blueprint of the 'Master Plan'

okay here's the plan i've made to begin immediately when school starts.. which might be 2 or 3 days later than other ppl cause some of us are going china trip ^^ or maybe not ahhaha *shrug*

yeah anyways..

because the week starts on a SUNDAY! (NOT A MONDAY like chiam likes to think.. dun give me all that working week bullshiat lol)

yes but i might as well..

so sat and sunday are my free time days.. do watever the heck i please lol..like
catch up on last work, watching AXN which is my new favorite channel for some weird reason lol, gym hurhur, jumping around like a bozo lol, maybe pick up some extra stuff like find a coaching job on sats (but because of stupid MOE encouraging schools to make cca on weekdays, this is gonna be a hard one :( ), maybe take french on saturdays?

i actually do have friday which is free also (YESSSSA! haha no lessons on that day hurr) maybe take french on that day *nod*

current dilemma is $$.. french is like $250++ for 2 months?
and i have to save for those contacts i've been absolutely dying to get.. which is $600 for a 6 month pair i supposes? i can't remember.. so in expenses, i'm already down like $225 a month >.<

then i've the concession shite thats like $96 or 98 buckeroos a month?

..$320+- a month... that's like freaking half my bloody allowance wtf.. how to save cash like that lol...

and i've the floorball training stuff? which require me to pay $40 a month for dunno how long..

..$360+- >.< (i'm feeling the strain of this material world..)

omg omg omg.. *struggles to come to terms*

and if i pick up ice hockey @.@"
i gotta save approximately i dunno.. 400-600 bucks? >.< (smiley lady! help! loool)
and like need to pay for ice time also.. dunno how much that is..

so i've already calculated.. i usually use about $100 a week (is that alot? HAHAHAHA)
when accumlated it sounds like alot lah.. but if u think about it, i rarely eat at home.. and all my meals are taken out.. and like i already dun buy stuff like clothes or shit.. i buy em once in a blue moon?

i really donno where all that money is going rofl.. RAWR I HATE MONEY.. I NEED THAT FREAKING COACHING JOB NOW! oh yes speaking of which.. i'd need to take first aid course first... omg... so many things to do.. i need to renew my passport which is gonna take awhile -.- like shit..

i will be resuming my tuesday trainings again from when school reopens.. (that's gonna be tiring.. like to kallang -.-) i'm worried for my ankle.. it's still swollen for some reason... like it's been stuck at this size for awhile.. like comparing with my other ankle, it's definitely bigger *nod* and i still wanna pick up ice hockey ahahahhahaha

hmm yes i need a coaching job.. i shall go get my first aid thingum by end of this hols.. and then push for a job with a complete cert.. and hopefully get one that maybe does monday and friday trainings? that'll be awesome...

i've the driving thingum coming up... which i better pass lol..

and that's basically it really.. hmmmmm... sounds so messy cause i just vomitted everything out randomly and not in chronological order right? hahahaha..

RAWR!

i dun wanna drop french >.<
i dun wanna drop anything really lol..

u know wat.. i'm getting so irritated with this post.. cause it feels like im bloody whining lol... WTH! ENOUGH!

hurhur...

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Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
yah but FUCK

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:36
lol wat?

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
i'm not going to waste my time on something not confirmed
11:36
so many ppl wanna go also

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:36
ahahhahaha
11:36
okay

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
god knows who the fuck is going

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
yaya when confirm lor
11:37
ur best friend Roger
11:37
ROFL
11:37
fail module still can go
11:37
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
????

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
kidding lah
11:37
lol

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
he's going?
11:37
wtf?
11:37
Fuck you

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
hhahahaha

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
go suck a dick
11:37
like
11:37
erez's

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both of them dun read my blog so i guess it's okay lol

okay work tmr so i'mma getting to beds now.. and face PITU again hopefully not hahaha

singwei is doing night shift but i'm doing day shift.. so
*sings like donkey in shrek*
I'm all alone!
there's no one hereeee beside meeeee...

(ah yes.. before i forget something mentionable..
liyana seems to like calling me, Mellie lol..

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:08
ha ha ha
11:08
ok laaa i owe u brownieeee
11:08
i was just checkinggg

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:13
yay brownieeee!!!!
11:13
hahahahahah
11:13
weee!
11:13
^^

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:14
ha ha ha
11:14
yalaaayalaaaa
11:14
mellie

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:14
hahahaha
11:14
u know u're the only 1 tat calls me mellie?
11:14
ahahhahaha
11:15
and it kinda sounds like Mei Li in chinese which is beautiful?
11:15
ahhahahh
11:15
*acts beautiful*
11:15
lol

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:17
HA HA HA HA
11:17
ACT ONLY HAHAHAHDJSADHAQG!

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:17
hahahahhahaahah
11:17
of course mannn
11:18
i should like create myself the new nickname
11:18
mellie boo boo
11:18
sound so cute
11:18
like trying to talk to baby like that
11:18
ahhahah

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:18
HA HA HA
11:18
its like smelly boo boo
11:18
u know those smelly pillow
11:18
those which u go to sleep with and drool on it
11:19
and then never wash it because the smell rocks

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:19
hahahaha the smell rocks?!
11:19
wth!
11:19
HAHAHAHA

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
i use to have it. but my mom wash it. and then i hated her back then. i was 4 anyway.

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
HAAHHAHAHA wth
11:20
damn smelly

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
mellie boo boo sounds like smelly boo boo

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
must wash!
11:20
just dun add the S
11:20
ahhahaha

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
smelly mellie

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
then it'll be mellie boo boo which sounds so much nicer
11:20
hahahahah
11:20
NO REFUSE!

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
ha ha ha

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
Mellie's belly
11:20
that's better
11:20
hahah

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
ha ha ha
11:20
smellie belly

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:21
hahahha RAWR!
11:21
ahahahha

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:21
mellie sounds smelly

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:21
mellie sounds smelly but really mellie isn't smelly at all
11:21
hahahha
11:21
like some riddle

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:21
ha ha ha
11:21
yeaaah
11:22
smellie mellie isnt that smelly
11:22
but is still smelly.

