mao stories

The Best Way To Kill A Roach (or any bug for that matter)

2008-09-27T01:59:00.002+08:00

here's melvin's method. It may sound sadistic, or harsh, or whatever.. but fact of the matter is that it is for some reason extremely satisfying (for me at least)...

so i saw a roach just now (lol yes.. tested and proven! WAHA!)
yes so i saw a roach just now (*wink) and so as i do i went to get the pesticide and i stumbled across my insect repellant.
this bright light streaked across and i thought this was an idea.

Why not make the roach hate itself just like you hate it?

the general idea of insect repellant is that insects don't like it for some reason or another. you applying it to whatever and they stay away from it.

ever had the feeling like you're covered in something ickey and disgusting and you just can't wait to get a shower? for example if you fell into a huge pool of shit? wouldn't you so hate yourself because you stunk?

well shit doesn't work with roaches but REPELLANT SURE DOES! WOO!

so spray the bloody thing and make it hate itself!
to my knowledge it doesn't kill it (cause mine was trying to escape but with funny twitches and i swear i could almost hear something like "OMG GET IT OFF ME! AHHHHHH IT BURNSSSSSSS IT BURNSSSS USSSSS! HELP HELP! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
OH GOD SOMEONE JUST KILL ME NOW!" *pause tape*.. did i hear that? let's rewind to be sure
":AKSUDHK:AMND:QWIJF :KSAF:KHAF
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWW" *stop, playback*
"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
OH GOD SOMEONE JUST KILL ME NOW!"

HAH! now you're not being heartless for killing it which is a much greater sin than torture i think, you're actually putting it out of misery! You actually have it's permission to kill it! :D HOW COOL IS THAT?!

"Okey dokey just sign here...... wookay done..... NOW TAKE A FACE FULL OF PESTICIDE MOTHA*^&(*^#er AND DIE!"

*PESTICIDE!*

after it had flipped itself over and died, (if yours still twitches you could try the neat trick of putting a lighter infront of your pesticide and spraying.. but you didn't hear it from me! and please make sure nothing else flammable is in the vicinity.) yes so after it had flipped over and died, i found i could not hold back an evil laugh that was coming from within me.. and god.. so damn satisfying..

Haste la vista, baby *spits*

(If you experience trouble with your roach please feel free to call Schwarzenegger Roach Killas
"If it bleeds, we can kill it" - Arnold Schwarzenegger in Predator)

bad thoughts at 444

2008-08-26T04:43:00.003+08:00

so kinda happy am gonna go to tioman tmr with marie..

but right now kind of thinking of some thingg.. and ponderinggg..

and thinking about possibilities...
majority of them are bad..

and i don't really want to picture it.. and i don't think I want to confront it..

maybe we'll just wait and see and it may just turn out to be nothing..

stupid really.. should have just gone to bed instead of waiting for the stupid movies to be ready to be synced into my iPod for the loooong bus trip.. figured i'd go surf the web..

saw Something, read Somethings, thought about those things.. put A and B together.. and?

A + B is either = to Tragedy, Anger, a betrayal of Trust, a betrayal of Freedom, and so much more Anger..

A + B = nothing..

after all i have jumped to conclusions before.. and often this usually lead me to laugh the whole situation off after.. though i feel like shit then..

so i'm praying it's nothing, and i'm thinking to deep, and that this is not All going down the drain like Before..

(oh my god look... look... look...)

moviessssss- "Bad Habits"

2008-08-21T01:08:00.003+08:00

So went to see this film today with marie and kit and alex, who's quite a nice guy..

I felt the movie was exactly how i pictured (well not exactly..) it would be.. just watching the trailer really made me want to watch it.. and i feel it's one of the better movies i've seen in awhile.. offers something different from stuff like batman.. which is of course great.. but this is great in it's own way..

i thought it got it's points across quite well.. and it's just up to the viewer to think a wee bit into it.. i think some people may find certain parts a little draggyy.. and it's normal.. but i feel pacing for this film overall was quite slow so don't have issues with how it was slightly draggy in certain parts..

i loved the cinematography and constant theme of water..

loved how the director used juxtaposition to link things.. to great effect and getting some humor across..

so overall.. a good watch.. 7.5/10 Kitty Treats for it..

the movie is M18... it's showing exclusively at The Picturehouse in The Cathay.. so rememeber to book your tickets cause they get snapped up quite fast.. and make sure to be on time.. because there are virtually no advertisements here.. if it says 7.20.. it is gonna start at that time.. so be there or risk missing the starting..

actually really wanna watch another one of the films called "The Book of Revelation" but it's R21 unfortunately.. might wait for the dvd.. looks interesting.. and also really wanna watch "Tropic Thunder"!!! hahah can't wait till it comes out.. and "Mamma Mia"! yeap..

aight c'est ca!

babyyy.. it's been a long time coming..

2008-08-18T23:26:00.001+08:00

gravity pulls you and me together baby...
and no i can't stop now..
do ya hear my heart beating?
do you hear that sound?

Wuv :P

first post since march.

2008-08-13T23:58:00.003+08:00

this post comes to being because i found something so powerful..
just a little snippet of info.. about Queen's - The Show Must Go On

Freddie Mercury, Queen's lead singer, was diagnosed with having Aids and this song was released weeks before he would eventully pass away because of Aids.
The song's lyrics were written with Mercury's condition in mind, and before the words just seemed like words but now so much more powerful if you know this.. Enjoy!

(the singer in the Video is not Mercury though.. it's Paul Rodgers..)

and the score isssssss

2008-03-31T11:28:00.003+08:00

so yesterday was the second last league game of the floorball season..
we were tied on points with 2 other teams and ranked 3rd in the standings due to goal difference..
we needed to score a substantial amount to ensure we have a chance of winning the title. (trust me.. when i say substantial, i mean a lot)..

the final game, we will be facing another title contender, one of those teams we're tied with on points... neither team will want anything but a win. and to win big. or the 3rd team would clinch the title. yes it is that drama lol.. even if we win, we may not get the title.. just pray..

so yesterday we needed the score to be something like 24-0 ... sounded a little crazy at first, and we were playing the SIM Blacks. our task was made a little easier when the Blacks turned up with only 7 outfield players, and then their goalie got injured midway putting them down to 6 outfield players... we had maybee 16?

final score was 35-2.. credit to the Blacks, even though they must have been shitfaced tired after the whole thing, they never gave up and still put a smile on their faces..

I DIDN'T SCORE! FCUK! i must have been the only one of the team without a goal lol.. oh well :( ... i got an assist though.. it's still a point.. a first-time drag past through the legs of a dinner a cross the face of goal to a teammate who needed only a tap in.. there's my point lol...

seriously they should give points to everyone who touchs the ball like maybe the last 3 players who make passes because they help create the goal too! for instance..

player A is a defender receives the ball, takes a shot which is blocked by the opposition, the ball rebounds back to player A.. he takes the ball to the right, running out to the flank and then down court.. he then runs slightly behind goal, passes against the board from behind and finds an open man who passes the ball in and someone scores..

i was player A hehehe.. i deserve a point for that one loool.. nah just playing.. as long as the team wins... most important thing..

okay i'm gonna be late for cage soccer... later yall

candleburnnnnn

2008-03-28T12:25:00.002+08:00

so tired.. going back to sleep in a bit.. had to wake up this whole week to send my bro to school.. thank god for car pool... for the next 2 weeks it's not my turn.. YESSSS! i love sleeping in..

just got up now again to do stupid IS Enrolment.. which for those of you who don't know, it's like opening a webpage at a certain time with hundreds or thousands of other students from the same poly who ar ein the same time slot.. and u get on the page 5 minutes before your slot.. and start refreshing refreshing.. nano-seconds count here.. a mini-click off would make the difference between getting into a completely crappy module like Effective Negotiation? (sounds interesting but i watched their trailer video and the lecturer couldn't convince me.. so i deem if the teacher isn't even effective and negotiation and convincing me to join his class.. FAILED!)

and an interesting module like Appreciating Artwork (which is not on my list for some F-de up reason.. maybe it's cause i'm already in an arts course.. but that's just stupid) or Mobile Robotics which is fun lol.. i mean what can be more fun then having 30% of you grade for the module be dependent on your lego model? lol so fun!

so i joined robotics.. hope it's fun.. and i don't have to wakey so early on this day too.. 10am first class isn't so bad *nod nod* then an hour break before something like Social Studies.. World Issues: A Singapore Perspective.. bleh..

hmmmmmm i'm hungry.. think i'll go eat something and not go back to bed..
lol oh oh.. like can you imagine one second your IBP film crew is short on story ideas.. and here comes the pitch less than 2 weeks away.. and then suddenly on one fateful night (last night), 3 of your group members, the Director, Producer and Cinematographer thought of the exact same story concept? is that Fate or What? looool

oh well.. going to discuss the story later with chiam.. this one sounds good.. hehehe

kk later people.. enjoy the candleburnnnn

movieeeeeesss

2008-03-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

k returned the 5 movies

1) Final Cut... 5/10 the film had a good central idea behind it, but failed to do anything spectacular. was a bad mixture of too many plots that don't have any strong link between them.. you could probably seperate those plots and make another 2 or 3 movies at least they'd be more focused.

