hey.. u forgot something...

wats worst then a long day? 5 long days....
wats worst then 5 long days? 2 weeks of long school days back to back...
i've gotta do shooting for my group's video production tmr... at night... prolly get home latee..
i mean everything that can go wrong will go wrong... that's something that comes with the job..
but at least i'm paired with 3 other amazingly dedicated and hardworking ppl..
i sometimes feel i'm dragging them down...

there's really nothing left to say
i don't understand anything anymoree....
i'm becoming forgetful again... which sucks...
but i'm forgetting the wrong things... all the wrong things...
things i don't wanna forget vaporises... overwritten
sigh... and when i said the last word will come from you.. i meant it...

what happened to the snow? y's it all blue?

decisions i make are ripping my insides up...
and there's really nth i can do... who can fight something like this?

21 names but now there are only 20...
somehow... the one that just left... was the one i've been avoiding..
was the one that basically mattered the most..
was the one that i would have been the reason, a excuse, and so much more...
was the one that somehow i can only connect with when the lights go out at night...
and probably... no.. definitely .. is still all of the above...

will you not understand?