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:23
but he's smelly in a good way ^^
11:23
he smells ncie hurhur

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:23
smelly is not nice smelling
11:24
ha ha)

Au-revoir le deux temps!

rofl.. kk Bonne Nuit!

and he said 'auf weidersehen, adieu, adieu, adieu..'

today was a boring day.. didn't go cut hair in the end cause i was too tired lol (but no comparison to dx and jj of course and probably calvin.. cause they definitely have to work harder than me)..

yeah but anyways.. boring but i learnt new songs on the guitar :D weee!

i don't know why.. but i suddenly had the urge to learn some 'Vertical Horizon' songs and then somehow when i thought of Vertical Horizon, i also thought of Snow Patrol lol..

so yeah learnt a few of their songs like like..

my fav for the day
-"Open Your Eyes" by Snow Patrol.. which is one of the songs they played at Live Earth and seriously was quite awesome wee! :D.. it's actually damn easy to play? just needs a lot of endurance haha cause my fingers cramp up after a bit.. but the sounds is just so awesome *nod*... gives me the tingly sensation like my hairs all standing, cause when i play it the sounds just so.. i dunno how to say.. awesome lol..
and and
-"Signal Fire" and "Run" and "Shut Your Eyes" (lol so consistent doncha thing?) and and of course the one most of you will know them by "Chasing Cars"...

and then for Vertical Horizon, i learnt

-"You're A God", and tried to learn "Everything You Want"? but like either my fingers not fast enough, so the sound doesnt' sound right when it gets out from the guitar.. or the guitar tab i was looking at was wrong... and learnt "Best I Ever Had"

so from signal fire,

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth.
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.

and run,

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

i think tmr might be going to tw's place to do some recording... *shrug* we'll see how luh..
nt sure how enthu i'll be tomorrow looool

imma feeling like i should go sleep soon *nod*.. been having headaches of late for no apparent reason to my knowledge.. maybe it's cause
i'm getting so tired, and so old...

not old in age! (dun bother trying xq lol.. i'm still younger than you :P.. dun get ur hopes up..)

open your eyes

peeka boo!

i just realised there's a whole section missing in my previous post.. about the headless dolphin... and i'm so certain i typed it in yesterday.. O.O
freaky... eeeeeeeeeee

anyway i dun wanna say lol.. maybe another time..

i'm having the weirdest evening ever lol.. but nt gonna talk about it... *nod*
(then why bother mentioning?)

hmmm

did seriously almost 11 hours of work today.. like i finally finished like typing a really stressful set of interviews.. my god >.<>.<>.< my my my... i'm wanting to get a hair cut.. and icy blue contact lenses.. lol.. and qammie knows too well the reasoning behind it ahahha.. =P k.. this next piece is a random piece of (hopefully you can call it) creativity. (in my own way which might be bullshit in your opinions)

he was filled up
by the music he was hearing,
and lost pretty much deep in thought.
but as he looked for a new staring spot where his eyes could be safely open,
while his mind was allowed to wander.
but as his eyes searched, he soon found himself looking across the platform.
into the doors of the open train going in the opposite direction from his.
and he stared into her eyes, as she stared into his.
it didn't matter, they didn't bother to look away even though in any other situation,
it would have been a throughly awkward moment.
they were leaning by the same place.. and in the same posture..
it was this symmetry that connected their thoughts almost telepathically to one anothers.
and both minds were on the same idea...
though he knew not her name,
and she knew not his...
both thier minds felt the same way..
both felt so lonely,
and so detached
even though they were caught in the hustle and bustle
of every thing else and every one else.
they're gaze didn't break even though the doors of their respective trains shut themselves,
and he only realised the beauty of that moment,
until after they went their separate ways..
and would never see each other again.

ca va? >.< je ne sais pas.. hopefully..

lol damn random.. oh nuit...

i hate it when i'm forgetful :(

i'm dead.. got so much explaining to do now.. cause i forgot like jerry's bday (nope dun think he reads this blog..)
anyways.. he's like my bestest friend, biker gang mate from primary, and secondary school..
we've got a long history..
and his bday was well. .yesterday which ended 44 minutes ago.. like WTF!

even with all the Friendster reminders i get in my email hahaha i can still forget!
i'm one forgetful kitty... tsk...

okay anyway.. short post.. because i'm tired lool let me explain how tired..

my bro and i were watching this funny "Megastructures" program on discovery channel... about like the biggest ships and things? and i just fell asleep.. lol.. like duno.. maybe it was boring? but seriously quite tired.. like people at work asked singwei and me to go with a couple of them to Velvet Underground? which is some glam rich people place i think loool.. like damn mad.. the dress code was stylish? so immediately said no haha. like i wasn't dressed for the part?

like i was wearing my fav pair of jeans, me lovely brown addidas shoes ^^ *loves*, the white shirt i bought from gina's ahahhaha that i love so much cause it's so handy.., and like my fav grey capricorn hoodie ^^ *loves x10* yah damn unglam for a high class party.. where there'll most likely be celebrities.. lol.. nope turn em down.. might have been fun though.. also cause i'm so tired..

okay tired.. yah so i went to sleep it was like.. 10.30pm? like damn early ahha earliest i've slept in months.. and like i just got up awhile ago at midnight to go shower.. lol cause i was still in the outfit i described above.. jeans and all.. and had weird dreams.. ah yes

i've been having the freaking mose nonsensical dreams of late.. last night, they were worstest-est-est-est-est ever!..

i dreamt i was acting? and my dad was also acting? like in the same movie? and he was supposed to "fake" stab me? and he actually did stab me? like and then got a wound and all.. then like we go for 2 more takes? and both takes he stab me still! and like all i can do is tell him what the hell u doing? kinda thing? then he'll say like sorry and shit and go for next take? yah but the 3rd take was when i passed out and fell into this new dream.. WHICH IS A FREAKING NIGHTMARE TOO! like I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THIS THOUGHT CAME OUT FORM..

LIKE SERIOUS DAMN SCARY...

i dreamt i was going out with a friend.. a close friend.. like go to this Horror performance/movie thing.. and we signed up for these special seats, which i forgot what they were called in the dream, but the idea was.. that if u sign up for those seats, you absolutely cannot leave halfway during the performance.. and u must seat through the whole scary thing? and like it's frontrow seats too? i think it was "Sane-mind" treatment seats or something i dunno damn wtf right? hahaha.. and basically, u'd be given the "Prime-house" seats in the theatre.. and be subjected to psychological or physical torture? so wtf.. made people... in my dream.. so that kinda makes me mad? hahahahha i can go write a new film script already.. loool
then like damn scary!
like the ju-on kid? was actually the lead performer? and he came out at first.. and liek not scary at first.. hten like got this dolphin sound? like there was a dolphin swimming behind? then the kid went backstage and

----Rated M18 by the MDA for extreme Gore----
like he brought back the dolphin? without it's freaking head! >.<>.<>.<>.< .. and was like sitting beside me.. taunting me.. i woke up damn scared! HAHHAHA like freaking hell! then i came out from brushing teeth and all and my room door was wide open!? I WAS LIKE WTF! WHY'S IT OPEN! then i realised my mum had come in to check if i was awake? omgggg.. u dun wanna know man ahhaha freaking SICK DREAM! i hate! no more! and I THOUGHT I SAID THIS WILL BE A SHORT POST! >.< kk i going back to sleep now.. good night people! have safe, nice sweet and simple dreams with no freakish stuff like bloody ju-on kids and dead dolphins :( ... Night!

(yes dx... we should sell Xiuqi on eBay.. i think safe to say there will be one very strong bidder ahhahahahahhaha L? and got Chee Weee! and JOHN JOHN JOHN! and LOVEY DOVEY! and i dun remember hahaha.. WOOPS! DID I JUST SAY ALL YOUR SCANDALS!? =X)

mittens and kittens

kitty's sick today :(..
didn't go to work and slept over time.. like i slept a total of 15 hours? i slept from 12 last night to 3 today?? woke up and had a slight fever carried over from last night.. so called in sick and took a fever tablet.. hur woke up at 3.. felt better wanted to go get mc and go for work... then me producer called me and told me no need to go.. restt.. hurhur.. so here i am!

but but but but i tell you wat made my day heeeee!
i went to ang mo kio polyclinic.. get mc and meds and stuff.. then the place where i was waiting for my number to be called got so many little children!!! like REALLY! children and babies and stuff and all damn CUTE!