2) Three Kings.. 6/10 a movie i remembered watching when i was in secondary school i think.. impressed me then, failed to impress me too now.. was alright, but didn't draw any OOoooss or Ahhhhs from me.. really average..

3) Schindler's List 8.5/10.. what more can i say.. this movie is good.

4) Munich 7.5/10.. a good watch... but at the end of the movie i struggle to feel for the character.. i don't really know him i find..

5) Dirty War 7.5/10.. for a film not widely known, it was pretty good.. an exploration of how terrorist could possibly go about detonating a "Dirty Bomb" in London.. and the effects if we are not ready for it..

kk new movies!

6) Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind ... finally got it...
7) Stranger Than Fiction.. been wanting to watch this one for awhile too
8) 16 Blocks.. this one i've seen before but kind of forgot how it went.. it impressed me the 1st time i saw it..
9)Tears of The Sun.. another Bruce Willisd movie i've been interested in seeing this one for awhile..
10) and Francis Ford Coppola's Apocalypse Now.. hope i didn't borrow the extended cut lol.. even though i think i did =X ..

i tried watching Michael Gondry's "Science of Sleep" but it failed to grasp my attention.. something about it just didn't do it for me lol..

wookay gonna go eat.. training at night later... apart from that nothing too spectacular..

FREAKING MOZZIES!

2008-03-24T12:12:00.002+08:00

as i was sleeping last night.. mozzies invaded my air-conditioned haven, and bit the living day lights out of me.. okay no i'm being overly dramatic.. they got me on my feet, and on my chest and near something which all guys' have.. yes.. commando mozzie attacks..

i have since sprayed the left over mozzie repellent from borneo all over myself...

liverpool lost 3-0 to man utd.. ah we'll try harder next time.. you win some, you lose some.. and hopefully you'll win somemore..

freaking class timetables are pissing me off because they gave me hopes of a good class only to jimble jamble and now i don't even know who's in my class lol.. we'll find out first week of school..

i can't wait for school to start again lol.. i'm so boreddddd.. i need a lifeee.. i'm like living for my weekends cause that's the only time i can get to see marie cause she's on attachment already..

this blog post is feeling very mono because i haven't had enough sleepp.. and strange enough i don't feel like i want to go back to bed now i'm already up.. oh well...

more random happenings

i've been ordering mcdonalds in hopes of winning the $10000 prize money so i can go back to borneo looool.. and then i'll invest the rest and hopefully by the time my body is breaking down, i'll have some money to live on... and of course some will go to charity.. (isn't that just so politically correct?) preferably one regarding children...

k i'm going to bed.. later when i get up i will go and return the VideoEzy movies and borrow another 5
hehehe
pretty soon i would have watched all the movies in the videooezy between punggol and sengkang.. some mall. forgot the name..

i want prata.. i want a slurpee.. i want to try a swanky franky.. i want ikea meatballs and poached salmon.. i want sushi buffet.. i want a mushroom swiss double meal upsize with an additional sundae pie.. i want dao huay... i want Choc Chip and Cookie Dough ice cream.. i want a nice cheese steak.. i want lobster and crab.. i want a smoothie.. i need to shut up and go to bed

keep holding on

2008-03-19T14:00:00.003+08:00

aight.. so in a bid to try and draw back some of my readers after my long absence, i'm trying to make my blog seem more lively again.. here's the song i can't get outta my head at the mo'..

am having lunch now, and probably going to watch Munich and if i have time before 5.30pm (which i doubt), watch another one of the movies i borrowed from Videoezy yesterday...

so i've already watched Schindler's List, and it's really impactful.. a good film yep yep.. i've heard Munich is better, so we'll see... ah steven spielberg man..
Close Encounters of the Third Kind, Amistad, Schindler's list.. omg man.. this guy is just amazing..

it's my mum's birthday tomorrow! :D
happy bday mummy dearest..

k gotta go.. and god is it raining buffalos and hippos outside lol.. later yall

it's been agess

2008-03-18T09:54:00.003+08:00

okay so i can't go to sleep cause of a stupid fucked up nightmare,
i'm awake, it's 10am and no one's online except dx..
and i'm here because i'm feeling bored and i haven't blogged in awhile so i figured.. why not.

anyways.. my killer tan from borneo is peeling off.. from my shoulder and upper back.. and upper arms.. but the rest of my body looks good.. lol.. I WANNA GO BACk!
I'm having trouble readjusting back to normal life cause i've found something better... anyway.. dun wanna get all soppy and mushy here..

i'm saving up and looking forward to the next trip.. where i'm gonna get my Scuba license.. wooo awesomeeee..

so the grades... i did pretty okay.. i've got ADs (oh i'm such a showoff =P), a B+, 2 Bs, and a C+ for the most useless of all possible modules.. "Serious Fun with E-Gaming" looool.. freaking stupid module...

but the most unexpected thing was AD-ing of all things Computer Graphics... O_O
that just doesn't make sense to me lol.. so i figured it must be me headbanging in the background of our project to the power rangers theme song, while doing the animation and rigging.. lol.. not one of my better moments... ah stop judging lah.. i have the right to stupid moments like everyone else.. even though this was a really stupid one lol...

i'd like to get a higher grade for Drama Pro.. but i'm thinking the 2nd project fucked up really bad.. not sure if i wanna fight for it.. cause my gpa is slightly under 3.5 now.. and i'm trying to get it to 3.5.. ah don't know.. we'll see...

i'm really busy now because i'm (well supposedly derrick and i) are supposed to be the liasons between the Borneo projects and some Asian Digital Storytelling Festival in septemeber... so we've got tons to prepare.. but derrick needs to find us some additional photos, and since my photography isn't that amazing, nevermind i'll stay home and do the paperwork..
i just wrote a 12 page manual on how to get the best out of iMovie and transfer it to Final Cut for subtitling.. due to some issues with subtitles not being able to be seen... took me 3 hours.. and i didn't bother doing anything else the rest of the day yesterday lol...i've worked enough for 1 day i thought... lol.. anyways..

i don't wanna work.. i don't wana wanna wanna work lol.. i'm thinking as much as you know it'd be good to gain experience? fuck that... i'm going to NS in a year's time.. i'm not gonna get any more time from my youth cause i'm fucking 19 going on 20.. somehow you feel old when u feel u're arriving to the magical Vingt Et Un... god mann.. i wanna enjoy what's left of my youth lol yes..

okay my plans for todayyyy.. probably go borrow movies from VideoEzy in sengkang... i wanna watch Eternal Sunshine.. cause i still haven't seen it.. and derrick's version he brought to borneo is in french.. that's like.. Oh look it's Jim Carrey... why the fuck is his VoiceOver in French? O.O ... i remember i wanna get this other movie.. it's quite old.. but i can't remember now.. hmmmmmmm

ah fuck i'll just go and see... then i'll buy Ruffles and all that and have myself a mini movie mara...

AUGUST RUSH IS SO BAD! FUCK IMDB it just lost it's street Cred.. THAT MOVIE SUCKS... fucking horrible storytelling and cheesey plots, the music and pretty well known actors are all that tries to save it from committing suicide but it still does in the end.. fuck man... it's Rotten Tomatoes from now on.. it had a 34% good comment percentage.. and was rated really low upon 10 i think...

yes so August Rush sucks.. please don't watch it unless u want to go insane like i did...

