a feeling i know too well...

yeah i know this feeling...
it's not one i should be proud of but one that makes me what i am...
human (i guess)..
and i think i understand how you are probably feeling too...
but everyone's got different experiences.. everyone's got their
own way of reacting to situations...

yeahhh

maybe i chose this in a moment of foolishness...
don't know... i can't remember when it started...
(memory's been dying out on me again)

Peut-être c'était une mauvaise décision ?
Et maintenant, je ne comprend pas tout les problemes...
je ne sais pas...
La vie? Elle n'est pas pleine des contes de fées... non...

hmmm... beginning to run in circles again..
i'm not sure why.. but i feel... incomplete?
don't know... just not content.. no idea why or what...
been feeling like this for awhile now...
mm.. and of all times it comes back now...
yeah... i think this is one of the reasons why i hate coming home..
feel seperated from the world...
i just want to go to sleep everytime i get back...
it's tiring... to have this feeling..
it's tiring... to not know what to do..
i hate the feeling like i'm helpless.. not in control..
like everything's already been planned out.. and i'm just living it..
just part of one big play...
one puppet in a million puppet show...
1 drop of water in the sea...
yah.. don't know but i feel that small..
and i hate the feeling...
just like when i've got no money..
feels.. helpless... it's the same as compromising...
settling for less.. when people tell you to live life to it's fullest?
i hate the feeling of having to do things against your will...
you'll never do it with all your heart..
it'll never mean anything to you...
and sometimes even if you do something with all your heart and soul...
no one sees it...
you hope and pray that someone would have noticed..
someone would have seen the work gone in...
the beauty within..
no they don't... they don't see that deep...
they can't see the many things hidden between the lines...
there's no point lying to myself..
because i know i'm lying...
what would be the point?

sooner... or later....