shatter...

sometimes all you need is a couple of words
too shatter your hopes and dreams...
sometimes the world seems too big
for someone so insignificant...
sometimes you feel like escaping unnoticed into the dark storm
because no one's there to here you scream but the thunder and lightning...
sometimes words just dont explain enough
and it leaves me stranded in my regret... marooned on a island i made myself...
sometimes paradise just doesnt seem near enough
not for me no not right now.. paradise seems but a figment of my imagination...
sometimes the air feels so thin and dry
before i realise its actually because im crying...
sometimes, sometimes feels like every time
and when this happens... life's no longer a journey to travel... its a nightmare.. that i cant wake up from...
locked out....

no sleep, no dreams

you'd think having even the teensiest of "shots" would help with sleep... but apparently i came out of the human factory with a tiny defect... slept no more than 3 hours tops today... pretty crazy stuff considering i was trying from 5am all the way to 2pm... tossing and turning... just one of those things...

didnt go to coaching course today... thanks to the rain...
so it rains so heavily mr.bus no.14 driver couldnt drive at his usual pace...
it rains so heavily dx and me got soaked while crossing the road from the bus stop to dhoby ghaut mrt...
it rains so heavily mrt uncle has to slow down pace (Sign Reads "Caution:Raining
1. Reduce speed in CM (watever that is)
2. Enter stations at no more than 40km/h)
and the new speed limits cause my train uncle to stop for about a minute halfway from Somerset going to Orchard... ( i know only 1 minute... but its the accumulative factor that im going for haha...)
it rains so heavily im frozen stiff on the mrt... (dx probably worst off... haha.. longer train ride mmhmmm mmhmmmm)
by the time im safely in my mum's car on the way home to grab my stuff its 6.45pm...
on the CTE home we look at the massive jam on the CTE towards PIE... (that i'll eventually have to travel on to go to buena vista..)
and i reach home trying to get through to the cab companies to book a cab... but it seems many other people were doing the exact same thing at the same time... so even if i had got through.. i'd probably be hearing... "Cablink is finding a cab for you... please do not hang up..."
mmhmmmm so didnt go coaching course today...

i feel a fever coming on... the lack of sleep from last night and freezing in the mrt has definitely done something... my feet are freezing but my head is sizzling... oh boy....

anyone ever gone to RP before? RP has got a amazingly beautiful campus... every step i took deeper into the campus made my jaw set new limits of "how low can u go..." really really nice place... and the aircon in the hall was freezing!!! didnt even break a sweat while playing... but couldnt breathe after 15 minutes... drying it is....

so sad no marshmellows at the bbq :( ... one of the only things i look out for @ any bbq.. roasted marshmellows... and *ahem* somebody didnt cook the chicken wings properly! im having a stomach ache thank you very much...

probably might turn in early tonight... yep yep...

singing, dancing and dreaming in the rain....

this french fool's looking up...

today... without a doubt has been one of my more interesting days for many months now.. i went from guy locked in a boring life... to guy with a not-so boring life... (ive not reached a "happening" life yet haha...)

i thought up a guitar intro to what may be the first song ive ever written... haha... theres still loads of room for improvement.. im playing around with the strings and stuff... trying to make the sound more... hmmm "distinctive" haha... legin thinks it sounds "hoobastanky" and i think thats good cause im aiming at that kinda music :D...but thats only the intro.. the harder part will be thinking up the lyrics and body of the song... (but i cant wait to get started...) with erez's help.. ill have it done in no time.. (though the clock is ticking... -idontthinkitsthebombanymore...thetimebombwasadudintheend...- oh well.. i think too much...

and mr.wee from Skools Floorball called me up saying they'll let me be in the Pesta Sukan Cup team... =D ... so i wont get many chances to play.. but its a start... and theres a friendly match against Republic Poly tomorrow (more like later today at 6.30pm) ... coool stuff... finally making my move to the top flight in floorball weeeee....

and coaching course today... haha... the lecturer is really funny... makes learning enjoyable yep..(i mean if he/she were monotonous and talking about all em' different muscles and cartilages and problems with people id definitely fall asleep..)
but none the less interesting stuff im learning about... its pretty freaky how they put it.. it seems like u'd be lucky (well u should consider urself that way either way...) to not have anything wrong with you... like not flat-footed or high-arched.. and all the many other different things that gives us the ability to be competitive in our respective sports and stuff that we take for granted... i think the only problem with the course is the fact that its so far away!!!! its at Buona Vista... so far!!!! ill definitely only reach home every monday, wednesday and friday after midnight... =\ ... crazy stuff... but i dont have to worry too much about mugging over it coz the best part of it.. the test is a open book test! :D haha... and all this while i thought i'd fail the test cause of all the things ive to learn... (another comforting fact is that no one's ever failed the test...) -watifimthefirst?- O.O id go down in the course's history as the first failure that attended all the lessons and paid attention but froze during the test... -overthinking-

its gonna be busy busy busy.. and im not going to visit my sister in australia anymores cause its gonna get way to busy to take that sorta break now.... mmhmmm...

so many things too look forward too.. class bbq at nigel's place after the friendly game later today... super far away!! woodlands mrt to kembangan mrt!! and im staying over O.O my bag's gonna be ubber heavy... so if u see some guy with hair thats too short for his liking with a oversized bag on the mrt passing through town... thats me ... haha.. i hate my hair cut... but on the bright side..... erm... it'll grow back? haha... shouldnt have let my mum talk me into going for a hair cut =/ zzZzz...
and found my evanescence Fallen album hiding behind my bed :D and all this while i thought i lent it to someone and forgot who it was...

hmm im trying to think of other happy thoughts ... but cant think of any more haha...
oh yes! tw! when r we gonna do our next recording!!!
and theres french this thursday which is always fun stuff... (though the oral test is one of the things i never want to remember... i froze like : ... and completely forgot the passe compose thingy can... and needed my french tution teacher to point my mistakes out on the main paper also... (haha... even help me blanko away all my messiness... really really merci beaucoup...) im gonna study hard hard hard so that i wont make a fool of myself again... (iTunes decided now's a good time to play Aerosmith's "Dream On" hahahhaa... im serious! dx! u r a bad influence on my laptop.. haha..) i can almost here you say ur fav taglines... "Let's Face The Facts Here.." or "Why Thank You" .... u cow... haha

yep im getting long-winded again.. haha ...
(good stuff doesnt happen everyday... so bear with me and let me dance in the sunlight for awhile)

"if only i knew the right words to say.."

pointing in the direction...

