la ti da

(okay self-exploration cominggggg)

hmm sometimes some things just seem unexplainable... and that they don't need an explanation to begin with... because the things are already sorta give us an idea of why in themselves.. and if the things don't, most likely the few other things that came before 'em ... *nod nod*

so yea... unexplainable...
in fact it doesn't feel that weird at all O.O .. kinda weird hurhur.. feels like they didn't have any effect at all luhhh.. ah well
je ne sais pas..

nhl07 rocks my sock ten times over.. seriously
i want my freaking monitor so i dun have to put up with my bro's comp >.<
hopefully this thursday hurhur..

it's 4am.. in 4 hours i have to wakey to go to school and play soccer with jj and all...
and then we'll go out looking for the secret thing for the secret event later at night...
then we'll chill out till it's time..
then we'll all go to geylang to eat durian hurhruhrurhu DURIAN WEeee!

hmmm i'mma thinking i feel like making jam tarts hurhurhurhur.. Pate Brisee!

and i can't wait for sch to start >.< though i know when it does i can't wait for it to end...

mum's nagging again >.<.. bout the same old same old stuffings...

i discovered something creepy about my brother >.< and maybe a little worrying

i can't wait for results this saturday hurhurhur the first thing i hear on saturday will be my phone ringing saying i've received an sms with my results.. it will wake me up.. and it'll be the first thing i see.. so if i do well i'll have an awesome possum day :D if i didn't do that well.. hmmmmm we'll see..

i'm worried bout my results >.<

i'm worried bout other stuff >.< like the future...
(and ahahhahahaa... my children and whether i'll raise them right i know weird thoughts lah but wat the heck *shrug*)

i'm worried bout mum

i'm worried bout sis

i'm worried bout the future

i realise i worry alot..
i should go see that docter again .. the one who asked if i'm an anxious person.. and at that time i didn't think so .. so i said no... but now i wanna change my answer loool
(maybe ask for medication)

they say artificial food colourings and junk food can make someone really grumpy and hyperactive kinda thing... it's bad for the body *nod* Jamie Oliver must be so happy some students in a Uni did the study and proved the link between the shit that goes into kid's mouths and how grumpy they get... imagine if everyday u ate good stuff.. :D good happy stuff like... like
hmm
Salmon! :D right?
or like good food... other than like packet chicken rice and duck rice.. i'm beginning to feel sick whenever i eat these things.. cause the rice is damn oily.. like makes me lethargic >.<
good drinks! :D dun forget good drinks ahhaha
Soya Bean (no lactose for smiley lady :P saw i remember okay!)
hmmm orange juice with lotsa lotsa pulp *loves*
what will it be like to live with such a healthy diet hmm? so cool right?

i figure psychologically u'd already feel really happy with urself :) cause u know u're eating good stuff for ur body and that it'll do good.. and u like the stuff :D
unlike vegetables :X ahahha... I HATE VEGETABLES!

fruits are good too... *nod nod*

maybe i should have gone to a cooking school lol...
i'm counting the days till i'll be able to eat good stuff everyday *nod*
with everything messy like it is now it's nearly impossible.. and it's kinda depressing...
okay i'm gonna say it
i'm beginning to not like living in my house because
IT'S DEPRESSING
it's sad.. everytime i step in i dun feel like doing anything.. it's stained *turns away in disgust*
so very saddening indeed... sigh wat i wouldn't give... *imagines if he had gone to aussie after 'O's* now that'll be awesome hurhurhur....

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........

okay i've decided i'm gonna start changing *nod*
to change the inside! u gotta change the outside *nod*
and slowly u'll become who the outside one is *nod nod*

there, set, determined, good night, late, late tomorrow, happy birthday, durians, cake cake cake, durains, decided *nod*