Be Kind Rewind coming out on Thursday... probably going to watch with the beautiful Borneo people.. becoming really close to this bunch of year 1s.. makes me feel old thinking about it lol.. (well technically they're year 2s now..) ah whatever...

Maybe i'll force them to watch Dr Seuss' Horton hears a Who.. hahah so funny.. love how it's so over the top.. but SOMEONE (this someone probably doesn't read my blog.. ah well we'll get the message to her.. FAT! the someone's your roommate in borneo).. yes SOMEONE doesn't like cartoons.. O.O .. i dunno.. i'm going to bring a roll of gaffer tape.. just in case i have to do anything drastic... maybe i'll buy a replica of the apparatus they used to keep the guy's eyes open in Clockwork Orange.. looool.. oh so brutal...

oh yes i remember now.. i wanna watch This Is Spinal Tap.. lol.. not sure if videoezy has it.. thank you dx for reminding me.. freaking hilarious..

"Stonehenge! Where the demons dwell! Where the banshees live and they do live well!"

that movie is just off the hook lol..

and maybe i'll borrow other stuff too..

i'm trying to preform the Stonehenge celtic feeling guitar solo.. fuck god (okay i take it back.. sorry big guy! don't zap me) it's tough.... hard as the rocks of stonehenge itself..

hmmm i've been learning to play Aire by Johann Sebastian or something i dunno.. very much to the pleasure of Fat lol..

also i've been learning to play Minuet.. which reminds me of this really old cartoon revolving around this rabbit who if he ran really quick he changed into a costume of red,white and blue.. and he saves the world or something to that dramatic extent...

k i'm done.. i'll post again in the distant future...

evil thoughts

2008-03-02T13:51:00.002+08:00

i feel happy when it rains for some reason..
because it makes everything cool and nice and everything..
but the thought of Hastari (JI leader who escaped) freezing in the woods, soaked from head to toe is comforting lol..
even if i know he's probably already found shelter..
the thought of a terrorist trying to hide it out in the woods for a few days, and it's rained the psat few days.. it's cold, wet, he probably doesn't have any food unless he kills a colugo, is just comforting lol..

or maybe they can't find him because a reticulated python got to him XD ... i know we don't see many.. but hey if they can find a 7metre long python in a longkang in Bukit Gombak (was it?) a couple of years ago, they can find a bigger one somewhere in the forest.

or his feet got stung by scorpions? lol.. bitten by snakes, ants, mosquitos lol even if he does make it out alive he probably has a very serious case of denghi hurhur...

or he accidentally stumbles into the zoo's tiger/lion/crocodile enclosure? hurhur.. or night safari's leopards and shite.. my god.. good luck mr.kastari!

apart from that, just got back from beach road, the first Deuter i bought was too small... so i bought another one double the size.. and it's looking extremely promising at the moment hurhur.. packed all my clothes in.. and the bag's only half full hahaha.. talk about overkill.. but i have my boots to go in, 1 pair of normal shoes and a pair of slippers.. a towel, hmm.. some toothbrush and shampooo.. i don't think i'll bring a shaver, i'll just shave tonight thank god my moustachio doesn't grow back that fast yet... mm gonna go eat.. still have a floorball game later at night.. don't think i'll be able to meet marie.. cause i'll still be in jurong when she arrives at the airport.. we'll see..

au-revoir!

i don't feel so safe anymore

2008-02-28T21:25:00.002+08:00

as safe as singapore is, after loopholes in our security systems have been exploited recently, i'm truly questioning how safe we are... but that's the thing.. sometimes mistakes have to be made for these loopholes to be discovered and appropriate measures put in place to counter them.. but what if those mistakes cost lives?

i fully appreciate how fast and swift security forces act here once they realise something is a miss... 1 recent instance and 1 current one are the Guard who ran off guard duty with live rounds, and the current one with the JI leader in Singapore escaping..

they say he was in a waiting room, waiting to meet with his family when he asked to go to the toilet.. he then fled from the toilet or something like that.. what i seriously question is how on earth can the Most Wanted or maybe by then we had already caught him? so he's not so important anymore? until he escapes? how can there be no guard realizing he's escaped! giving him enough time to make a get away, even though he's walking with a limp, and still now after the vital initial 24 hours have gone by, still no sign of him they say... he obviously had quite a bit of time, before any guard realized he was gone.. that just should not happen..

i'm young, i probably don't know anything but let's analyze the situation.. would ensuring there is always at least 1 guard assigned to dangerous individuals be more troublesome and costly, compared to having to mobilize hundreds of military personnel?

for me the answer is simple, assign a guard to follow them whereever they go... there should be absolutely no chance give for these individuals to escape..

if he does make it out of the country, and manage to plan and carry out a successful attack resulting in the deaths of many, and damage in all aspects that would cost millions, would assigning a permanent guard look so costly or troublesome now?
go figure yeah?

but i don't know how the military works..
so i don't know if this is viable.. but it looks and sounds good to me...

it's just like playing defence..
and you're forced between 2 decisions..
you're being closed down by 2 men.. you are the last player on your team.. if they win the ball, they will almost surely score.. would you play it safe, clear the ball out at the cost of having to pull everyone back, but having time to do so or, try to put it up to the other players, or dribble out.. risk losing possesion, with high chance of being caught on the counter and losing a goal...

it's simple you play safe.. that's what we should be doing..
better be safe the be sorry right? everyone knows this, but do we jsut think of it as a common phrase that doesn't mean anything?

music music

2008-02-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

pause the player below first before you listen to this one..
it's a Singaporean band called The Great Spy Experiment..
i have to admit the tune is quite good.. lyrics average meaning wise..
but the tune especially the bass slight keyboard behind sounds very much like
Muse - Starlight, though they've still got nothing on Muse though... it's a start *nod*

here's that song by Muse too

Give give giveeeee

2008-02-25T11:49:00.000+08:00

Impossible is Nothing

2008-02-22T13:40:00.003+08:00

*random* i love Adidas =D...

so when i saw this

omg! wooo! damn good! i want those shoes hahahah..
ah awesome possum..

AND I LOVE THIS lol i so wanna watch this movie lol...

looooooooooool so awesome haha

a quickie

2008-02-22T00:26:00.004+08:00

k so seeing as i don't think i'll have time to blog tmr i'm gonna do it today...

so tmr gonna go out with marie for her little belated bday party.. they're probably gona go clubbing and have a good time and i'm gonna go for a bit but can't stay too long cause i've got another big game on saturday... if you thought last week's was big, this one is bigger.. so here's a little visual for u people

k so that's the current standings.. the top 4 teams in the league now.
after our win against the merahans we've moved up to 3rd and still keeping a close eye on the top 2..
so this saturday we're playing against the Red Flamingos currently ranked 2nd.. they're a really young squad.. they've got tons of national team players.. gonna be another really tough game..
my body feels ready for the challenge, all nice and rested from the crazy monday and tuesday workouts and i'm feeling confident with how i'm playing..

just gotta stay focused *nod*
game's at noon on saturday at the Jurong West Sports Hall which is F***ING FAR! HELLO! mY LORD... i'm freaking driving past school on the highway and adding another like 10 or so kilometres to the journey? WTF?! it's quite bloody ridiculous how far away it is... like 25 minute car ride without that much traffic.. oh god..

so gonna do my carbo loading tmr..
have to pick up marie's vday gift just havent had time to do so.. hope the place still kept the thing.. might have to find something pink.. cause that's the dress code -.-" lol.. maybe a small insignificant ribbon will do.. and then gonna get my hair cut.. god it looks like birds live in it.. but lol that's sort of my trademark thick ass bushy hair... but i can't deal with it in my face and freaking like trapping heat god.. lol

k that's pretty much it think i'm gonna go turn in for the night.. good night people
(i seriously think most fsv students don't belong to the singapore timezone.. cause i nearly have a full fsv contact list online lol.. what the heck is up with that?!)
creatures of the night *nod nod*..

oh and fsv bbq this sunday.. sounds like it's gonna be funn.. might have a beer but that's bout it cause i wanna drive back home.. need to be in school the next day to help out with drama production editing.. and then Borneo trip meeting after that my god leaving on the 4th of march.. seems so freaking soon! I HAVEN'T PACKED ANYTHING O.O .. i haven't bought any supplies! like like like! i dunno.. insect repellant? lol whatever lah..

kk 2nd time.. good night! creatures of the night!
(raaa!!! the sun god! *random*)

for the broken hearts

2008-02-21T12:24:00.002+08:00

pour vous..

the first would kill you already..