*Now Playing Relient K - Over Thinking (acoustic)*

I was thinking, over thinking
Cause theres just too many scenarios
To analyze, look in my eyes
Cause your my dream please come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About exactly how i'm not exactly him
I'll break my heart in two
Much worst than you could ever do
Cause your my dream please come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

I can't deny this any more
The facts ignored all done before
And if theres one in this world
You let me know you're not that girl

I was sinking, lower sinking
Cause i lost the things i held on to
They let me think a thought
A thought that i would know was not
Of seeing my dream come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About how i could let you know
There's nothing left to say
I know now you're just in the way
Of me and my dream come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind
I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip

I can't ignore this any more
The facts ignored all done before
And if theres one in this world
You let me know you're not that girl

Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
Cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
And while i'm able i think i'll label
Experience with you as a mistake
And while im at it, i'll say ive had it
Experience with you as a mistake

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip

------------------------------------------

i felt i didnt give the song and its meaning justice...

if i just could have one day without over thinking...
im thinkin of a poem i wrote couple of months back... about this irritating human mind...
my own prison...

i am sinking lower sinking...............

It's the E.S.F.!!!

the guy with the irritating msn nick has changed it to a slightly depressing "........"
poor kid... never saw it coming...
well i decided to spice up my blog.. by playing the top emo songs on my blog cause its the...
Emo Song Fest! weee...
first up is

*SteelHeart's - She's Gone*

not for the faint-hearted....

dont pinch me when i dream...

*Now Playing Relient K - Over Thinking (acoustic)*

I was thinking, over thinking
Cause theres just too many scenarios
To analyze, look in my eyes
Cause your my dream please come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About exactly how i'm not exactly him
I'll break my heart in two
Much worst than you could ever do
Cause your my dream please come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

I can't deny this any more
The facts ignored all done before
And if theres one in this world
You let me know you're not that girl

I was sinking, lower sinking
Cause i lost the things i held on to
They let me think a thought
A thought that i would know was not
Of seeing my dream come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About how i could letknow
There's nothing left to say
I know now you're just in the way
Of me and my dream come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind
I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip

I can't ignore this any more
The facts ignored all done before
And if theres one in this world
You let me know you're not that girl

Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
Cause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the dark
And while i'm able i think i'll label
Experience with you as a mistake
And while im at it, i'll say ive had it
Experience with you as a mistake

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip

-----------------------------------------

i was thinking, over thinking
that i toss and turn in my bed for hours
before i begin sleeping and dreaming

i just remembered something a good friend of mine, Ifan, told me haha...
i asked him what he dreams of at night and he goes
"NO DREAM CAUSE NO SLEEP!!!!"
haha.... hilarious but true all the same...

i had a weird and abstract dream last night
as usual the usual stars are in it... but this time there was a special guest star... and the details i saw in this dream was just... O.O ... like that i still couldnt believe my mind had gone to that extent to design this one..

so some of the important plot points...
one of the stars was smoking (something i absolutely hate... ) and its a wee bit worrying cause this person happens to be a main character and the story technically wouldnt be wat it is without her... so ive no idea yet wat this symbolises.. im prolly gonna go "overthink" again tonight...

next the choice of special guest star...
he's a really good friend... he was in my class for a year i think before he went private in sec 4... dont keep in contact anymore cause i lost his number (haha sorry..) he's one of those protective guys yeah? gets into fights
and one of the memorable ones was the one where he fought with this guy called Gabriel (another interesting character..) in class.. i dont recall what for... but i recall the fact i nearly got knocked out haha... so me and a couple other guys are holding gabriel back... and this other huge guy, prithip, was holding benedict(the special guest star) so yeah we thought prithip could handle him but he managed to wiggle out of his grip and in the blink of an eye *blinks* he had a chair in his hand lifted high up in the air and on a collision course with gabriel, and the other guys and me.. its one of those things where everything slows down and u just give up hope of coming out of the situation alive haha... and too our surprise (more relief then anything else haha...) prithip made a stunning recovery and grabbed the chair just in the nick of time preventing what would have been a "great tragedy" haha...
yah but back to the guest star.. he gets into a fight... and all ( i see a chair with one of its legs broken off...-its a symbol that a fight took place.. to me at least another story for another time haha...- ) and so ive no idea why but we are divided into pairs.. and me being me is paired with benedict to calm him down and stuff... and then this line is all i could remember from his mouth "it's all your fault isnt it?" and i wake up "overthinking"

"cause you're my dream please come true"

lower than low.....

theres this one name on my msn that makes me crazy...
everytime i see this name i just want to go
"NO IT BLOODY ISNT ALREADY!!"
and because of his poor connection he signs in and out constantly and msn announces his arrival each time...

i asked a pretty interesting question to tw just now... and he answered really well...


=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
can i ask u a question?
tw /// fight on says:
yea?
tw /// fight on says:
whats up
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
not to be rude k? but... wat is god's purpose?
tw /// fight on says:
he created us
tw /// fight on says:
purpose?
tw /// fight on says:
for us to grow close to him
tw /// fight on says:
to learn how to build our character for the kingdom of heaven in the future
tw /// fight on says:
you see? God is GOD
tw /// fight on says:
means nth is impossible
tw /// fight on says:
he can do as he will
tw /// fight on says:
but he wants to build our character
tw /// fight on says:
thats what trials are for
tw /// fight on says:
thats what problems are for
tw /// fight on says:
the bible says God IS love
tw /// fight on says:
not God has love. GOD IS LOVE
tw /// fight on says:
so
tw /// fight on says:
his purpose is to groom us
tw /// fight on says:
for the future that a perfect world of good
tw /// fight on says:
in the future
tw /// fight on says:
just imagine
tw /// fight on says:
he sent his son to die for us
tw /// fight on says:
to create the image and impression of love
tw /// fight on says:
its love that is powerful
tw /// fight on says:
thats him
tw /// fight on says:
father in heaven
tw /// fight on says:
perfect world
tw /// fight on says:
you might have heard this
tw /// fight on says:
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son. that who soever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life

if u can find anyone that can answer better than that tell me....
thx again tw...

lets see how random ive been today...