I WANT CHILDREN!! RAWWWWWR!

like there was this kid beside me so cute! he can't talk yet so he was making funny gurgling noises to imitate talking? hehe so cute!! then he that the biggest cutest eyes! ahhahah.. and he was with he grandpappy.. like damn loving all.. young generation with old generation hurhur.. damn nice!!
like the grandpappy hold his hand and they walk to one side to get a brochure just for fun hurhur.. like he's just started walking then can't walk unless someone holds his hand haha. SO CUTE CAN!

I WANT CHILDREN!! RAWWWWWR!

and like his shoes made that sometimes really irritating squeaking sound? but it was so cute on him looool.. like WTH! and and and.. when he's grandpappy feed him bread like he'll be damn engrossed ahhaha it's like the bread's in a plastic bag.. but when his grandpappy hold it open in front of him he don't know how to take the bread himself? hahaha damn funny! the grandpappy have to like pluck small bits out and then he will open his mouth wide and chunk down sometimes onto his grandpappy's fingers ahahhah DAMN CUTE!!! and and and like when his mum moved to one side cause she can't see the numbers on the digital board, he cried out "mummy! mummy!" hahaha... affectionate oooonly..

(did i already say i wanted children?) hah!

tskkk i love kids..

i want my own kittens ^^..

eeny meeny miny mo

This day and age we're living in
Gives cause for apprehension
With speed and new invention
And things like third dimension.

Yet we get a trifle weary
With Mr. Einstein's theory.
So we must get down to earth at times
Relax relieve the tension

And no matter what the progress
Or what may yet be proved
The simple facts of life are such
They cannot be removed.

You must remember this
A kiss is still a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by.

And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you."
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by.

Moonlight and love songs
Never out of date.
Hearts full of passion
Jealousy and hate.
Woman needs man
And man must have his mate
That no one can deny.

It's still the same old story
A fight for love and glory
A case of do or die.
The world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

Oh yes, the world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

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-random!-
go figure, even if i blog a new song for every new day from now, i'd take 20 years to have posted every song at least once O.O ... and my song library isn't that big if u compare it to dexian's or like nigel or seriously the god pav lool..

work again tmrr.. i'm beginning to feel the strain of working the long hours..

i need to hit the gym soon, i'm feeling like a lazy piece of poo and i dun like it... i wanna be a fit and slightly muscular hunk of poo... hurhur..

some times i really wonder wat it'll be like...

like a child on the way, i know u're barely listening...

I lie awake on this phone call, she's dreaming of better days
Flowers lie on the counter, remind her of better days

She sends a prayer up to Jesus
And she asks him for his strength
And the night will go on bleeding
Was it faith that paid the rent?

And I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
Now I know you're'.
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
Now I know you're'.

Standing here in the doorway with a candle and a gun
The lights you threw open windows
For now the day has won



Like a child on her way here
You just smile and run the other way
And faith won't find me a reason
It just smiles and runs the other way
And It just smiles'.
It just smiles and runs the other way
It just smiles'.
It just smiles and then runs the other way

It's not worth waiting

You question love with a camera
And you're catching love with a will
Well heart lies in loneliness
Now fight, the past can kill

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i know u're barely listening,
cause you can't see the ideas i'm tossing..

it stops raining poo, and i stop saying poo hurhur

i love my job! ^^
really really alot.. hahah i wanna get married with my job and work place loool..
it's actually quite a lonely job if u think about it..
like today? we worked 10am to 7.30pm? (willingly of course, hahah damn passionate! sfeeee!)
it's like wat nearly 9 to 10 hours of work? but i'm loving it so much it feels everyday just passes so fast.. like too quickly for my liking :( .. then after we leave that place due to their secrecy rule we can't be part of the family anymore.. so sad.. i wanna quit school and like just work there ahhahaha.. yah anyway.. it's like 9 hours of sitting in a room (WHICH IS REALLY COMFY! ^^ like.. some designer suite kinda thing? freaking awesome!) yah anyway 9 hours sitting in a room and most of the time all u have for company? are 2 19" widescreen monitors and alot alot alot alot alot of footage ahhahaha.. like really >.< but it's so funny! hahah.. like i dunno enjoyable like mad lol.. it's like working until i'm tired? and usually most people when they get tired they go all moody? but there's just so many comical elements! HAHHA like i think i'm bloody noisy ahhaha cause like all of a sudden my colleagues (especially chiam cause he's usually in the room beside me) will hear a sudden outburst of laughing? hahahahah damn loud somemore.. like i was in stitches for a couple of minutes cause of something cute ahhaha seriously..
i'm head over heels in love with work hehe.. even chiam's getting irritated with me lol..

like i'll eat my lunch really fast? cause i wanna get back to work? then i keep rushing him cause he's so slow? and like he makes hot coffee also? so even slower cause he dun wanna scald his tongue? but dun care i will rush him heck care cause i wanna go back to work... then like i dun feel like leaving the office? cause i wanna work alsoo? ahahahahahhaa MY GOD! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE x9999999999999999999

i dun mind doing sundays also ^^
hahahaha i'm (as xq would say) madddddddd...

DUN CARE! weeeee!
hmm i need to go have dinner.. think there's nothing but bread and chunky peanut butter lol..

oh yes food! like in the office got people damn nice like they go out for lunch? they will call and ask what i want? even though i dun know them? and they don't know me?
hahahahha freaking awesome! and like make me feel damn guilty! cause like.. i feel so bad cause like they have to help me buy? unconditionally? which is the most awesome thing.. damn good! ^^

hurr see! not angry from last night anymore.. ranting really works hurhur..

anyways today was IS module enrolement.. where hundreds or thousands of students will try to access the system at the given time slot and get a spot in a class they really really want? then chiam and i had this technique.. where we'd almost put our feet in the door and just open and close to check for changes hahaa.. like log in and just constantly refresh.. hurhur.. so i got the modules i wanted luhh haha.. taking French and if i don't bloody ace it i can go eat poop already.. and some game design thing. hurhur.. bro dx bro from sem 1 is now in the same class as me
for every class ahhahahah damn hardcore man!

oh yes and i'd like to add..
it'd be nice if people didn't think that much which is almost too much, because it's really not what they think and not about wat they think *nod*.. hope that makes sense lol..

i realise my sister's got alot of nice music lol.. like disco stuff also hurhur.. and and today on the way to work i took the shuttle bus from my house to mrt and i was like the only guy in the bus HAHAH like full of aunties and i must say, one really pretty girl who boarded from my estate and who coincidentally i sat beside *nod*.. I MEAN COINCIDENTAL! i'm not that chee ko lol.. wth.. but yah very pretty *nod nod*.. thank god it wasn't pouring or i would have been soaked.. but i got to wear my favourite jumper the grey capricorn one hurhur cause it wasn't that hot *nod*

all in all an awesome possumy day that even the possums will be jealous about hehe! :D

au-revoir tout le monde! (i think i might have used the wrong tout.. hmm TW! SMILEY LADY! help! haha)

please bear with me...

okay i can't sleep till i let out all this anger or it's gonna eat me up inside and like ruin my bloody sleep which is already gonna be insufficient so whatever..

i'd really like to say if u dun like vulgarities and shit? dun read this post.. cause i'm just really really angry and i gotta let this rage out someway before i freaking strangle something..

okay.. so u've been warned..