2008-02-21T11:05:00.002+08:00

k so i thought up a short film last night.. i don't know it's kind of abstractish at least that's what i'm going for (or trying to hehe).. so basically yesterday i saw something on the streets that made me think of this..
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La Rouge? ou Moi?

quicksand.. curious thing...
further around avoid it?
no it goes to far around..
what's so important on the other side?
what's so different on both sides?
don't know..
La Rouge is what drives him..
and that fuels him into literally taking the first step into a downward spiral..
into quicksand..
tossing away a promise, a bond, the other half thinking there is no consequence,
before stepping forward, feeling brave.. feeling new and free.. but why won't his feet lift anymore?
struggle?
how bad do you want to get to the other side..
you think La Rouge will come and get you?
La Rouge just stands there..
"save me!"
No, no.. you are no different than any other to La Rouge..
A painful realization hits but does he want to see this?
this obvious and simple task of coming to terms with the truth?
that hard?
the air's nearly gone,
back where you left it, the other half seems like it's not there to save you either..
he cries..
he screams..
but to what effect?
this is your punishment..
karma..
simplicity of one decision forcing you into another?
no it was your decision, your Weakness that made you continue..
and you cower in fear as the last moments arrive.. the sun is setting..
you see others like you led adrift by La Rouge..
ah wrong.. you're wrong again you led yourself adrift..
La Rouge just stands there..
how do you save yourself?
what are you saving yourself from?
think quick as the ice comes in to freeze you in thought and your punishment forever..
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oo

2008-02-19T15:36:00.000+08:00

this is pretty cool

wee!

2008-02-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

okay! so tons of good stuff happening.. i'm still to lazy to upload that song though.. anyways

we won our game on saturday! final score Moosemen 10 - Merahans 5..

it wasn't an easy game... referees were a little out of it, but it's hard to ref i know too well.. which is why i don't like ref-ing anymore.. unless they hike up the ref pay to like $50 a match.. then maybe.. but $20 to be put in such a pressurising job is the same as if someone asked you to do their whole Production Planning Folder for $20... a simple 2 word answer.. NO WAY! or if jj aka JiJik aka JJ-Double-J-Joe-Jackson would say, "FUCK YOU OKAY?" lol

yeah so was a tough game.. i think i played well ^^.. very physical too.. i guess the merahans got frustrated after awhile and started to rough it up a bit.. which for a moment or 2 got on our nerves but we managed to calm down thankfully... the merahans didn't play to their usual high standards for some reason i'm not too sure why.. but it was still a tough game.. so kudos to them yep yep..

even though one of them did push me in the back and then i yelled to the ref for the foul, and eventually got the freehit, he told me to shut up when really it's not my fault lol.. YOU FREAKING PUSHED ME! WTF?! anyways.. i'd do the same looool.. it's all in the game...

production planning folder is complete! oh my god i thank xiuqi and calvin for their help... i thank myself earlier in the year when i chose 20 scenes from "Castaway" hehehe all of which were on the islands.. and he's all by his lonesome... so not much props, or actors.. just Tom Hanks and his coconuts hurhur..

i didn't think i'd get it done but i got pro plan (thx to xiuqi and calvin) done in 4 hours! :D how awesome is that?! and it then took me another 2 and a half hours to print! and an hour to prepare everything nicely.. the printing was the most F-ed up! like my poor old HP printer was working it's butt off.. printing non-stop man! and still it took so long.. of course it didn't help i kept being a blur bodoh and printnig wrong stuff but lol.. still the stack of paper that accumulated in my file later was scary O.O... my god.. *shakes head*...

anyways i promised my bro i'd help him with the laundry.. haha i've forgotten bout him.. he's gonna be all grudgy bout it now... gotta go..

later people!

Shut Out!

2008-02-16T00:43:00.003+08:00

k.. promised i'd update and add the song.. but not today..
just finished packing all my floorball stuff, final bends to my new blade and testing it out, all in preparation for tomorrow's big game.. like HUGE...

i'm expecting to be absolutely worn out after it..
Moosemen (that's us :D) VS Merahan Knights

it's going to be a real tough game, i really can't stop emphasizing that.. and the importance of the game can be seen in the league table.

with 4 games already played, and the top 4 teams leading the pack all coming away with maximum points, tied with 12 points... the only thing separating would be goal difference...

we, the Moose are in 4th, just behind, and the Knights in 3rd..
this will be one of the major deciding games that'll either demolish a team's title hopes, or push them on further in our quest for it... at the end of the day, only one outcome is good enough.. a win...

dropping points at this point, simply isn't an option...
we as the reigning champions have a point to prove even though we've lost several of our key players.. the lack of quality in our past few games is another incentive for us to need kick some serious ass...

i'm kinda nervous... we know they've got a seriously wicked offense line-up... we can see it in the number of goals they've already slotted into the net so far this season.. and me as a defender, speaking on behalf all the moose, need to be absolutely air tight.. nothing goes in... ZIP...

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apart from floorball, CG done, lol.. i love animating hurhur.. giving life to inanimate objects through their actions is just so enjoyable...

production planning to complete by monday 9am, but that'll have to wait...
wanna be fully focused for tomorrow's game (which is btw @ NOON @ the new Jurong West Sports Complex)...

i'm gonna go sleep.. need to get up early.. i've the car.. so Breakfast very important... i nearly threw up the 2nd game cause i ate so close to the game... my god.. not good...
need to get the mind and body up to speed... 1st game with the BIG 3 or 4 as they say (http://www.novusaum.com , http://www.floorballx.com ) lol i feel like i'm advertising... but yeah

HUGEEEE!

i'm gonna smack myself.. get the nerves out.. go down, get myself settled.. play my heart out.. and hopefully we'll come out on top.. yeaap...

wish us luck...

night people!
(i know i said "Other than floorball" and still came back to it lol.. ah what you gonna do sue me? =P)

Baby It's Cold Outside :)

2008-02-12T16:02:00.000+08:00

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. :)

(supposed to be a song here.. but internet's so slow for some reason can't get it up.. will do it later..)

been real busy of late.. but hols coming.. so i just might update soon hurhur..
ta..

built to last..

2008-01-20T02:31:00.000+08:00

so i've been searching high and low for this song.. but finally tonight after i came home from meeting marie.. which was 2am.. 98.7fm played it and i took down some lyrics.. and found the song.. hurhur enjoy people..

get a muzzle man.. for yourself....

2008-01-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

i love it when idiots try to salvage their situation. you know make themselves seem like they're the one's that are right all along..

so i took this off some donkey's blog.. (sue me).. what don't steal anything of your blog? cause it's private? get a written diary... as you said.. it's the INTERENET! it's PUBLIC! i'm not stealing any of your intellectual bullshit (oh yes i'm giving you the benefit of the doubt that you are intellectual.. even if only a little bit..)

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"quite pissed at the way many things are being done...
in school mostly....
i mean... how much effort does it take for someone to actually inform another about the exact shooting dates?
how difficult is it for one to send a simple schedule to all?
EMAILs people... EMAIL!!!... and when emailing, CC to EVERYONE else!
how difficult is that?.. seriously...
ok... emails are kinda tough because they need the internet and everything
thats an excuse for starters...because now, you have internet everywhere!
and what about SMS?... calling?...
have you people every heard of the word COMMUNICATION?
how is it that people are being left out of the loop of updates and confirmed shooting timings?
seriously....
oh and one more thing... though i'm very sure no one is ever gonna read this anyhow...