Lagenda says:
focusing my energy and anger on my slap shot?
Lagenda says:
haha
Lagenda says:
i nearly knock down the high tower fan
Lagenda says:
those solid based fan
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
i find the easiest way to express one's anger is to ......*graphic content*....
Lagenda says:
haha wat is tat?
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
u r hardcore
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
i cant say.. msn sensors it everytime i try
Lagenda says:
fuck u (excuse his french...)
Lagenda says:
haha



Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
i might even have 450 left after i buy my bass
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
HUR HUR HUR
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
rofl..
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
4
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
5
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
0
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
yes
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
i
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
know
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
the magic numbersssssssssss
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
wat u want me to do? get on my knees and beg? nah.. im gonna try to earn the $450... but not right now...
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
hurrr
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
i thought you apply singing
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
sing some hokkien songs!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
of course no reply...
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
just as always
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
GETAI!!!!!!
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
come
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
we organise our own getai
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
this year lucky
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
the season not so fast over
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
LAI!!!!!!!!
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
haa...
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
lai!!!!
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
!!!!
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
!!!!
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
aiya
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
your monthly allowance how much
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
everyday chiong pancakes
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
hahahaha save $$$
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
haha...
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
come to think of it
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
it is more filling
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
and has more energy
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
hahaha
Dexian Says: NAIM IS GOD says:
wtf was i thinking
=]maosi[= omg... wat am i trying to do?? "no it isnt already!" says:
450 chocolate pancakes..



=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
hey tomorrow wanna do something?
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
i need to buy guitar strings again...
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
my 4th string for no apparent reason snapped over night
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
ahahaha
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
i cant la
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
got church
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
hurrrr.. why is everyone so religious nowadays?! what has the world become?!
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
religious...
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
mmmm
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
AHAHA
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
no
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
i go everyweek
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
not religious
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
a rountine
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
haha... its a RR... religious routine
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
yes
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
haha...
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
k
=]maosi[= omg... wat isit u r trying to do? says:
k
Queen Of My Silent Suffocation, PEA I Want You. says:
ahahahaha

emotion...

came back late from training.. really really tired... read a couple of stuff and then watched the movie "Blow" starring Johnny Depp... definitely another good film... it opened the flood gates yep... and i wana share one phrase that i think means alot...

"May the wind always be at your back.
And the sun always upon your face.
And the winds of destiny to carry you aloft,
to Dance with the Stars...."

imagine the look on a man's face... a defeated one... one that tells you he knows whats going to happen in a minute... and how his life has just vaporised into thin air... how he will never have the chance to see his daughter again.. how the last thing he did with her was make a promise.. and he never had the chance to fulfill that promise because he got arrested doing something to get money for the promise... the look on his face when he realises he's dreaming that his daughter came to visit him in prison...

im getting longwinded again...

give me the chance... and i'll take it...

-i climb-

*Now Playing Thousand Foot Krutch - I Climb*

its gonna get busy... training with skools later @ night... coaching course starting next week.. might find a job soon with erez... floorball suddenly seems so much more attractive again...

the right words

If i knew the right words to say
i wouldnt hide from the sun
in this stack of hay
oh make me disappear i pray...

if i knew the right words to say
i wouldnt be who i am
a person so shy
oh make me disappear i pray

if i knew the right words to say
a life full of happiness would be mine
and i'd say them everyday
everyday for the rest of my life if i may

if i knew the right words to say
when your world comes crashing down
id make it seem alright like a sunset bay
the bad stuff in the world would all go away

if i knew the right words to say
there'd always be a tomorrow
and i'd spend my days
sitting out in the orange sky
with you on this stack of hay

the one movie

the one movie i hate,
is the one movie i cant escape.
it's one never-ending story,
of many many sorries.
there's gotta be something,
hidden between every line.
something in every song to sing,
every line's a sign.
hopefully the fiddler on my roof,
in time will show me something that isn't a ruse.
something that wont disappear in a "poof!"
something i can call my fuse.
and it will stop the melancholic singing,
dragging the clouds away so it won't ever block my sun.
it'd be a time for dancing,
it'd be something i'll remember as fun.
and the one movie bound to fate,
wont be something i hate.

going back to sweet 16

theres too much happening in my life right now... its most probably the cause of the feeling of confusion i feel... im gonna try to go back to my first love... gonna go back to the simple dreams when i was 16... gonna make myself a name in the world of floorball... make myself a film-maker... forget about everything else till i achieve these things... "a dream is a wish the heart makes" but wishes dont ever come true... ive gotta step up and do something... make my move...

its gonna take time
its gonna be hard
but in the end ill learn to live again..

*Now Playing Thousand Foot Krutch - Breathe You In*

Taking hold, breaking in
The pressures on, need to circulate
Mesmerized and taken in
Moving slow, so it reasonates
It's time to rest, not to sleep away
My thoughts alone, try to complicate
I'll do my best, to seek you out
And be myself, not impersonate

Tried so hard to not walk away
And when things don't go my way
I'll still carry on and on just the same

I've always been strong
But can't make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of running
And I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in

I'm going in, so cover me
Your compass will, help me turn the page
The laughing stock I'll never be
Because I won't let them take me

Tried so hard to not walk away
And when things don't go my way
I'll still carry on and on just the same

I've always been strong
But can't make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of running
And I need to breathe

Took awhile to see all the love that's around me
Through the highs and lows there's a truth that I've known
And it's You

I've always been strong
But can't make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of running
And I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in..........

pure..

my acoustic escape...

*Now Playing 3 Doors Down - Away From The Sun(acoustic)*


It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
to find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down
Away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now i can't tell what i've done

And now again i've found myself
So far down away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

And now again i've found myself
so far down away from the sun
that shines into the darkest place
i'm so far down away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
to find my way back into the arms
that care about the ones like me
im so far down away from the sun again

the 100th post

its exactly midnight... and ive been thinking for a couple of days what would make a fitting 100th post...