----DANGER ZONE AFTER THIS LINE!!! PROCEED AT OWN RISK-----

i really really REALLY HATE IT when someone keeps complaining about not liking something? but then in actual fact.. in freaking ass reality! they are doing that exact thing?

okay let's make this personal.. since i'm such a feisty kitty...

say like my dad's a womanizer and i keep going on and on and on about how i fucking hate him because of that.. and like i hate what he does like sleeping around with fucking whores who seriously just want money and like whatever the fuck... but then i myself am like fucking around with fucking whores? at the same time? and like I JUST SAID I REALLY DONT LIKE IT? OR LIKE HATE HIM FOR DOING IT? SO WHAT THE FUCK?

don' tyou think it kinda cancles out what u just said? And seriously like if someone is in ssuch a fucking deep state of self-denial.. or okay let's give u the benefit of bloody doubt and say u are blind? and really can't see it? that u're seriously such a fucktard then all you say pretty much loses it's like reliability? because u can't even decide for urself what is right or wrong? like where's the fucking integrity and shit? so FUCK YOU if you think u're that fucking perfect u can judge people as you please when you yourself aren't so FUCKING perfect.. if you keep thinking you fucking made the world and wrote the rules then i feel so damn sorry for you.. because honestly, u're in bloody denial..

it's the same as TREAT OTHERS AS YOU EXPECT TO BE TREATED... if u treat someone like SHIT all the time.. and keep giving crappola remarks or fucking crap shit stuff done to the other guy then you deserve to have every single damn bad thing redone upon you.. ESPECIALLY IF U CAN'T SEE U'RE WRONG... It'd be nice if u just said sorry or like be fucking HUMBLE A LITTLE BIT! AND LIKE TAKE THE FALL... BECAUSE THEN I'M SURE NO ONE WOULDN'T WANT TO FORGIVE YOU! or u can just stay the way u are.. and do nothing.. and like save abit of pride which is fucking worthless.. u can just fucking go hang yourself with all that pride for all i care.. because u don't deserve to live.. cause u are destroying the world.. you are making everyday a pain in the ass everytime u do something like that..

i'm sure there's a word in the dictionary dedicated to these class of people.. because i mean they're just everywhere aren't they? fucing immature spoilt brats who think their life's shit or like think they have the right to fucking mess with other people? Honestly? FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING SAD THOUGHTS AND IDEAOLOGIES (i know i've spelt this wrong but whatever... u get wat i'm going at)...

EVEN IF AFTER THIS? U CAN'T SEE IT? AND U STILL ARE THAT BLOODY BLIND? GOD.. seriously.. i'm not religious but i have to pray for all the unlucky people who have the DAMN misfortune of meeting you and letting you walk over them and shit because they're just really nice people.. i know alot of these people.. and they're awesome.. and u putting them down? really should be a crime.. and u should be shut up in a damn prison for life (just cause i dun like capital punishment)... no one has that right..

----------SAFE ZONE AFTER THIS!!!!!-------------

hah u've reached the safe zone :D (so damn sarcastic loool)

k i'm feeling better i think..
but really.. i can't stand it.. it's like being a filthy hypocrite or watever.. even so at least have the decency to say sorry...

like now i'm really sorry to everyone.. because of all the inappropriate words?
but u know.. i know i want to be a little bit selfish this time? and sorry for tat but i'm gonna freaking (nearly typed the F word again -.-) go ahead with it anyway.. because i'm so angry..

so think whatever u like.. i don't give a shit anymore...

I have no master...

hurhur that line came from Rogue AssAssin which was a serious pain in the Ass three times over ahhahaha... like can't take it.. the only interesting part was the twist.. but every thing else was just scripted in a thoroughly irritating fashion loool.. like stupid like mad.. the guy can shoot the other guy cause the other guy's sliding down a pipe like right there.. but no he shoots the window and jumps in? then after that reaches ground level before he starts shooting? HAHAHAH excuse my french but it's fucking ridiculous loool so on a scale of 10?
and because i'm bloody critical, 4.5/10 lol.. if u think about it, u could say i wouldn't pay 9.50 if i knew it was this shitty.. but u ppl have a chance to not watch it ahhaha and make the same mistake i did *nod*... i classify movies as good enough to watch (if u're paying).. if they eat into a 6/10.. so yeah i made a loss on this one.. (hurhur with qammie, lam-the-man and stefan-freally..) hahahah..

awesome.. now now now i wanna watch the Invasion, Premonition, and i wanna go for the French Film Fest wooo! and and No Reservations and Ratatouille is still showing so i wanna catch it if i can.. or just get ratatouille from jj or something *shrug*

work again tmr.. hurhur.. i hope i'm up to speed already.. and can work like damn efficiently.. and and and.. gotta sleep soon cause waking up early to meet chiam and eugene for breakfast.. like omg.. this is like the first period of time that i've like really wanted to eat breakfast? at a time appropriate for breakfast? like 6-10am? in between that slot.. *nod* awesome possummy stuff..

and after abit of thinking i've come to a conclusion too..

and and.. oh yah i wanna watch Shoot Em Up too.. hur and i swear i didn't know Monica Bellucci was italian... i was like really?! when stefan told me.. always thought she was french *nod*...

i'm kinda broke now hurhur.. after spamming it into "self-improvement" hahaha like the driving stuff.. and and.. yah actually only the driving stuff
bloody hell cost me like $400+- in total.. this one time only.. bloody shit.. so broke..
i've a grand total of $70 in my bank now.. that's so sad *nod*.. i haven't had the chance to do any saving >.< ... gotta wait another 7 to 10 days for allowance to come through.. then i'll be rich again (hehheehhe) and and.. then after that 2 weeks more and i'll have had my $500 pay wahahhahahah.. can go make contacts hurhur.. and like get a freaking make over.. like top to bottom.. go shave bald or something and get a tatoo on my head hahahhaha (attract unwanted attention and get beaten into a pulp lol) .. nah if i really get a tatoo it'll be on my back.. and it'll be of an angel.. and i'll have some latin text too hurhurhur.. damn cool.. body mutilation in an arty farty way lol...

i'mma thinking i wanna do a lot of self-improvements..