SCHOOL IS NOT MY FIRST PRIORITY.
interpret that sentence in whichever way that you want to.
it doesn't really bother me anymore.
does it seem as though i'm bothered by the fact that everyone is talking bad about me?
does it? i can't really be bothered...
because if you cant be bothered about getting to know a person (at all), then who do you really thing you are to judge anyone at all?
brains people... and stop jumping to conclusions...
has it ever occurred to you that the lot of you in my batch... (batch, not cohort).. are the only ones who are having problems with me?
have you EVER thought of that?
i've got no problems with ANYONE ELSE! whats up with that?
i've got no problems with the other batch... at least those that i know...
i've got no problems when working in my church
i've got no problems working with external companies and directors!
to speak of which, i get along very well with them... being in charge of the Sound and Lights and Media for one...
so what the fuck is wrong with the whole lot of you?
and the one thing that really, really pisses me off....
is that some people are actually coming to conclusions about my working attitude
not because they've worked with me before, but because of what they hear other people say...
thats not just bullshit, that unprofessional...
integrity please people...
i am so wasting my time in school right now.....
of course i'm learning things.... but though its supposedly the best in SG's Polytechnics, its still not good enough for me...
so fucking get this inside your head...
school is not my first priority... never was, never will... not until it caters to my needs....

fuckers..."

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does anyone think? "QUIT SCHOOL YOU FUCKING MORON AND STOP BEING A DEAD WEIGHT, PULLING ANY GROUP YOU WORK WITH DOWN?!"
Wanna know why we think you're shite? it's the same you don't get your schoolwork done right.. "I'm too good for school" *whiney ass voice*..
Well mr. smarty pants.. why don't you leave and just wait till school actually gets better and it appeals to you huh?
jumping to conclusions?! WOAH WOAH!!!!!
1st)Take a step back..
2nd) Look at the stupid bullcrap you type on your blog, and reflect on the things you;ve done a little,
3rd) Then come talk about how we can't jump to conclusions about your work attitude..

no can't see it man? how about this

1) Your work? isn't that good.. we're all in school? to learn and get good at what we learn.. you're just here to get your diploma.. so forgive us for not feeling your (I JUST WANNA BORDERLINE IT AND GET MY DIPLOMA... doing work well doesn't matter to me in here!) Well sorry.. we all know you've had "5 years of working with video" and all that jazz... so it seems you've already got your portfolio or whatever..
WAKE UP AND SMELL THE ROSES DUMBASS! Most of us, still need that portfolio.. so sorry for being so passionate in school, trying to get our work to the top most level...

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"anyway
realised that i'm like drowning in school work, because i just reformatted my com again
got Leopard into my com
and need to redo all my work
got a pitch next week of which NOTHING has been done
have shoots that i don't get along with anyone at all.
amazing right?
life is so wonderful
then again, what am i doing in FSV?"

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I quote "WHAT AM I DOING IN FSV?"
O.O

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"and i've lost my passion for school... don't get it wrong...

i still love filmmaking, editing, sound design, LIVE sound, chorus board and what have you from the media industry...
but i jus hate the idea of going to school altogether.... hate the homework, the academics... the paperwork...

i mean.... for some reason, everyone else's (other ppl in FSV) seem to only revolve around school and their projects and project meetings and all... which
most of the time i cant attend... either because its on a weekend... or i'm having some other class at that time...
and for the whole day you can just stay in school?.. boring...
ok, staying in school's fine... but to slack?... i rather wanna do something worth while like shooting something late if i have to...
otherwise, i just find it a total waste of time.

even on the weekends... must have this project done, have that assignment done... wth?
your WHOLE life is about school?... sucks right?
like.. don't you have a life outside... i for one need to break from school every 6 hours.... i cant stand having to look at school for 6 hours at a time.. its just torturous...
maybe its just the academics...
but say it was 8 hours of studio workshops and hand-on...i'm all for it man...
or maybe its the people in there as well... i mean... half my batch are... "the guys".. the ones who have IBP as their one and only choice.. the ones with loud voices... the ones who always hang out together.. and if they have the chance, they'll probably get wasted.
and of course, there is always the one with the endless string of vulgarities and sexual language...
even the lecturers find that irriating...
from now on, i'll just shut up, eat alone, hang out alone and all....

oh... and i remember.. someone asked me whether they could trust me...
i dunno what they made out of that, but i've got a feeling its kinda negative..
meaning, they dun think they can trust me...
oh wells... the beauty of having a outside world.

hate school

anyway,
just realise some lecturers have weird personalities....
like.. don't keep to their word and all
integrity people... integrity"

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lol we don't need lives eh?
look mr.iamsobadassiwannabe50cent.. let's face the facts here... some of us just aren't as lazy as your dumbass.. so before you say we don't have lives, actually do your research.. how did you do in Writ Comm huh? i'm sure you learnt to do research before saying bullshit...

and i just love this part.. "half my batch are... "the guys".. the one who have IBP as their one and only choice.."

what's wrong with that? maybe some of us know what we wanna do already and have planned to do attachments during the holidays.. so yeah.. "IBP as their one and only choice" (do your research... before you try to make us seem like something we're not hmm?)

let us continue.. "the ones who have IBP as their one and only choice.. the ones with loud voices... the ones who always hang out together.. and if they have the chance, they'll probably get wasted"

WOAH WOAH! what the hell was that?! "they'll probably get wasted"?
let's take note of some key points...

1) he said we're shouldn't judge him till we know him, and so what we're doing is more or less jumping to conclusions...
2) most of the stuff he's saying? can anyone spell JUDGEMENTAL?
3) he doesn't know us.. like we don't know him...

so why in hell does he feel that he can jump to conclusions as well?
i don't know... that's the irony of it is it not? people say bad things about what people do.. and they do it themselves...

and all this talking about all the people even hitting at lecturers more just to give you a reason to hate school more? isn't working..
it isn't consistent with the fact that most of the students.. past, and present kinda like some of them..

i feel i've said enough.. there's tons more to it.. but yeah... basically.. some donkeys don't know when to shut up...

unawaresss..

2008-01-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

average day back at school.. didn't get to meet coton bouton though :/
ah well..

anyways showed my lecturer the american edit.. finally can do my final cut.. next thursday is my self-assigned deadline *nod*.. touching up on the last 3 or 4 little parts that need tweaking, then hammering all the audio down.. before printing the poor bugger onto the final dvd that'll make the long lonely journey to the U.S. of A...

2 scripts due within the next 2 weeks.. An Orange Payback the mandarin orange thingum which i have to change the ending *nod*... already in my head.. so no problem... the 10 page 3 act script which i've done research for.. and the one i've to start writing this weekend...

hopefully i can see coton bouton vendredi ouiii.. pour dine... ahhhhhhh...
this is what it feels like lol.. such a weirdish like.. mixish (hard to explainish) but really really nice feeling haha ^^...

okay.. I Am Legend? awesome *nod*.. do i want to watch it again in cinemas? *nod*
another nice one coming out soon is Cloverfield.. looks extremely interesting..
and The Mist by Stephen King and if i'm not wrong Frank Darabont (might have spelt wrong).. and there's this french comedy coming out.. only in The Picturehouse Cathay.. not too sure when.. but it looks pretty good *nod*.. hmm another intriguing one i won't be able to watch legally (muaha has it ever stopped me? =X) is this one called This Film Has Yet To Be (R)ATED... i think... some sort of realish cinema i think.. but this one is R21.. there's another funky one that's already out i wanna catch.. Across The Universe.. not too sure what that's about.. think it's some romance story? *shrug*.. so many good movies.. so little time...

tomorrow's another long day.. Production Planning.. which i haven't been doing a lot of, lol.. but i've finished the budget so i don't know.. probably get started on all my other made-up paperwork hurr.. and then Drama Production.. not sure what's gonna happen but i think we're reviewing our previous footages.. ahwelll.. it's gotta come out sometime lol..

okay think i'm off to bed.. bonne nuit...

my guiding light, heaven's gift to me ^^

2008-01-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

never never never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever.. alone ever again..

i took away the old angry post.. because that just isn't how i'm feeling.. i've got things to be happy about :) .... and i dedicate this next one to this special someone.. to this beautiful someone... to me at least.. ^^

school again tmr.. but no.. i'm not bothered.. not bothered at all...

Greenpeace

2007-12-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

my scriptwriting 3-act script is based on the anti-whaling efforts of a non-profit organization called Greenpeace.

it was one of those things where, i saw something and really wanted to do something about. I saw how they slaughtered whales, and read many articles...

and seeing as Japan, is one of only 2 countries that are still whaling in the world, something like this coming from a Japanese artist, really gives me a sense of hope that eventually, there won't be anything like this anymore..