Alone in a sea of orange

the orange light from the heavens shine,
it makes everything seem fine.
a beam of light through water,
in pairs they gather together.
amazed by the beauty,
amazed by its purity.
unseen a lonely shadow,
it strays from the ever lit meadow.
far from the masses it flees,
far away to wherever it pleases.
away from the sun,
waiting for all this to get done.
away from the migrating Vs,
so that it won't envy,
their warmth and company.
because its alone in a sea of orange agony.

pretty crazy stuff... cause im feeling pretty weird right now...
so much stuff to think about... i officially hate holidays (0_0 i cant believe i just said that)...
but i hate sitting at home.. doing nothing.. it gives my mind the opportunity to release the beast within...
"if only i had been less blind i'd have someone to hold on to..."
some regrets... that i didnt do anything 8..9 months ago...
some uncertainty of what's down the long winding road...
more regrets on stupidity...
i see my mum... and shes so obsessed over something i dont like to talk about... and a solution arrives but i dont like it.. it involves something i dont ever want in my life ever again... the same thing i dont like to talk about... but i look at her and she needs to be released... she needs happiness that shes been neglecting...
i keep seeing stupid things and hearing mini things like a word that if said without a "S" sounds perfectly fine... add the "S" and i think of the one person in this world i hate... ive hated him all my life... and its something most ppl wont ever understand... its something i will not make my 'future' understand... im still waiting for the cause and effect chain to happen.. i mean ive seen the starting dynamic action already.. but where the heck's the effect?

the world of evil, has its fill, leaving everyone else to pay the bill.....
u call that fair??

"Close my eyes... let the whole thing past me by.. there is no time to waste askin why...."
k im calming down... think im gonna go lose myself in my music again.... and then turn in for the day... its 12.50a.m. now.... and a boring day is all i see down the road...

words that affects the effects...

*Now Playing Hoobastank - Good Enough*

i only wanted you to feel
how i thought you deserved to feel
the way you always said you wanted
you wanted all we have to be real
and every word we say to be true
still after all i gave,
its not enough for you.
well i cant give anymore,
so now im giving up
'cause nothing's ever good enough.
the more i try to pour, the less i fill your cup,
'cause nothing's ever good enough.
i only wanted you to see
that you could be who you wanted to be
and fill a lonely void inside of you.
i gave you everything that you need,
did what you always wanted to do.
still after all i've done, i can't get through..
i've wasted my time,
go find someone else...

----------------------------------------------------

this is a really nice song with pretty meaningful lyrics...
using experience to create a story...
and it is pretty much universal...
(i mean how many of you didnt get what the guy was singing about? raise ur hand.... *looks around..* didnt think so...)

really really tired today... went around singapore returning all our demonstration show props... set at the back of the lorry with the wind making my hair whip the back of my neck(ouch!) but its kinda fun to see the expressions of motorists passing by us haha... also the many bumps on the road that make our butts hurt yah yah.. and the driver of course... jamming the break/accelerator, yanking the steering wheel left and right making erez, dx, nigel and me 'fly' in every direction possible haha....
and watched our recorded demo show and the other 2 classes ones as well...
again i have to say our class did the best hands down... good going Erez!
and forgot to go see Ryan my storytelling teacher for my final grade...

the past couple of days has been passing really slowly... it feels like its been a month but its only been a week and a half!! did i forget to change the batteries on my wristwatch or am i just bored?
2 weeks more till i start my coaching course.... and might find a job to save some cash up... gonna be working myself to the bone during the holidays... i might reconsider the job thingy if it takes up too much of my time... yah yah.. i dont want my life to become "Metro, Boulo, Dodo"... that would make my already boring life more boring!!!
i need to find more interesting stuff to do... i mean i have french on thursdays and floorball every weekend... but i feel the need for somemore stuff to do.. i hate sitting at home all day long... which is why im trying to get Erez, Dx, Nigel and me to jam' one of these days... yah yah.. that'll make life so much more interesting... :P ... its the only way im gonna get myself back to being my old bubbly bouncy energetic self again...

ok... im gonna stop before i get long-winded again... haha.....

hiding in the words of songs...

*Now Playing Hoobastank - If Only"

i thought it wasn't wrong to hide from you,
the simple truth, i was scared.
i'd felt it all along but it hurt too much for me to share.
if only i had been less blind i'd have someone to hold on to.
if only i could change your mind.
if only i had known.
if only i had you.
i finally understand why things have happened and how it all could go so wrong.
will this pain ever end 'cause i don't think i can carry on.
if only i had been less blind i'd have someone to hold on to.
if only i could have spoke my mind.
if only it were true, we could start brand new,
i know i'd make it through. if only i had you.....

funny funny =D

haha... dx showed me the video above... its hilarious haha..
"Give me back my SUN!(son)" haha...
the worst part is that mel gibson did actually get arrested.... hard to believe but c'est vrai... and i used him as a example/rolemodel in my essay to get into ngeeann haha... oh well.. this world and its many different people (happy/crazily happy/sad/crazy) yah yah haha... if u listen to the BG music close enough u'll be able to get a idea of how i want to be viewed.. *psst originality is a quality most people lack..*

i woke up at 2pm today haha.. 12 hours of sleep pretty nuts.. but sleep really is catching up with me... and i believe ive definitely screwed up my eating timings i mean.. i had my dinner (technically lunch but i usually skip breakfast unless thers chocolate pancakes somewhere.... =P )

another boring day today (technically yesterday.. [ive no idea why im being so technical tonight... must be something i ate... =/ ]) im preparing myself for a busy weekend ahead..
gotta go touring singapore for stuff LesGarcons can build props with.. our killer idea of a art&design project is also a killer on props... so basically tomorrow will be all about that... and sunday playing against TP Wolves... (dreading it... knowing that im gonna have to manmark this sicko whos really really good... might just take dx's advice and become 'LEGEND' by way of backslide... haha....) and refing after that so.. gonna be tired.. and still have to go back to school on monday?! like wat for!!! just give us our grades already and we'll be on our way.. see u in 5 weeks kinda thing...

i wanted to put a different song for the BG music... but maybe next time yah yah...