-I wanna be smarter ahhahah (wtf, so more library time? *shrug*)
-stronger *big nod* (maybe sign up with school gym.. but then again i've a gym in the club house in my home.. so dunno)
-more interesting? hahaha i dunno (get my first-aid course done.. and like complete my coaching cert.. then i can get maybe a job doing coaching with constant income.. maybe continue French a l'alliance francaise since i have my fridays free or just do it on a weekend? haha *shrug*, hmmm wat else..)

i need to find more self-enriching/improvement stuffs.. like last time before all the coaching course and whatever i had so many things.. french and all..

oh yes... i wanna pick up Ice hockey.. which is gonna cost.. alot alot.. skates alone are like into the $100? in USD of course.. so SGD is gonna be a pain.. and we haven't even got to the sticks, helmet, paddings and guards and stuff... and i wanna get floorball constant.. hopefully with this team i'm supposed to be training with... but not training yet.. cause i had a little scare with the ankle the other day..

sigh i'm an old man who's body is breaking down hahahahaha..

i wanna go to europe *nod*..
africa wouldn't be that bad either.. (did i spell africa wrong? cause like stupid spell check is giving me the dotted red line thing underneath.. or maybe just cause i didn't caps the starting letter.. i dunch believe my english is that bad... god even english has the line thing.. and spell check's meant for which language? ......... exactly)

steel tipped bullets,
and irritating flies...
funky boats,
with heads like dragons that sink.
pretty birds,
and a nice sunset which lasts no more than 5 minutes...

and 1...

ABOUT BLOODY TIME!
At LEAST NOW WE KNOW SOMETHING USEFUL!
Gosh..

hahhaha.. Thai Boxing, Productions, IFW, Chinese

okay okay okay.. so i'm here again to reaffirm my love for my work place hahah and though it's gonna be a long time before I can talk about what i've been working on (loool so top secret *glances left and right nervously*) ..
i really like the whole environment, and chiam's and my producer just makes everything more fun hahaha and light-hearted.. and like we feel the urge to automatically put in our hearts and souls into our work (which is quite tedious..) take it as a ratio.. our productivity on a good day? which would be maybe from 10am right up to 6pm? or like let's just put it as an 8 hour work day.. for every 8 hours, we're covering one quota of our work.. which IS DAMN TEDIOUS ahhahah like bloody u need 8 secs for every 1 sec kinda thing.. and 80 hours for every successful 10 hours.. >.<>.< .. i dun wanna be made an example of "What not to do" or like the guinea pig in the writing of a book titled "A Hundred and One Things NOT To Do When Being A Sound Recordist" or "The Dummies Guide To Sound Recording" or "A Thousand Embarrassing Sound Recording Moments" loooool... NOOOOO! i dun wanna be black marked
hahahaha...

kk wat else did i wanna talk about... hmmm life's been good, thanks to work.. nice people and all.. my punctuation and grammar is improving slightly thanks to work.. my typing skills too, and my deciphering of foreign accents people talk in.. lol.. YAY! all from work hurhur.. hmmmmmmmmmmm i can't be that no life.. lol.. oh yah.. i might take French again on fridays hurhur.. since it's a free day.. or i could just chill.. *lazeee sprawl across floor*

ahh well.. i'm really running outta things to say.. hmmmmmm i am that much of a no life hehe
*sings macdonalds tune* Badabadada, I'm Loving it! meoowwww!

sometimes you don't need to know things that you understand...
or even better, you don't need to bother... because people are right...

maybe you saw a vision from somewhere i'm too weak to seek...

wait for it =| wait for it! :) wait for it!!! :D

I LOVE MY JOB WAHAHAHHAHAHAH! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE x9999999999999999999999999999999........... my job :)

it's damn awesome! the people are damn awesome! it's like OH MY GOD! i'd willingly sell my soul to work there cause it's so awesome! INFINITE FRAMEWORKS ROCKS BABBYYYY!! WEEEE!!! :D :D :D :D

and classes are out.. i get fridays off again! HAHAHAH AWESOME STUFFSSSS hurhur.. so i guess the plan will be maybe push my IS stuff to hmm.. mayb afternoon or evening? i dunno.. cause i need to practise driving before the test comes.. not long now.. i'm figuring if i practise on monday and friday i'll do good.. and i'll skip school on actual test day hurhurhur... maybe ask my lecturers if i can do a make up lesson with another class u know? yeah

I LOVE MY JOB ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^o.o^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ look at all the happy faces staring at u hurhurhur...

damn fun! hehe! weeeeeeeee! sfeeeeeee! sfeeeeeeeee! sfeeeeeeeeee!!!! :D :D :D okay gotta sleep tmr got work loool.. next week is all day shift.. after that should be night shift already lol.. oh well.. hopefully movie this weekend mann hahah so many good stuff out ya know.. "The Premonition" and and "The Invasion" wooo! WATCH WATCH! heeeeeee!

loving life, living life.... (meowwwww!)


Here's a groovy beat for all you fellow groove monkeys (or kitties :D) like moi hurhur.. Enjoy!

"Letting the Cables Sleep Remix"

You in the dark
You in the pain
You on the run
Living a hell
Living your ghost
Living your end
Never seem to get in the place that I belong
Dont wanna lose the time
Lose the time to come

Whatever you say its alright
Whatever you do its all good
Whatever you say its alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

You in the sea
On a decline
Breaking the waves
Watching the lights go down
Letting the cables sleep

Whatever you say its alright
Whatever you do its all good
Whatever you say its alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
Well wrap the world around it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

Im a stranger in this town
Im a stranger in this town

If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way
Im a stranger in this town
Im a stranger in this town

silence is not the way..

10 stab wounds in quick succession to the chest..

ever had one of those dreams where u'd wake up thinking it was so real and so awesome that u'd like that to be real? and for the first 5 minutes you are awake you believe it is, but it all slowly crumbles in your mind and your sense of logic? yeah..

it's like it happens from a whole lot of wishful thinking, or hopeful thinking whatever your fancy.. and let me tell you, it's seriously fucking demoralising.. i'd rather suffer the pain of the 10 stabs, then to have to go through something like that.. it's something that could be counted as "Waking up on the wrong side of the bed"... because god i feel moody like a croc irritated by a 40 yr old australian dressed in those matching tight shorts and button shirt, and that insane running commentary as time after time they try to nail him and they can't and almost like taunting them he keeps going on and on indirectly about how he's faster than them (which isn't necessarily a bad thing) but the more demoralising thing for the crocs? not one of them could do .. wat one stingray did.. which sets them right smack below everything..

and it kinda feels like that... so freaking sad right? yeahhh.. like my god i don't believe i allowed my mind to even stray off into a dream like that.. WTF! too much wishful thinking -.- ..
okay no more wishful thinking for this kitty, because the consequences of going through it once is depressing, the next time i just might be suicidal >.< ..

i could draw u a graph of the happiness to sadness ratio as the dream goes on.. it's almost like that typical movie ya know? they have a build up, and then a climax, and suddenly a twist which is almost like an added climax or anti-climax.. yeah.. the dream starts out.. building up from happy to sad, and when i reached the highest point of happiness (in the most ridiculous way if i may add.. just the most unbelievable scenario seriously possible -.- HAH.. i think i now know why my mind chose that 1 character to be the important bit player in my mind hahahahaha rofl.. just cause of the one time he did something so silly loooool!) and yes back to my point... highest point of happiness which was the climax, and then i woke up and i was feeling great! to all i now, i was waking up to a wonderful day, with a wonderful plan and there was no chance there was gonna be any rain kinda thing, just bright sun shiny day all day.. and then it started to eat into my mind and it was my mind, the exact one that put that dream together (FOR FUCK?!!), that hammered away the idea.. and made me realise it was a completely false idea... almost a lost dream in a sense... which is in this case the anti-climax.. which is why i'm up earlier than usual, because i just don't wanna go back to sleep and have to go through that again... the odds of you waking up and going back straight to sleep and continuing the previous dream, is not a gamble i'm willing to take...