Greenpeace really does a lot. And really, there's a lot of defending to be done.
so if you feel kind of interested you can visit their webby here
http://www.greenpeace.org/international/

wookayyy back to research for my script...

earth hour...

2007-12-30T14:09:00.000+08:00

this is kinda interestingg... ouiiiiiiiiiiii

http://www.earthhour.org/

sighh

2007-12-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes we think we get it hard.. and we ask ourselves why the heck were we put into these bodies.. put into these situations..
and we whine.. and moan about our stupid flawed lives..

but seriously.. it's not till you hear first hand.. of someone else's story.. someone who's had it worse than you.. that you understand how damn blessed you are...

i feel selfish..

my throat's dry and i feel like i'm about to cry.. but not for myself for the first time in my selfish life.. these tears belong to someone else..

i wanted to see.. something that's different

2007-12-28T14:20:00.000+08:00

Tell myself, on the ride home.
Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on, like it's all I have.
Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say.
And you, find it hard to care.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Got this way, upfront but never true.
God I'm wrong, it's just the way I am.
Crashing down, any chance you hear.
Caving in, any chance that you, could see inside of me.
And I don't know what to say, It's fine.
This isn't Hollywood.
So fine, getting in your way.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

I'm taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.
Taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Something that's different
Something that's different

ready?

2007-12-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

I... Am... Bored...

^^

2007-12-27T03:47:00.000+08:00

kitty is really happy today hurhur..
i wouldn't mind if i just dropped dead now, because i'd die a happy kitty :D

Good night people!

mao's hen theory :P (Rated NC-16, for slightly disturbing content (to most asian people)

2007-12-25T14:49:00.000+08:00

okay this is kinda like.. up to you if you think it's true or not.. but i think there's some logic in it hur..

basically.. don't you think more people are more likely to "Do It" (let's just call it Nike (prounounced "Nick")... cause Nike in french means "Do That Kinky Thing usually with a guy and girl, but you know what ever gets it up for you" *shrug*.. okay so...

Don't you think people are more likely to "Nike" if they're in a good mood?
I mean who "Nikes" when they're like angry or shit? that's kinda like angry "Nike".. kinda disturbing.. (maybe why some people like it rough =X)

Anyway, yeah.. i mean you'd think people are more likely to "Nike" if they're happier! in a good mood! and when is it that most (not all), people are in a good mood?
THE MAJOR HOLIDAYS! DUHHH!

So let's use Christmas as an example, since u know it's Christmas time and all...
How long does it take for a baby (usually) to get fully developed and enter this world? technically 9 months.. unless you know.. someone's in a hurry or something.. so that'd mean that a fair slight bit more of people are born around September or there abouts, maybe eating into October, or if you're in a hurry late August..

this is not a proven theory.. but go find out yourself.. how many people you know that are born around this time... and check too if their family celebrates christmas, or had some sort of happy thingum going the christmas that the tadpole and squash ball came together and created "LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" (okay just playing)..

okay.. then there's chinese new year.. which is like chinese u know, i don't know maybe it's auspicious to "Nike" around this time you know.. maybe with like mandarin oranges and angpaos everywhere, maybe a "rubber" with like the chinese character upside down thing? and in red.. i don't know *wink*..

so if chinese new year comes february-ish or there abouts.. people would be born arounddd... ehhhh depends.. i'm not good with the chinese calender.. but more around October, November and December yeah? or in some cases maybe like later in early January *nod* (Oh my god i know what my parents were doing chinese new year 18 and a half years ago O.O ... Okay nevermind BAD THOUGHT! *kicks it out of his head*)

so technically speaking, people would just feel you know technically more ermm.. "Thorny" (without the T.. because u know.. i dun wana disturb the extremely conservative asian people who find Sex is a sorta.. not a topic lol..

"Omg! He's talking about! O.O ... *raises eyebrows*.. you know! *Raises eyebrows* O.O.. *Raises eyebrows and sorta yanks head to right*.. you know! that thinggg.. (if i'm not wrong), god said something like "Go Forth And Create""

(i think i heard that from Noah's Ark.. the old version.. if i'm wrong, i mean no offence you know.. so sorry to the people who may have just found that comment insulting *nod*.. truly am)

yeah okay back to topic.. so people would be partying, like happy, good food, presents, old friends, mandarin oranges, turkey (isn't that thanksgiving? =O), like you.. happy times, and if you're really really happy, and there's someone you really love somewhere out there, or you just ate like a bunch of oysters during the evening buffet, and you just feel naturally "Thorny", you're gonna give your mate that look... like you know the naughtier version of this O.o... and some lucky people may actually "get it on" in view of the happy mood and spirit...

so this would mean you know what people's parents were doing you know, sorta thing.. if they're born around this time.. lol...

OF COURSE!
there're the other people.. the ones who like to plan.. like PLANNNNN.. and some might like a child during Christmas (and torture themselves till christmas day?)

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INT. HOSPITAL WARD - DAY - CHRISTMAS EVE

A woman, JUDY, in labour, doing her huffing and puffing on her hospital bed looks like she's struggling. Her husband, PATRICK STARFISH (or maybe not even her husband :O hahaha you never do know), sits beside her and holds her hand. A nurse, NURSE PENELOPE is also in the room.

NURSE PENELOPE
Breathe, IN...... OUT... IN ... OUT....
it'll be over soon...

Nurse Penelope gives Judy a comforting look, but almost instantly is taken aback by how aggresive Judy's expression is (i mean she has the right too technically.. she's freaking about to give birth? HELLO?!).

JUDY
What time isit? How long till midnIGHT?!
I AM NOT HAVING THIS BABY ON CHRISTMAS EVE!
WE PLANNED IT! 9 months to the day!
CHRISTMAS!

Judy throws Patrick Starfish a stare like it's his fault for being a little too efficient in bed.

NURSE PENELOPE
Well sorry mdm.. but the only way you're having
this baby on christmas is if you were in like..
New Zealand or Paupau New Guinea.. you know?
Cause of the time zone and everything......

Nurse Penelope continues rattling off in her own little geography world, as Judy suddenly looks like she's got an idea..

JUDY
I KNOW!

She yells and makes both Patrick Starfish and Nurse Penelope jump.

JUDY (Cont'd)
WE'LL FLY TO NEW ZEALAND! AND HAVE THE BABY THERE!

NURSE PENELOPE
Yeah.. what i said..
But sorry, you're not leaving this bed..
Or i'd lose my job... So yeah..
Over My Dead Body...

A slightly determined, twisted sadistic smile appears on Judy's face as Nurse Penelope goes back to checking the numbers on her clipboard. Patrick Starfish looks a little worried from Judy then to Nurse Penelope but by the time it dawned on him, it was already to late.
Judy had already reached out for a tranqualizer injection (that just happened to be there on the table HHAHA.. so convenient for the writer) on the table and STABS it with brutal force into Nurse Penelope.
Nurse Penelope let's out a slight moan of anguish, but the sedative is so strong, that she knocks out almost seconds after that, falling in an awkward position on the floor.

PATRICK STARFISH
WHAT THE?!

JUDY
SILENCE! I KILL YOU! (HAHAHAHHAHAHA)
NOW GET ME OUT OF THIS BED YOU INFIDEL!
WE'RE GOING TO THE AIRPORT

INT. HOSPITAL WARD - NIGHT - CHRISTMAS EVE

NURSE LAYLA, speaks to Judy and Patrick Starfish in a thick Kiwi accent.

NURSE LAYLA
Okay so we're gonna move ya over into
surgery now mates.
ALRIGHT! LET'S MOVE EM!

Nurse Layla yells and almost immediately a bunch of other nurses appear and begin wheeling Judy to surgery...

JUDY
WAIT! WHAT TIME IS IT?! WHAT TIME IS IT?!

The Nurses seem not to hear her.

PATRICK STARFISH
11.20pm Baby!

Patrick star yells.

JUDY
I AM NOT HAVING THIS BABY UNTIL MIDNIGHT! YOU HEARRAAAAARHG!

Judy's water has just broken.

They wheel her into surgery.

INT. SURGERY ROOM - NIGHT

A group of doctors and nurses are gathered around Judy helping her through labor. Judy gives a final fatigued moan of agony as she pushes again. The cry of a baby breaks the monotonous beeping of the life support machines.

DOCTOR
It's a BOY!

