gotta break out....

the stereo is blasting again...
the people around here they don't understand what the noise is for...
they complain about it behind my back..
they talk amongst themselves...
they've black marked the dolphin gate,
these windows on this floor,
on this particular side,
at this particular block.
stupid people think they know it all,
they couldn't careless about what are the reasons behind it...
they come to complain.. and there's a point when people break...
when people overflow with emotions too great to control...
that's when the world finally understands...
there's more behind the dolphin gates then they'll ever know
that's when they try to accommodate us...
that's when they try to bear with the noise, the abstract cries of help.
the look in their eyes when we bump into each other,
is one of confusion.
they're afraid... afraid of what is happening.. afraid of stepping out of line
afraid of triggering another emotional standoff...
and i don't understand them...
i've just gotta break out... gotta break out...
i can't explain all of this on the inside...

"you've learned how to smile,
you've learned how to cry,
learned how to read and write.
no one knows what it's like,
you don't know what it's like.
no one knows what it's like,"
but hell... don't we all know the price of life is high?

so
"The choice is yours,
you can take your life,
you can fight for something more
the choice is yours,
you can take your life for nothing... nothing more"
(Mobile - Scars)

"All of this can't be real, the poor state that i'm in,
discomfort in my sleep may have brought me here.
All the vows are broken, all the guilt that i'm wearing
of being here, of being here so unprotected..."

"Overhead and closer up there,
see the earth's fading nations.
Shuttles, spaceships, satellites,
all gathered up there hypnotized.
I may climb the highest fences,
face the WORTHLESS consequences.
Obscured, shattered is the sky.
Another lesson learned in time,
many lacks of confidence,
in hidden USELESS conversations.

And I live to justify, to say the reasons why,
You won't see right through me, see right through me...
I live to justify to say the reason why,
you may sense my fear,
but you won't see right through me....."
(Mobile - See Right Through Me)

and now i understand... why things are the way they are...
"locked up like a prisoner in a free land, free land.
love always came and went just like a slight of hand"
(Mobile - How Can I Be Saved)

maybe i don't need to know the reasons why...
i don't think anyone was meant to know the reasons why...
leave it as it is... don't fight for anything more...
i hear the whispers from around me.. oh no.. they're in my head
"Keep breathing, keep breathing.
Hold on, hold on."
we're just given choices really... and we choose the choices we pick..
not those we were meant to pick... it's our decisions that create or destroy,
it's the choices that we pick for tomorrow...
Tomorrrow Starts Today...

~fin~