it's only called a nightmare, when u've woken up...

salut...

it's all about.. patience and mistakes..

u know.. everyday u're gonna face stuff that's gonna as they say test our patience.. and really for most of these things, if one's able to hold back for a second and think logically, without knowing, you've already increased you threshold of patience :D ahhaha.. (watever.. damn random ahah)

okay for example.. mistakes.. today i got SWAT 4.. but no it isn't in English it's in German! AHHAHAh i spent the 30 minutes deciphering and translating long lengthy dialogues in german just to understand i was suppose to get my fellas to toss a grenade into the next room... which turned out to be useless because there was no one in there in the first place -.- hahaha BUT! i'd like to think my threshold of patience has now increased and i'm a more patient person.. hurhur..

also i've learnt new things! :D
previously i only knew 3 words from the German language, namely
-Ja = Yes
-Nien = No
and my personal favorite
-Schiezer = Shit hahaha...

now, with the help of freetranslation.com, i know

Deckung, Einsetzen, Position ändern, nachrücken
which means
Change cover, use, position, move up (respectively hahaah) So cool right! and and and i've become quite pro at typing german words ahahha or more like copying them.. like

Ist ein Sichtfenster geöffnet, können Sie es vergröißern, um genauer sehen zu können. Solange das Sichtfenster vergrößert ist, können Sie die Maus bewegen, um den blickwinkel im beschränkten Rahmen zu verändern. Sie können auf Objekte zeigen, Kurzbefehle erteilen und das Befehlsmenü benutzen, ganz wie Sie es gewohnt sind. Mit dem Umschalter Feststelltaste kehren Sie zur normalen Ansicht zurück

this has been wat i've been staring at all day looool

German is truly as hard as it looks HAHhahaha...

oh oh i also know Schloss Knacken which means Crack Lock hurhur.. Sawwww damn smart now lol...

Manchmal müssen Sie nur verstehen, dass Dinge klappen den Weg den sie zu nicht angenommen wurden, und manchmal Sie müssen nur wann kennen, Dinge aufzugeben, weil es keine Erwiderung gibt... *sigh*

work starting tomorrow.. 2pm and soon it'll swing into the ghost hour shift from 9pm to 6am.. for the rest of my hols..

kitty sold 3 weeks of his freedom for $500... i'm gonna miss the days like today, when i unknowingly overslept and slept a total of 13 hours hurhurhur... *sniff* gone are those days :(

still haven't found you..

but with time :) *shuts eyes tight and makes a wish*




i see u, angel in my dream,
though i know not your name.

I close my eyes
And there in the shadows I see your light
You come to me out of my dreams across
The night

You take my hand
Though you may be so many stars away
I know that our spirits and souls are one

We've circled the moon and we've touched the sun

So here we'll stay
For always
Forever
Beyond here and on to eternity
For always
Forever
For us there's no time and no space

No barrier love won't erase

Wherever you go
I still know in my heart you'll be here

With me

From this day on (day on)
I'm certain that I'll never be alone

I know what my heart must have always known
(known what my heart must have known)


That love has a power that's all its own
And for always
Forever
Now we can fly
And for always
and always

We will go on (we will go on)
Beyond goodbye
For Always
Forever
Beyond here and on to eternity

For Always
And ever
You'll be a part (you'll be apart) of me

And for always
Forever
A thousand tomorrows may cross the sky
And for always
And always
We will go on (we will go on) beyond goodbye

stout-heart

this is just so me at the moment..
because "RIGHT NOW I CAN'T IGNORE IT!"

seriously? now? no...

okay.. i just watched Les Choristes which is a really really good french film.. and it's kinda increased my love for film.. and fueled my ambition to be a filmmaker (seriously fueled with one L looks weird to me hahahha i keep thinking it's 2 Ls)... not only that.. i love it so much because it's french..
think i might pick up french again next sem.. i might continue from where i left off.. from the november-december period.. yes school's gonna be tough.. 2nd semester of yr 2 is very heavy.. with 7 modules.. 2 heavy writing modules and 2 production modules.. but the way i see it.. i actually slack alot..

it's time to draw the line (in more than one circumstance)...

it's time i decided what i really want..
for better or for worse...

the little things really don't matter anymore..
and really i think i remember what was so important to me..

sleep's a day away..

i've decided not to sleep! AHhAHAHA... so here i am at 5am blogging *nod*...

gotta meet Lam at Khatib at 6.30am later.. cause we're doing a video for ngee ann's dragonboat people at lower seletar reservoir.. i got home at 3am... and by the time i was done showering it was 4.50am hahahaha so i reckoned i do kinda believe in the sleep cycle thing.. and that sleep stages thing.. which basically states sleep must be sustained for a certain amount of time for it to be useful which is about 4-6 hours..

so if i sleep for an hour... i'd be still in stage 1 of the sleep thingum and it would not have any good effect except make me feel like an utter bag of walking shit... (my the things that come out from my mouth these days...)

lol just now while having dinner with chin hwee (who's 19 today! :D), his girlfriend, chiam, jerry, lam and yan at khatib (so qiao right?).. we were talking about something and i got so worked up i yelled a string of curse and swearwords out and immediately grabbed hold of my mouth hahahahhahaha.. like i was shocked i actually said em! like it was a reflex action whahahahah.. bloody hell... worst of all, there were alot of people around >.<>.<>.< .. I bet i'll have zits popping out like nobody's business on monday hahah but it's good.. cause i'll be able to change my sleeping pattern back to a normal singaporean sleep time ahhha and not 5am every morning >.<.. i think i'm falling ill.. i can feel the throat like making a wee bit of a fuss at the mo' ... tskkkk 30 hours without sleep isn't gonna be to awesome *sigh*... it's like that 20hour non-stop production shoot i had last sem.. with qammie, pea and jo *nod*... the one where i said action and fell asleep in 5 secs therefore nt being able to shout cut hahaha.. omg omg omgggg it's only 5.20 >.<
maybe i'll play a game of nhl which will take up 3o mins no questions asked haha... then i can leave the house already..

yeaaaap i reckon i will...

to al the people already having fun in la la land without me :( *sob*...
have an awesome one!

wait...

*sigh*

really really really really really really don't know what to think...

time after time :)

*loves* Quietdrive is really quite awesome hur! :D



Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new

Then you say
Go slow
I fall behind
The second hand
Unwinds

If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time


Sometimes
You picture me
I’m walking
Too far ahead
You’re calling
To me
I can’t hear
Just what you’ve said

Then you say
Go slow
I fall behind
The second hand
Unwinds

If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time

After
My picture fades
And darkness
Has turned to grey
Watching
Through windows
You’re wondering
If I’m okay

Then you say
Go slow
I fall behind
The drum beats
Out of time

If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
If you’re lost
You can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall
I will catch you
I’ll be waiting
I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

THIS IS BLOODY AWESOME!