"do you know that everytime you are near, everybody else seems far away..."

wait... do you feel that? its the winds of change...

expect this to be another random post by me... and expect guest apperances on this reality show (serious?) i call my crappy life (that doesnt seem so crappy to me =D )...

today was our last Storytelling lesson (like say Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww already!)
and i woke up a wee bit later than i would have hoped but hey sleep caught up with me ( i will not get cancer =P )
so i took a cab down... expecting a party coz our lecturer Ryan said he had a surprise for us.. and so yah... 15 buckeroos exactly for the ride.. reached with just enough time to buy 2 chocolate pancakes ( i hear dripping... man are you drooling?! ) and some drinks yah yah.. and then we went up to class to go through the answers of the storytelling test thats 15% of our final marks.. and i was stunned ( i swear i was stunned!! ) that i again topped the class with 13%... ( I really didnt study people!! nigel shut up and your "ya sure..." shut up already! Swears i did last minute studying... *crosses his heart and hopes to die..* ) mmm but qamariah still got the highest out of the 100% haha ( coz i didnt do too good for the file... oh well u can't have the world...) and so we'r asking wats the surprize... and this is what Ryan says...

"Well, i've been saving up since week 3 for today and ive about $90"
(isit me or are those things in redpackets? hurhurhur... its just me haha)
"So i thought we should go down to Cathay Cineleisure..."
(and watch Click!! on the house!!! :D )
"and play...."
(ya ya Click!!! .. wait ... play?)
".. parapara.."
( O_O *crickets chirping*pin drops somewhere behind....*dripping continues* eh who the heck is drooling?! )
yah haaha we went to watch ryan play para para and played arcade mmmm with him at cine.. he's actually really good.. im waiting for qamariah to upload the video on youtube haha and ill show u guys yah yah... and he was so good he had gathered himself a crowd of onlookers apart from just us.. haha... fun fun fun... hilarious stuff i smiled my face stiff mmmm...
(but someone pinch me cause i think i spent $15 to rush to school when i could have taken my time to meet them at Cine instead!!!! but im not being materialistic... its only $15 *throws his mouse as far as its cord will allow* "The anger sharks are swimming in me!!! GoooooZe Fraaaabaaaaa" haha)

then we went over to Village (which is where the old Marche at the Heeren was...) to eat some good food... like $$$ expensive... tres cher... mmm but i couldnt help myself haha... i havent eaten good food in a while... so i got myself a ribeye steak, mashed potatoes, shared pizza with nigel and dx and being the PussyFoot i am.. had a Barcardi Breezer(lime :P ) while dx had a beer... mmm fun stuff..... i wanna go back and eat again soon (when i get the $$$) coz i got ripped off by the stupid barcardi... it was $9.80!! and it wasnt even freezing cold!!! like what has the world come to? when the heineken dx was drinking was only wat.. $8??? mad cows...
and the usual dx pinks up quickly and loses control of his laughter haha... and roger decides he'll share some german beer with stefan and from the look on his face... he isnt a big drinker.. he had 2 sips and i could see his face change haha... (it was pretty strong stuff mmm i dont remember the name of the beer but i dont care.. not a fan of beer... ) and he turns into a red indian in the blink of an eye... redder than dx.. like i thought dx was the extreme, the ultimate... but here comes roger and his strong heart haha.... (sorry dx.. better luck next time for the "Me&MyStrongHeart" prize haha...)

and then i bought the new hoobastank album!! :D like super happy *dances around the room*
then left for french yah yah... Somerset to Newton... cant take that long.. until i decided to stone and be a statue (read the sign... "Statue of Maosi the Stoned... erected 2006... a example of how stupidity makes you not drop off at Newton but at Toa Payoh where u realise u missed your stop...") mmm my blood was circulating so i was super sleepy... yah yah... but still good stuff... met mj when i alighted at the mrt platform.. purely by coincidence... mmm and thats about it for my crazily fun day.... :P ...

listening to hoobastank now.. going crazy... coz im so tired.. must must must go sleep soon... yah yah...
oh yah.. got famous amos with erez and dx tooo (sorry princess haha no mrs.fields)
i wanna watch click!!!!! cant tomorrow cause have to do props... so might go on wednesday... yah yah.. and refing one game ($20) this sunday after my own game... probably gonna be tired out.... but still fun...

"appreciating what i have... for if i blink it may disappear...it happens all the time..."

-Somewhere out there.......-

crazy little thing called love... =D

just listen to the song... yep yep yep...

Hoobastank - Born To Lead

this is "the reason" why hoobastank is my favourite band... coz they make everything else "disappear"
the next 3 music videos are from hoobastanks new album which i absolutely want... forget everything else.. i just wanna get this album and hide...
i relate to all 3 videos pretty well.. so in the past 2 days ive found stuff i can relate to pretty well.. like Click.. and these 3 videos.... so ya.. im going through a phase... the headache from last night hasnt gone.. still pounding my head....





"if i were you, holding the world right in my hands
the first thing id do is thank the stars for all that i have..."

the ride home...

"dont let your past dictate who you are... but let it be part of who you will become..."
i wanna go watch Click again... might do it on friday or something...
cause i feel so .... out of place right now... even music isnt helping me out...
i just wanna hide myself from everything else and sit in a dark place and watch a good movie... not care about anything else for a couple of hours... the only thing i can turn to to hide now are the movies i watch...
theres just so much to hide from now..
i wanna hit the "release" button a couple more times coz i really need it..

"you can't stop the leaves from falling... you can't stop the birds from flying... but u can... stop trying..."

the *Click*

today's a pretty good day... all because of a well spent $8.... went to watch Click with the king and queen, dx and stefan.... havent seen a movie that great in a long long long time!!! i mean i laughing and laughing and then i cried so badly... "freeflow" for you.... definitely one of the best Adam Sandler films ever!!! i will buy the dvd once it gets out...

the best part about watching the movie was that it helped unlock me(with a *Click*) from the little jail cell that i put myself into... yes the bomb is still ticking... but i feel more relaxed.. more patient...

i wanna see the film again!! this is one of those films crazy people like moi is willing to pay $$ to watch over and over again... and next time i will bring myself a roll of tissue paper haha..... i love crying over a good movie haha.. its just like a release... i feel its ok to cry cause (thats what god gave u tear glands for u dumb ppl...) haha no seriously... cause its expression ppl... yah yah... and i hope one day i'll be able to make a movie... as emotionally triggering if not more than Click...
=D

still listening to SteelHeart.. but i dont feel emo ... =D
(im some weirdo right?)

to a friend...

in the darkest of times,
even when the world doesnt seem like a dime.
people always care,
people are always there.
god never leaves you,
even when u get some contagious flu.
just be patient my friend,
and u'll soon see the big plan.
ignore the many fiends,
who try to sadden all men.
and open your eyes to see,
how much more the world can be.....

