stupid world....

there're actually loads of stupidly irritating people in this world... serious...
like the who stared at me like a hawk on the mrt because she saw 2 gaps behind me...
and thought i was being selfish and not moving behind... i stared back... and i've the right to...
there were 2 kids squatting down behind me... and if she wants to trample over them to give herself a wee bit more space she can do it.... o'course she realised in the end there were 2 kids.. after a shiteload of staring... mm.. really made me not like stupid people in this stupid world.. (this happened on monday...)

then there are the people in this world who really don't deserve to be in this world...
(but maybe that's why they're here... they're not good enough to go anywhere else either...)
dunno..
then i just read about the "Spederline" breakup thing... and i get even more irritated at the stupid people in this stupid world... coz their children are gonna have to go through alot..
and those 2 dumb people don't understand.. growing up in their rich happy families..
they won't understand what'll happen when there's all the custody fighting..
("and you understand?" some of u ask?)
yes... i've seen it first hand...
to make my point... how many of you reading this... are living in nice 'full' families?
if you still wanna fight to make ur point then i think u don't understand...
(but of course there're the 'full' families... with not so nice parents...
could be one.. or both of em...)
k nvm... i'm agitating myself...
(wana know? cause i couldn't go to training today because of ...... to me, the absolute most stupid person on earth... )
he's causing problems again.. and i don't like when he affects my life... i really hope he just dies...
of all the people that die everyday.. why can't he be one of them??
why doesn't god do something to all the evil people in this world?
why u wanna make the innocent people suffer for evil they didn't cause?
why god? why???
i'm really happy for my sister because she was one of 6 lucky people who got selected to do special vet summer project in aussie... mmm..
she just sent a email concerning the very same issue i'm whining about now...
think i've seen my sis develop alot as a person ever since evil stepped out on earth.... mmm
we learn so much more from mistakes other people make and we have to pay for it...
doesn't that just suck?
i've already got my mind made up..i know what kind of person i wanna be... (it's weird for a 17 year old.. but then again.. not many people in the world come from broken families...)
maybe it's luck on my side... being born into this world with a fucked up father...
(excuse my french...)
and a mom who i don't blame for not being able to act fast enough to prevent all of this...
but it's ok... i guess... i'll believe i'm lucky enough to have something like this to learn from...

"Life is how you choose to live it, but unfortunately, we don't all have complete freedom. We're subject to rules and regulations put in place by a greater body, but that's there to ensure that some sort of equality is achieved, and one person is not taking too much advantage of another, because life, in the great scheme of things, is also about balance. We also have obligations to this greater body, it provides us order and we must hold up our end and help. We have to live with and accept the ripples created by the individual paths we had chosen earlier. It's one great big mathematical algorithm or flowchart, one big food web. Moral of the story: Honour your obligations to the choices you have made, the people around you and the greater body, it is meant to be that EASY."

that's a line i really like in the email my sis wrote...
makes life seem so simple right?

k ... coming back to my own world full of nice caring people...
i'm impressed with myself because the director in the production group likes my camera work..
(yesss!!) i didn't get bitten by all em' ants for nothing... (long story..haha..)
it's nice to have ur work appreciated mmmm... and it's good to be proud of ur work..
so i'll probably upload it onto youtube when i get a copy.. and show u guys =D ....
sharing with the world

i had a nightmare last night ... a bad one... a bad long one.....
so there are happy films and horror films that play in my head....
both concerning the same subject somemore...
but the bad dream was really bad =( ....
triggered by something that was said yesterday... and no thanks to my over-thinking...
*hopes he will have a happy film tonight...*
i mean i expect a good payoff man! especially if i'm thinking for a hour before going to sleep...
*no bad dreams, no bad dreams, no bad dreams, no bad dreamsss!!!!*
but it wasn't all bad mm.. the last part was a lil happy =) ...
(happy enough to make me wish for the morning to never come.. mmm )

really, no one like you...