Quietdrive - rise from the ashes



I felt this way before
I fell right through the floor
And I am certain I've become
Broken, bruised, and numb
Would you restate your opinion
And hold back your investigation
Do you see the sins you're making
Cause I've made them all before

I will now rise from the ashes
Don't call me pretentious
I'm sitting here making my own rules
And if I fall from the ceiling
You'll be down there waiting
And my only hope
Is falling down

And by my own admission
You'll find that my condition
Is worse than you imagined
You're better off if you know
But every time before that I
Tried to measure pain inside
You can't ignore it
Right now I can't ignore it

I will now rise from the ashes
Don't call me pretentious
I'm sitting here making my own rules
And if I fall from the ceiling
You'll be down there waiting
To finish me

Inside of me (x7)
I'll take my heart
And rip my feelings out
Before they make me doubt
And I'll fall down with flames burning
Alive again
As long as you know that

I will now rise from the ashes
Don't call me pretentious
I'm sitting here making my own rules
And if I fall from the ceiling
You'll be down there waiting
To finish me
Finish me

I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF THIS SONG!! WEEEEEE!

i got this one from NHL 2007 (that new ice hockey game i have hehe) it's on the soundtrack of the game.. seriously EA sports is getting better and better at picking good music lol.. so many other songs luhhhh hahah I ISH WANTS WHAHAAHHA

hur they sound kinda like fall out boy hmmm


dunno why in the video so soft.. oh well

ENJOY! :D

GUESS WHAT?! :D :D :D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I'm SO HAPPY NOW! HURHURHUR
like bloody Hell Ngee Ann always unreliable.. say 9am onwards.. 8.15 send me the sms
WHAHAHAHHAH
i BOUNCED OUT OF BED LIKE U WOULDN't KNow u gotta see to believe hhahahahaha
and and and the sms read that! SO HAPPY! *DANCE DANCE, Shake booty*

okay if i look at it from a really critical point of view... i'm disappointed :(
cause i was aiming for 3.8 at least to pull my average GPA up to 3.5 and above *nod nod*

so right now my overall GPA is somewhere around 3.3 agar agar... HEEYER! look at it like that depressing right? hahahahahha

next sem must work harder than ever.. alot of modules.. i think for the sake of it i'm taking french as one of my IS mods *nod* just to make sure i dun have to study too much ahahha cause it's only Basic french hehe ^^ i trust l'alliance francaise taught me well ahhaa

omg super hyper now.. and dunno why my left elbow hurts like mad.. like i pull something damn irritating.. or maybe i slept on it.. U KNOW I ONLY SLEPT FOR 3 hours??! maybe less?! i slept at around 5am aagain CAN'T SLEEP
freaking too much on my mind >.<

okay let's name the modules next sem just cause i'm hyper hehe

so the 2 IS modules that need to be chosen by moi

-French
-(Something else that i haven't decided)
-Scriptwriting (alot of writing >.<)
-Production Planning (MORE WRITING... PAPERWORK MY GOD)
-Computer Graphics (hurr i'm no good at photoshop)
-Drama Production (ooooooo)
-Non-Fiction Production (kinda like documentary production *nod nod*)

2 PRODUCTION MODULES LEH?! CAN DIEEEEEE!!!!!! expect my coursemates and I to have completely no time.. and sleeping later than ever
i think i'll look like i'm 30 by the time the next sem ends seriouslyyy.. ppl keep thinking i'm damn old.. all the new white hairs coming is almost like already booked a plane ticket most likely coming
i dunno why but ppl say i'm 21 and up.. like so sad :( when i become 21 i'll look 25.. then 25 look 30
aging five years in advance -.- *hate*

(i dunno wat i'm talking about anymore i'm so tired.. )
hurr think i'll go sleep than like ask around for other grades later hehe

*Music plays*
"Bonjour! Ca Va?"
'Oui oui! Tres Bien! :D Et Toi?'
"Moi aussi! Tres Bien!"
*sings together*
"C'est t'une belle jour! sfeee! sfeeeeeeee!"

HAAHHAHAHAHAHHA!!!

this guy's damn good! HAHAHAAHA has me in stitches man ROFL...

watch em' if u figure u need a laugh or two ahahhahaha










hehe enjoy people! :D

hehehehe!

hahahahah this is so funny lol.. i wanna learn how to play *nod nod* must find the chords hahaha..

and and and today's an AWESOME DAY! :D WHY WHY?!
i got a laptop bag *nod* (one of those backpack thingums) :D

anndddddddddddddddddddd the highlight of the day! MY 22" MONITOR WHAHAHAHHAHHAHA MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA *continues laughing so hard he dies due to lack of air* here's one of those picture thingums hehe

LCD panel type 1680 x 1050 pixels , Anti-glare polarizer , RGB vertical stripe
Panel Size 22" / 55.9 cm
Effective viewing area 474 x 296 mm
Pixel pitch 0.282 x 0.282 mm
Brightness 300 cd/m²
Contrast ratio (typical) 1000:1
Display colors 16.7 M
Viewing angle 160º (H) / 160º (V) , @ C/R > 10
Response time (typical) 5 ms
White Chromaticity, 6500K x = 0.313 / y = 0.329
White Chromaticity, 9300K x = 0.283 / y = 0.297
Maximum Resolution 1680 x 1050 @ 60Hz
Recommended Resolution 1680 x 1050 @ 60Hz
Video Dot Rate 205 MHz
Horizontal Scanning Frequency 30 - 93 kHz
Vertical Scanning Frequency 56 - 76 Hz
Aspect ratio 16:10

sfeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D

played soccer and pulled the ligament again :(
kinda hurts now *limps around*

tmr RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!! :D YAY!

go figure....

now before u make fun of her as a psycho like most people did... why don't u think about why she became what she is (kinda like an emotional wreck)...

true she entered a singing competition and she can't sing...

no blame on the judges either because they're just doing their job... and they have the right to go drinking and watever because that's their thing..

i think if u really look close at it, u gotta blame her friends.. she's probably always getting suanned and stuff about being tone deaf and all that really it's gotten to a point where she can't take it anymore.. i mean abit of "suan-ing" is alright.. i mean that's part and parcel of daily conversation and it's fun a little.. but when it goes way out of line, is when it gets dangerous doncha think?

cause oh yeah u're suan-ing and suan-ing and u're having fun.. but u don't realise wat it means to that person u know? like her confidence just takes a hammering time and time again until really there's nothing left... they get depressed, they're left with emotional scars...

it's the same way if you brutally hit a dog, that dog's gonna have a grudge against you..

it's the same as the wars we see today because neither side will accommodate, neither side is willing to give in just a little bit and think straight for awhile..

sooner or later if this person's got it in em, she could go mad enough to go on a killing spree... and only then when u're a nose away from the gun she's pointing at you... will u feel u've gone overboard.. because most people are just to blind to see it...

this sarah goldberg lady to me, is living proof of how society can fuck a person up so bad sometimes...