=) ...
to the friend who was always there...
to the friend who always cared...
to the friend who has been overlooked by man...
to the friend who needs a helping hand...
i dedicate these words....

interesting average day =D

woke up today after a weird dream that had no links which i quickly forgot 5 minutes upon waking up.... =/ really cant remember like short term memory or what? (but i slept at 3am last night so excuse the brain mmmm its been overworking...)
thought i was 100% gonna fail today for the intro to film test... but it actually wasn't too difficult... kinda easy infact =X i dont know.. maybe i read all the questions differetly and answered all of em wrong or something... je ne sais pas... will know in a couple of days... but the photography one was just ______________ like that... dead.... haha... might just edge a pass out of it... not too worried though..

and we had so much time on our hands (it was like 3.30pm and our demo show didnt start for another hour...) so instead of being boring and sitting at alumni where erez has something special going on with the malay auntie (haha..... =D ) decided to head over to the alumni bar.... pretty nice place... nobody was there (technically students arent allowed to be there until after 4pm... but no one seemed to care) and it was amazingly windy where we were sitting... and had a glass of the vodka with redbull (yuck... i hate redbull) nigel and dexian had more than a glass each (they bought a jug to share....)... haha and dx flushes up bright pink really quickly haha... he looked like some chinese soap opera singer..... but i really wanted to try something non-alcoholic... like the PussyFoot cocktail! haha... and basically chatted out the rest of the time... to the demo show that took forever to film... but its finally done and over... i feel so much more relieved yeppa :D ...

didnt wanna go eat prata with the rest after that though.. too tired... but after those mainly random and boring stuff... i noticed pretty interesting things happening around me... like the first song i heard on the radio this morning at around 9.30am? was Je Crois En Toi... and the love songs and happy songs just didnt go away... when we went to macdonalds before the photography test for lunch.. heard a couple of happy songs there too... and in the alumni bar... yah yah... interesting stuff eh? and erez made me listen to this extremely emo song by SteelHeart called She's Gone... i listened to it 3 times and didnt feel emo (maybe i was just amazed at how high the lead vocalist who's a guy can hit and maintain such a high pitch with his voice... even higher than Celine Dion = ) pretty freaky... hmmm nothing much else really..

ooo yah the thigh... been hurting since sunday ever since i got knee'd there in the game... and couldn't even sit cross-legged on the floor during demo show coz it hurt bad when i stretch it... dont think its too serious though... the back ache is gone... so im not too worried about anything else .... hmmmmm the time bomb is still ticking... the bomb squad's already here... but i refuse to let them touch it... coz i wanna do something for myself... so i cant blame anyone else if my life screws up.... oh well... gonna have my dinner (yes its 11pm people...) all i have in my tummy is the vodka with redbull... haha....
and maybe have a early night after eating...

"and soon we'll be sailing far across the sea....."

another dream...

sometimes i think aristotle is the director for the movies i see in my dreams...
him and his great tragedies.... his cause and effect chains that almost never bring anything good... him and his love of Complex plots.. that must must must involve his "Peripeteia" and "Anagnorisis" to make things difficult for the main character in the story... and of course probably his favourite to use in my dreams "Hamartia" .... making full use of my weaknesses he is... believe me when i say... i dreamt out the entire structure of his stories... Beginning, Middle and End.....and he's already manage to achieve "Kartharsis" ... really confused...
and then there's the "writer's bible" and somehow it seems Aristotle loves question number 13... (Are the obstacles the main character faces strong enough?) and also... question number 24 (Does the main conflict come out of the main character? (his vices, phobias, weaknesses, contradictions, etc...) and lastly question number 30 (Is there sufficient awareness of the pressure of time on the main character?)

ive never experienced something so powerful visually... literally brought me to my knees and tears..... i had every single obstacle put in my path, shown every possible weakness that goes into the conflict and given a ticking time bomb that'll explode soon if i do nothing... i guess the only way theres gonna be a twist in the story is if i do something to save my sad situation... what a time to have such a rude awakening.... right before a game where i need my full concentration... stunning how life plays with you....

i need to think but i dont have much time... and if i let this chance go.. it might never come back... and i'll regret for the rest of my life be it a long time or short time... i'll remember how i didnt "twist" my story... and let the cruel world grab my life by the neck...

(this is not a emo post.. its just a post of self-discovery.... then again.. maybe it qualifies for being a emo self-discovery post...)

"Now Playing Gregorian - Ordinary World"

Came in from a rainy Thursday
on the avenue
thought I heard you talking softly
I turned on the lights, the TV
and the radio
still I can't escape the ghost of you

What has happened to it all?
Crazy, some'd say
Where is the life that I recognize?

But I won't cry for yesterday
there's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
and as I try to make my way
to the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Passion or coincidence
once prompted you to say
"Pride will tear us both apart"
Well now pride's gone out the window
cross the rooftops
run away
left me in the vacuum of my heart

What is happening to me?
Crazy, some'd say
Where is my friend when I need you most?