A nurse comes over with a blue cloth and wraps the newborn in it, before passing him to Judy.
The newborn with big googly eyes O.O looks curiously at Judy, and feels at ease.

JUDY
Hellooo youuuu... helloooo.. Daddy's on
the floor but he'll be up in a minute..
Hi...

Judy plays with her little baby.

DOCTOR
Time of birth 11:59PM, 24th December.

JUDY
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-THE END-
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hurhurhur.. okay i'm tired from all the typing.. though i have more to say... so look our for Mao's Hen Theory Part 2 :P

(again this was not meant to insult anyone, and if i did, i hope you'll forgive me)

it's that boring time of yearrr..

2007-12-24T16:18:00.001+08:00

lol to most people, christmas is a good time..
like time for god, family and friends, booze, food, more booze, late night chitter chatter, presents, some singing, a little more booze or just going overseas for a wee vacation

but then there are a few who really don't have that much to do on christmas..
it's a public holiday so you're not gonna leave your house and go face the stampede awaiting everywhere...
you aren't that rich so you're not gonna spend money to get tickets to go overseas and fall into the traps travel agencies set up with their "Christmas Specials"..
your other possible friends are busy with getting together with their other friends and that leaves only a few of you which makes it kinda boring so you just kinda give up on planning that awesome party you guys were planning to have... (like a movie, there's nothing more depressing than a low turn out..)
your SCV box decides it's a good time to die (Hey! It's the holidays! :D) and you can't watch holiday TV till after holidays when repairmen begin recovering from their hang overs

so what do you do when you're faced with a situation like this? where the world comes to a standstill and you really are left with nothing but these few choices,

1) you go play the XBox your friend (dexian) left in your house because it's mad to bring it back to jurong east from yio chu kang...
(then again, you're not that much of a gamer anymore and not that much of a console person)..
2) you decide to watch Transformers with Michael Bay's commentary... for 3 hours.. (but hey i just did that, it's only 4.30pm now.. so what? watch it again? there's only so many times you can watch Megan Fox do her thing on a large screen and go "wooooooooo!".. it sorta becomes like O.O... then O.o.. then o.o.. then -.-.. then -.-" then -.-Zzzzzzzz....) but dun get me wrong Megan Fox is sizzling *nod*
3) you decide to look at the movies you have at home and realize u don't feel like watching any of them lol.. so you think "Hey Maybe i'll watch Silence of The Lambs since i borrowed it from Video Ezy.." but you realize how easily afraid you get especially if you're watching something like this alone (because hey.. i'm a complete pussy) and how sick of turning the volume down just because you're afraid of the sudden *JOLT* in music that'll absolutely stun you sending your peanut butter sandwich flying to the carpet, and you go "OH DAMN IT!" *hits pause button, runs of to get a cloth and start cleaning*
4) you're left with WORK... writing those scripts you're supposed to write, editing the thing you're supposed to edit for the american thing.. during christmas.. while everyone's out there, getting fed, drunk and ____ (i scratched this cause it was a little inappropriate.. but it's kinda like what you'd say when a hen lays an egg? only the hen's already done it, so it becomes past tense..)

not many choices... oh well. it's that time of year..

i don't know why but the previous song i uploaded seems to have little bumps in them.. =/ hopefully this one doesn't.. enjoy..

it

2007-12-24T16:18:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeee!

2007-12-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday was an alright day.. but this morning, just before i went to bed would have completely overshadowed everything yesterday day.. because?

________ is back! weeeeeeeee! ^^

EADGBE - DADGAD

2007-12-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

Se7en, United 93, The Zodiac, Silence of The Lambs..
more movie marathons please!
i'm beginning to love Video Ezy.. because it's this easy *snaps fingers* to go get movies u wanna watch... and it's not illegal :D.. new year is coming, and my resolution is to wipe out all my illegal activity.. only one for 2008.. because it's hard.. temptation to download is just so... tempting? haha.. k bad example..

(this means i'm gonna be doing a lot of it before year end) =O
the peak before the end they always say..

-random-
"Good Evening..... Infidel!"

come crashing down..

randommmmmm

2007-12-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

for some reason... i really like Grey's Anatomy..
^^

what happens if u bring a dead terrorist back to life...

2007-12-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

lol.. this gave me a couple of laughs..

"SILENCE! I KILL YOU!!!"

here's a compilation of some his works

i love the middle of this last one..

hurhurhurrrrr

bad dreams..

2007-12-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

had a combo of bad dreams... lol..
it's actually a series of 3 events, that'll ineveitably cause my world to be a living hell lol.. ayaiyai..

anyways bad dreams aside, heading to Tampines Ikea soon to eat Poached Salmon and Swedish Meatballs :P *loves*.. meeting qammie, JJ and maybe xiuqi (who's pregnant with a zookeeper's son =O)
after which we're gonna meet derrick at Punggol beach to take pictures oui oui...

i was right when i said today i'd be aching all over hahahaha..

later.

what happens when u see death?

2007-12-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

i think i was freaking eugene out in the Avid room in school today.. i told him in extremely systematic fashion...
"I Saw Death"
Eugene - 'Where?'
*I pull both hands up, and use both thumbs and index fingers to form a frame, and then i point slightly lower and to the right of the centre*
"There... just there.. I know Death, You know death, but it is a name i will not mention."

in that face.. i saw, cold, a little dislike due to possible misunderstanding.. but still frustration that is on the brink of anger... I just want to punch at that face.. punch and kick.. with all my strength...

Death is always around.. just that i choose to avoid, and ignore.
And if giving up basically means escaping it.. i'd give up.. though it's not something i like to do..

I hate giving up. It means that there's a weakness in me i haven't tried to conquer.. it means that i can't get better because I didn't try.. And i hate the thought of me, being weak. even if it means being stupid.. and holding on with finger tips, no matter how painful, physically and psychologically, at least i tried to hang on...

And this is going to sound a little biased.. and i'm sure you don't like hearing this but..you know, you sorta stepped on those fingers... and yet i've been blamed for certain things.. which just adds to the whole thing really..
yeah.. i saw Death... there...

---

(on a lighter note :D)

imma is missing this lil thingum, that's been away for awhile, and haven't seen this thingum, in bout 2 weeks or so, haven't spoken to this thingum in 3 or 4 days or so, but this thingum is always on my mind lol..Good or bad.. i dunno but yeahhhh...

(this is fast becoming.. a very random.. and on the surface non-sensical post wahaha)

imma is goin to go do my laundry now.. just got back from training.. dun wanna leave all that sweaty stuff in my bag >.< yuck...
i know, for sure, i will wake up tomorrow with my whole body aching lol... Owwie Owwie..

Goodanight people!

oh my lordd!!! Andy Mckee is my new god lol

2007-12-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

u absolutely have to see this guy play.. Like ZOMG!!!
he's playing with finger taps most of the time. like really SICK!
i'm learning the song, but i can't do the finger tap thing lol.. i can only normal pluck.. even so.. it's freaking fast lol... pushing my fingers to the limit!

a cover of Toto's Africa.. with finger tapping and plucking.. freaking sickk
oh my lordddd

i'm gonna learn all his songs
lol FREAKING GOOD!

like his fingers must be damn strong seriously.. to be able to tap that clearly like zomg!!!! RAWR!!!

hahah this brightens my day ^^

2007-12-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

so it was dexian's birthday.. and we got him a cake..
and all i can say is.. "Magic Relighting Candles" 10 for $1.90 :D

hahahah the best bday prank... enjoy people!

teh chino to cap it

2007-12-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

it's been a long, tiring, frustrating wee... definitely had better days..
but u win some u lose some.. if there's any word i'd choose in the english language to describe how i feel about myself, "Disappointed" would be that word...
still trying to strike a balance... and somethings really shouldn't be bothering me..
but it's personal when i find i could have done better..
getting a D grade for a project, just doesn't cut it for myself..
so that bloody sucks..
thank god i decided to not help for the 30 min short film happening in the next 2 weeks... i really have too many things...

so these are things from school i need to worry about (because all i ever talk about is school.. which is sad.. but that's a film student for you.. u breathe it man.. just like those people in NYU and the American Film Institure and all that.. tskk.. things is.. FSV doesn't even come close to what those guys are going through.. )

1) 10 page 3 Act Script.. i scored a D for the synopses.. and as much as I hate myself now for that.. it's sort of fuelling me to freaking slaughter this assignment...
I find... most of my ideas come to me just before i sleep.. when i turn out the lights, and lie on my bed... the Mandarin Orange 2 act for drama pro did (though it's not exactly the best story *shrug*) and so did my 3 act idea.. i didn't give myself too much to work with.. then i shut my eyes and almost immediately the pictures came into my head... the most painful thing about that? i had to get up and pen it down lol.. but i think i know what i'm gonna do with it to kick ass.. let's hope..