and i find it sad.. because sometimes u need someone like connie (below) to sing a song that'll touch your heart... and the way she sings it.. the words she sing.. though she may not know the meaning behind... it means so much doncha think?

people keep going on about.. "Oh there's so much killing in the world..." well killing don't just happen one fine day.. something's gotta trigger it *nod*

blue birds and lemon drops

this is why i love kids... cheerful and innocent...

la ti da

(okay self-exploration cominggggg)

hmm sometimes some things just seem unexplainable... and that they don't need an explanation to begin with... because the things are already sorta give us an idea of why in themselves.. and if the things don't, most likely the few other things that came before 'em ... *nod nod*

so yea... unexplainable...
in fact it doesn't feel that weird at all O.O .. kinda weird hurhur.. feels like they didn't have any effect at all luhhh.. ah well
je ne sais pas..

nhl07 rocks my sock ten times over.. seriously
i want my freaking monitor so i dun have to put up with my bro's comp >.<
hopefully this thursday hurhur..

it's 4am.. in 4 hours i have to wakey to go to school and play soccer with jj and all...
and then we'll go out looking for the secret thing for the secret event later at night...
then we'll chill out till it's time..
then we'll all go to geylang to eat durian hurhruhrurhu DURIAN WEeee!

hmmm i'mma thinking i feel like making jam tarts hurhurhurhur.. Pate Brisee!

and i can't wait for sch to start >.< though i know when it does i can't wait for it to end...

mum's nagging again >.<.. bout the same old same old stuffings...

i discovered something creepy about my brother >.< and maybe a little worrying

i can't wait for results this saturday hurhurhur the first thing i hear on saturday will be my phone ringing saying i've received an sms with my results.. it will wake me up.. and it'll be the first thing i see.. so if i do well i'll have an awesome possum day :D if i didn't do that well.. hmmmmm we'll see..

i'm worried bout my results >.<

i'm worried bout other stuff >.< like the future...
(and ahahhahahaa... my children and whether i'll raise them right i know weird thoughts lah but wat the heck *shrug*)

i'm worried bout mum

i'm worried bout sis

i'm worried bout the future

i realise i worry alot..
i should go see that docter again .. the one who asked if i'm an anxious person.. and at that time i didn't think so .. so i said no... but now i wanna change my answer loool
(maybe ask for medication)

they say artificial food colourings and junk food can make someone really grumpy and hyperactive kinda thing... it's bad for the body *nod* Jamie Oliver must be so happy some students in a Uni did the study and proved the link between the shit that goes into kid's mouths and how grumpy they get... imagine if everyday u ate good stuff.. :D good happy stuff like... like
hmm
Salmon! :D right?
or like good food... other than like packet chicken rice and duck rice.. i'm beginning to feel sick whenever i eat these things.. cause the rice is damn oily.. like makes me lethargic >.<
good drinks! :D dun forget good drinks ahhaha
Soya Bean (no lactose for smiley lady :P saw i remember okay!)
hmmm orange juice with lotsa lotsa pulp *loves*
what will it be like to live with such a healthy diet hmm? so cool right?

i figure psychologically u'd already feel really happy with urself :) cause u know u're eating good stuff for ur body and that it'll do good.. and u like the stuff :D
unlike vegetables :X ahahha... I HATE VEGETABLES!

fruits are good too... *nod nod*

maybe i should have gone to a cooking school lol...
i'm counting the days till i'll be able to eat good stuff everyday *nod*
with everything messy like it is now it's nearly impossible.. and it's kinda depressing...
okay i'm gonna say it
i'm beginning to not like living in my house because
IT'S DEPRESSING
it's sad.. everytime i step in i dun feel like doing anything.. it's stained *turns away in disgust*
so very saddening indeed... sigh wat i wouldn't give... *imagines if he had gone to aussie after 'O's* now that'll be awesome hurhurhur....

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........

okay i've decided i'm gonna start changing *nod*
to change the inside! u gotta change the outside *nod*
and slowly u'll become who the outside one is *nod nod*

there, set, determined, good night, late, late tomorrow, happy birthday, durians, cake cake cake, durains, decided *nod*

>.<

well wat do ya know bout that... look at the time!

now this is a fine example of the times u really seriously desperately absolutely would kill for some sleep but can't get any... so yes.. >.<

!@#$%^&*.*&^%$#@

chubb chubb hhahaha sfee sfee!

sigh

and sometimes i wonder why i stay up so late,
when really i'd be better off asleep,
rather than staying up to wait...

hehehe!

i wanna watch ratatouille! :(

(and and and and that funny one with "McLovin!" )

pecan pie!! WOOOOOO!

so today was pecan pie day..
i tell u.. making pie is so time consuming loool most of the time u're waiting rather than doing any cooking...
but the end product came out alright
it was quite tasty hurhur :P
though the outer crust was a little over baked... the rest of it was alright... weeeeee! PECAN PIE!




enchantez *faints*

lifehouse's cover competition..

lol seriously.. i was browsing through the tons of video entries for it (and i'm wondering why shouldn't i try and get nigel and stefan together and try and put one in ourselves =P haha)

and i came across this character.. darn it u gotta admit the kid's good ...



:D enjoy! gettin late should go sleep...

wat's the world coming to luh?

most of u would know when i get older, i want a whole load of kids, and pets.. (my explanation is cause i've got so much love to give i figured ahahhah =P)
so when i saw this, it looked comical, yet abit brutal lol.. like crossed out with a red marker :(



lol i had to edit this.. cause i'm using my loser old phone which has a loser camera that no matter how still my hand will take blurry images, it should have come with tripod -.- ... and image like shite also.. pixelated like mad.. but why am i complaining when i can be celebrating hurhurhurhur



hahahah YEAH BABY! 2GB RAM WOOOO! bought 2 corsair 1gb sticks for $56 each at IT fair.. seemed worth it hahaah.. computer hasn't been slow hurhurhur

and i got myself a new toothbrush hahahah cause my old one went over the 6months advisable lifespan and had begun to hurt my gums... i got one of those new tongue cleaner ones ahhahahah for $6+ the tongue cleaner feels like velcro lah -.- ...
"...for a whole mouth clean" *smiles broadly and unnaturally* :D hahahah

so yes i should be happy :) and complain less haha...

such great heights...

u prefer the acoustic one i have =/ this one's a little too upbeat for my liking

lol it's got abit of muse like beats in it i thinkin

music to the ears

this is seriously quite awesome.. the vocals could have been better.. but the fusion between the violin and guitar is kinda tangy and tasty.. reminds me of The Corrs a little.. this is a cover version of the actual song by The Postal Service.. it's one of the songs on the "Garden State" soundtrack... awesome possum man



i'm learning how to play the song on the guitar me own way.. cause all the tabs on the web are a lil inaccurate.. like too low.. i think i've roughly figured it out.. but kinda tough to play especially with toufu fingers like mine... i've already stopped playing for 30 mins but can still see the marks on my fingers loool.. I WANT MY ACOUSTIC GUITAR!... i'll try to find the original version and post it up too *nod*

and seriously.. some ppl take things too seriously.. like my god *shakes head*