But I won't cry for yesterday
there's an ordinary world
somehow I have to find
and as I try to make my way
to the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

Papers in the roadside
tell of suffering and greed
here today, forgot tomorrow
ooh, here besides the news
of holy war and holy need
ours is just a little sorrowed talk

And I don't cry for yesterday
there's an ordinary world
Somehow I have to find
and as I try to make my way
to the ordinary world
I will learn to survive

every one
any one
any one
every one

jibber jabber jibber jabbery joo

refereeing was good today mmm its like someone turned on that cheesey tennis ad...
"only hear the good things" haha
but still made a couple of mistakes... pretty stupid ones...
haha made some poor guy sit out for 2 minutes for jumping though technically it isnt worth 2 minutes.... oh well.. no one complained so im fine haaha.. (sorry if u just happen to read this)
pretty cool day... met up with some of the ntu floorball guys... (ref'ed with one of em for the 6pm game...) shared a couple of jokes haha.. like the pea brain substitution haha...
so the guy is right beside me... and he leaves the rink right... and he gives a shout to his sub that hes already out... nothing wrong right? well he went out outside the sub zone.. and he even got my attention and tells me "Im out" haha... yesh u are out sir.. out for 2 minutes... funny funny funny haha... cool people they are yep yep yep... miss training with em... we'll see how it goes.. if Skools floorball wont have me... ill just join the hurricanes again i guess... i know most of the guys mmmm so no problem making friends yep yep yep...
i need the training!!! plus they just changed their trainings to tuesday instead of thursday... so yeah.. wont miss french if i go... gotta seeeeee ....

ive got 10 movies on my list of must watches.... quite alot... most of em are adam sandler movies.. except for my big fat greek wedding... im going movie crazy!! yep yep..

the fingers still feel a little sensitive haha... 5 hours of guitar playing within 12 hours is not good for your fingers... especially if you have "tou foo" fingers like mine... pretty big game tomorrow... hoping everything goes well.. we going up against a team famous for being rough... its pretty much the same... they play the same every year... push here push there... kick here kick there... swing here swing there.. gotta keep my eyes open.. if they cant score in our net.. your face will do just fine... haha

and theres always ppl like mr.goalkeeper who causes problems for us... (ryan if u somehow are reading this be prepared cause u gonna be insulted...)
i mean u think u are there *puts left hand way up high*
and u think u know alot alot alot...
u think u are freaking important in the team..
u are basically the most cocky self-centered show off ive ever met.. serious... i mean grow up man... u get intimidated by people like dennis and everything cause u know they are better than you... and i respect that... but if you think u are better than the team? then even if u make it into the national squad u aint gonna stay there long man... worst thing is u actually believe in god and go to church... im struggling to find a reason how such a religious person like you actually acts this way... and not playing when u feel like it... playing when u feel like it... not caring about the 4 letter word with no "I" or "U" [team].... yesh...

i feel so much better now after getting that off my chess.... phew... its me last season with me hawkies... gonna end it off on a high... and not get angry over bloody self-centered goody goody spoilt kiddies..

school break is nearly here!!! only have to go to school on monday and thursday this week haha... weeeeee haha but then again expecting it to be a busy couple of weeks... my coaching course is starting on the 28th(aug)... gotta prepare the props and costumes for the art&design presentation which is in 2 weeks time... so busy busy busy... dont think ill be able to work.. and save up for my guitar.. :( ... but life goes on.. probably keep refing and saving up cash.. oh well the world is filled with so much more than just material..... theres always stuff u cant touch or see... stuff that basically if u were me... put life in perspective... yep yep.. :D
kk the nanny is gonna go chase the princess to sleep now...

"even the best fall down sometimes..."

Adam Sandler - That's All

"I can only give you love that lasts forever
and a promise to be near each time you call
And the only heart i own
for you and you alone
that's all
that's all

All i have are these arms to enfold you
and a long time can never destroy

If you're wondering what im asking in return dear
you'll be glad to know that my demands are small
say its me that you'll adore
for now and ever more
that's all
that's all..."

i want this song!!!!!! =D
but i cant find it anywhere!!!

ok gotta go prepare for referee duty... all the way to 8pm at night zzzZZZ =
"....for now and ever more...."

the plan...

got the plan all worked out... but as most ppl would know.. im not really good in stuff like this...so its gonna take time... biggest chicken on earth ---> maosi

(Grow Old With You - Adam Sandler)

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

i think suddenly im hooked onto adam sandler movies... je ne sais pas...
the fingers hurt really bad.. but practise makes perfect.. and no pain no gain... =D

wish i didnt agree to ref the 4pm and 6pm games already...

the plan!!! c'est une strategem oui...

clear as the stars...

*Now Playing Adam Sandler - Grow Old With You (ost "The Wedding Singer")*

i dont believe in the stupid stuff i typed last night... spent 3 and a half hours playing Grow Old With You on my guitar... pretty nuts.. at 3am or something.. best part is my estate is so quite at night... that u can usually hear my guitar and my singing from the car park...(i live on the 8th floor)...

im not gonna let this thing end in a anti-climax.. nope nope nope =P



was listening to some of my friends trying to convince me... and i didnt think much of it at first...
came home watched the wedding singer.. and i realised... ive been staring at the answer all this time... =)

im not like everyone...
i dont need what everyone else needs...

sticking to the simple stuff...

thanks nigel... though im sure this isnt the results u were looking for... but hey.. u made me wake up man... merci beaucoup....

"I wanna make u smile...."

this picture...

i see a singing heart...
happiness makes it sing..
the more the heart sings,
the more the burning red river flows...
but one moment is all thats needed for the river to dry up..
one bad dream is all thats needed to mess things up..
one pharse is all thats needed to jam it shut...

"I Dream A Dream..."

the break is near... im beginning to relax my mind more.. which isnt too good cause i spend more time thinking... got called up for referee duty again... refing with one of singapore's best referees on saturday 4pm and 6pm game... pretty cool
and then back to being myself on court on sunday at 4pm..

time flies when u r having fun.... and before u know it... *blinks* all the fun is gone and the cold hard facts are staring u straight in the face... fact simply just doesn't appeal to me right now.. i want to dreammmmmmm....

"one orange coloured day...."

dreams of a perfect world...

"Now Playing Andrea Bocelli - Sogno(I Dream)"

Va ti aspettero
Il fiore nel giardino segna il tempo
Qui disegnero il giorno poi del tuo ritorno
Sei cosi sicura del mio amore
Da portarlo via con te
Chiuso nelle mani
Che ti porti al viso
Ripensando ancora a me
E se ti servira lo mostri al mondo
Che non sa che vita c'e
Nel cuore che distratto sembra assente
Non sa che vita c'e
In quello che soltanto il cuore sente
Non sa.

