asked for it... haha... "you foolish fooool!")

anyways.. i think im gonna spend time today trying to get a recording of Lifehouse's 'Everything'
not sure if im gonna be able to hit the already quite high notes(though not high as the SteelHeart guy...*admits defeat*) cause of thie stupid sorethroat.. the lips are blood red... i think im 'over-heating' in the "YingYang" section like momma says... and people keep trying to get me to drink weird things... *shivers*... as unhealthy as i am.. i havent gotten sick in such a long time... weird right? (but doesnt wanna get sick.. cause when it does come.. im probably down and out for quite awhile...)

geeeeeeeeeee y didn't i send back the letter of acceptance?
y didn't i pack up and cross the ocean... start fresh from scratch?
Je ne comprend pas... y i didnt do it... (dumbest guy on earth..."You Foolish Foool!"

hmmm.. got a 'de-demoralising'(im not makin sense haha...) email from the team manager... these are the kind of things i need... i need "Feedback" as the coachin course teaches... i need to know wats to be done.. i need to have goals... short-term, long-term and inbetween?... je ne sais pas....

the scariest part is that im so dependant on "feedback" not only on court.. but offf... and noone can give me the kind of 'feedback' off court... i am basically the Team Manager of my life.... such a huge responsibility...

i realise ive been ignoring the "Maosi Team" for near 4 years now... because ive been so immersed into managing nighthawks... no wonder my mind feels so hmmm 'unattended' too.. like im some bad host you know? maybe not.. haha.....
feel like going to watch movieeesssssss... relax my mind for awhile...

"if i were a rich man...." i'd build cinema just for me... right smack in the middle of no where...
i'd run to the comfort of its dark but majestic feel... hmmmm.... (maybe i'll design it like how The Grand Cathay looks..) :P
i'll eat pecan pie(i want!!!) and watch happy stuff...
i'll eat popcorn and cry with the sad stuff...
(one day i'll get so fat.. i wont be able to get out from the place...)
k .. i'll just watch movies... (and not eat eat eat with it... haha... )

famous amos anyone? hahaha...