Qui ti aspettero
E rubero I baci al tempo
Tempo che non basta a cancellare
Coi ricordi il desiderio che
Resta chiuso nelle mani
Che ti porti al viso
Ripensando a me
E ti accompagnera passando le citta da me
Da me che sono ancora qui
E sogno cose che non so di te
Dove sara che strada fara il tuo ritorno
Sogno

Qui ti aspettero
E rubero I baci al tempo
Sogno
Un rumore il vento che mi sveglia
E sei gia qua.

Go, I will wait for you
The flowers in the garden mark the time
Here I will draw the day of your return
You are so sure of my love
You take it away with you
Cupped in your hands
When you touch your face
As you still think of me
And if you need to, you can show the world
The world that doesn't know what life there is
In an uncaring absent heart
Doesn't know what life there is
In that only the heart can feel
Doesn't know.


Here I will wait for you
And steal kisses from time
Time is not enough to erase
The memories and the desire that
Remains closed in your hands
That you bring to your face.
You still think of me
It will follow you and passing me in the city
I'll still be here
Dreaming of things that I don't know about you.
Where is the road that you will take on your return
I dream

Here I will wait for you
And steal kisses from time
I dream
A noise, the wind awakens me
And you're already here.

----------------------------------------------------

=)
"Non sa"
"Sogno"
"Qui ti aspettero"
"Sogno"

ooooooo

This video has been rated M18 (some sexual references, vulgarities and violence)
-wait a second... aint i 17? i guess actors and stuntmen dont count haha...


heres what i can learn from the video...
-that erez and dx are "curvy"
-that nigel can scream pretty well haha
-that dx is a dangerous person when he's holding any kinda stick...(if u listen carefully i mentioned that was the 2nd time i got hit.. the first time i got attacked from behind by a metal lighting pole!!! haha...)
-the reason why u cant lift your floorball stick above waist height during a game...
-that qamariah is somehow most of the time in the right place at the right time...
-that my nose doesnt feel the same
-that nigel can shoot with one hand..
-that nigel's favourite line is "Aiyo aiyo....aiyo"
-that i am accident prone... (like some freaking magnet or something... =\ oh well.. no ones perfect haha...)
-that when u have a blocked nose get dx to give u a wack on the nose coz it'll clear right up haha...
-that "Im fine!"
haha...

the red that flows...

this heart that beats
it beats to sing
when it sings the entire world freezes
when it sings it sings about things closest to it
when it sings.... it brings emotions that overpower its master...
it sings of fears and brings tears
it sings of life... a complicated life...
it sings of people... but those people dont hear its song...
because it sings silently to no one but itself...
the world in all its glory
lacks something a heart needs...
and so it flees
knowing it doesnt fit
fearing that inevitably it will stop singing
in this bigger picture that seems blurry...
smudged with every colour but the red of blood
and the orange of the night skies...

still thinking of stupid things
singing songs i shouldnt be singing...

(maybe i know ..)

Somos Novios....

*Now Playing Andrea Bocelli & Chritina Aguilera - Somos Novios*

Andrea:
Somos novios
Pues los dos sentimos mutuo amor profundo
Y con eso ya ganamos lo más grande
De este mundo

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios
Nos deseamos y hasta a veces
Sin motivo, sin razón
Nos enojamos

Christina:
Somos novios
Mantenemos un cariño limpio y puro
Como todos
Procuramos el momento más oscuro

Both:
Para hablarnos
Para darnos el más dulce de los besos
Recordar de qué color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios
Somos novios

Christina:
Ohh ooh ooh, ohh yeah

Both:
It's just impossible

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios
Nos deseamos y hasta a veces
Sin motivo, sin razón

Andrea:
Nos enojamos

Christina:
Sin motivo, sin razón

Andrea:
Somos novios

Both:
Mantenemos un cariño

Andrea:
Limpio y puro

Christina:
Yeah

Andrea:
Como todos

Christina:
Como todos

Andrea:
Procuramos

Both:
El momento más oscuro

Christina:
Ohh yeah

Para hablarnos
Para darnos el más dulce de los besos
Recordar de qué color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios

Andrea:
Somos novios

Christina:
Somos novios

Andrea:
Siempre novios

Christina:
Ooh

Both:
Somos novios

We are a couple
because, we both feel mutual profound
love
And with that
We have won the biggest thing
of this world

We love, we kiss each other
Like a couple, We desire each other
And some times without reasons,
without motive
We get angry

We are a couple
We maintain a clean and pure affection
Like everyone
We look for the darkest moment

To speak to each other,
To give each other the sweetest
of the kisses
To remember what color
are the cherry trees
Without making further comments
We are a couple

It's just impossible

We love, we kiss each other
Like a couple, We desire each other
And some times without reasons,
without motive!
We get angry
without reasons, without motive

We are a couple
We maintain a clean and pure affection
Like everyone, like everyone
We look for the darkest moment
To speak to each other,
To give each other the sweetest
of the kisses
To remember what color
are the cherry trees
Without making further comments
We are a couple

We are a couple
Always a couple
We are a couple

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the beauty of songs and languages like Spanish and Italian...
its in spanish haha *prods princess*
yep... so nice....... just listening to it over and over again....
come to think of it now i wanna learn Spanish and Italian toooo not
just french.... maybe some Latin as well... and German... and and...
maybe Swedish just for fun..
but French, Spanish, Italian and Latin come first...
in my opinion the most widely used languages in the world (except latin though..)
plus to me they are my langues de l'amore (languages of love...)
plus its a bonus for me if im gonna become a good filmmaker...
being able to speak different languages...
and travel the world... (haha.... the dreams of a heart...)

didnt go to school this morning...
going to school for 2 hours of lesson is ok.. but going to school for
2 hours of lesson at 8am! is just mad (esp. since i live 1 hour and
15 minutes away from the darn place...)
plus i can feel this sore throat thingy developing..
dont wanna get sick... hate it... hate it hate it....

woke up to the most amazing noise... the rain... and smell
the fresh air coming in through my window...
a perfect morning... (more like afternoon i woke up at 12.15pm)

"Para hablarnos,
Para darnos el más dulce
de los besos
Recordar de que color
son los cerezos
Sin hacer más comentarios
Somos novios"

*sighs a contented sigh...*