2) American Edit... this thing is like a thorn stuck in my head.. i can't stop thinking how to make it better.. i already have 3 cuts.. more probably on the way.. but this is one of those high priority personal things that i need to seriously Kick Ass.. i don't wanna waste the opportunity.. and the disappointment from not being good enough, would kill me...

3) Endangered In The Garden City.. the non-fiction program that we'll need to be shooting soon about endangered native wildlife in singapore.. still needs work.. and planning.. but excited all the same.. and as usual.. knowing me.. i wanna kick ass...

4) An Orange Pay Back.. the 2 act mandarin orange script... that we'll be shooting just after Endangered In The Garden City.. locations need to be confirmed.. and our immense cast list needs to be confirmed as well... gotta touch up on the script.. as right now it's more "Style Than Substance" and we can't have that.. film is about Substance then Style.. more work.. but I so wanna kick ass tooo

i really need a good long rest.. and get my batteries charged up again.. the Sian Bug has been around lately.. and i'm fighting to escape it..

of course the work isn't demoralising.. in fact i love work haha.. i love shoots.. but other things not working out as i'd hoped.. it's one of those things where the phone rings and you hope it's it but it's not.. lol downright demoralising.. but if "that's the way the cookie crumbles".. there ain't much i can do about it really..

what is my goal in life?
really "Get Rich or Die Trying.." (and rich doesn't just mean money in this aspect.. )

still not good enough...

red swollen finger tips

2007-12-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

today's been pretty eventful..
i nearly killed 2 things today while driving.. both not my fault

1st, was this really cute to die for (but stupid) black dachlund puppy dog.. u know the sausage dog? yeah.. it decided,
"hey why not i just cross the road without looking, while it's raining heavily, and me being black and blending in the road don't matter cause i'm sure if a car came by it'll see me"
well thank god i saw it.. to think i was only able to see it's head above the bonnet, and then i jammed the breaks... I DON'T WANNA KILL ANYTHING TODAY HELLO!
lucky i didn't feel the car go over anything like a bump, and when i moved off and looked back through the rear view mirrors i didn't see nothing on the road.. JEEEEEEEEEEEZ!

2nd, was this ridiculous black-skinned guy on his mountain bike.. who just decided to cut across traffic when i was on the way to kallang to play floorball with me old mates... i was hitting 60km/h approaching a turn and if i hadn't slowed down a little for the turn, i'd have run this mofo over.. AND HE STILL HAD THE NERVE TO SMILE AT HOW COOL WHAT HE JUST DID WAS... a couple of seconds, a little bit of fatigue on my side would have seen him smiling flat on his back on the sidewalk.. freaking clown! CAN'T YOU WAIT THAT LITTLE WHILE FOR THE GREENMAN?! HUH?! DO YOU WANT YOU ON MY CONSCIENCE?!

yes i'm done with the yakking ^^...
so floorball was great.. i'm so so so out of shape.. really need to start running somemore.. lol.. but it was fun *nod nod*.. and the KFC at kallang is the best because their drinks are freeflow.. freakin awesome! mountain dew all the way!

and i spent more than 4 hours today with my african baby.. the fingers on my left hand are like the title suggest, red and swollen.. and they kinda hurt even now as i'm typing.. >.<

it's hard when like your best mates ask you out.. and you really can't because of amount of work piling up and threatening to topple over on your plate.. but i'm glad they understand :D.. thanks ifan and jared and all for understanding.. mmhmm.. we'll prolly go catch a movie or something soon...

so.. here's the mini update of the things i wanna get or do list

1. Acoustic Guitar (check! :D)
2. 2gb ram for my lappy (check!)
3. driver's license (check! :D)
5. Contact Lenses (check! :D)
6. a new phone (check! :D)

2. Ice Hockey equipment and picking up ice hockey :(
3. Continuing French at Alliance Francaise and all the other languages i'm interested in :(
4. My very own car :(
5. a Pool jersey :(
6. some hot new clothes :( (QAMMIE! WE NEED TO GO SHOPPING DANG IT!)
7. an electric guitar and amp? (WAHAHHAHAHHA just can't get enough of guitars can i?)
8. a little special something after the 13th of december (hurr hurrr *sneaky*)

think that's about it at the mo'... dun remember anything else.. anyways.. really tired.. off to the lovely soft and warm sheets then :P
nighty night!

loving my new african baby..

2007-12-08T14:49:00.000+08:00

i absolutely love you when your sweet voice rings clear,
and resonates around the room...
i absolutly love how you harmonize with your elements, so smooth, and crisp..
it's hard to get enough of hearing you sing..
and though it hurts if we're together too long,
going over and over again in song,
you leave me hungry for more..

----

i'm beginning to get the hang of playing Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah.. still needs some flow though.. i still kinda have little pauses at major finger and string changes.. tsk tsk.. but fun fun fun..

gotta go write the drama pro script now..
not sure if i wanna go for floorball training at 7pm later over at kallang. .maybe if i have the car..
still haven't had lunch.. kinda hungry hmmm..
woke like 5 minutes before my alarm would ring at 1pm.. hurr.. had a nice long 11 hour sleep ^^..

alrighty! off to the "toilet totters"

resttttttttt

2007-12-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

rest at the moment is a luxury.. which is precisely why this is gonna be short hurr..

tons of work..
not much time for too much but something nice would be my new baby ^^

got meself a special treat with my new $475 acoustic guitar Muahahahaha! lovelyyyyy

my fingers hurt from playing it.. kinda getting used to it.. but it sounds real nice weeeeeee! African Rosewood hurhur..

nothing much interesting happening right now.. so.. no posts till an asteroid slams into the pacific or i get into a car accident or something.. =P

au-revoir!

beat, wind, free

2007-12-01T00:21:00.001+08:00

nothing else matters when you run but the long road, and you.
you can never run enough, because you'll never see all the places the road will take you, if you only choose to follow.
you run and keep running, and true freedom comes when you don't bother where you end up in the end...
it's just you and the road under those stinky old size 11 feet.

your mind wonders, and no matter what your troubles are,
it disappears for a while at the finish line,
it's an escape,
a ticket to where ever..

-----

i began work on the American edit thing today... spent half the day devoting myself to it.. but most of that time for now was spent getting the footage out and then going through everything and taking notes... by the time that was done, i had bout an hour of pure editing... which hasn't taken me very far lol.. but it'll get done.. i've a good feeling.. ^^

after which, qammie, lam, jerry and i went searching for dinner lol.. we drove to Mad Jacks, but qammie can't eat it cause non-halal, so we went to Sixth Avenue cause i've always stared at the food places as my bus drives pass it on the way the school.. and there's just so much to explore...

We found the Fifth Avenue "Roller Coaster" thrill ride lol...
Which involves these words "Car", "Steep-ass-slope", "Neutral Gear"..
hahah.. so fun

and so we went around, found many interesting restaurants that'll be perfect for expensive dates to make that good impression, but we settle on Canadien 2 for 1 in the end haha.. it was the most surreal thing...
we walked past this Pizza diner thing, and we went in and it was ridiculously expensive.. a small slice of pizza for $7.. and then we came out and jerry went..
"we might as well buy Canadien 2 for 1"
and then we stopped and said..
"yeah let's do that! Then let's go back to school and chilllll... like 8th floor roof, and like wind and scenery and all that... "
so we said alright.. and it JUST HAPPENED that we were standing smack outside a Canadien 2 for 1 place lol SERIOUSLY! it was right beside the other Pizza diner..
we ordered, got drinks from 7-11 and headed to school 3rd floor, i turned the radio in my car on, and we ate pizza, and drank fizzy drinks and chilleddd lol..
sweet *nod*

anyways.. tmr.. get 3 Act Synopses done.. and if i have time, do the American editing thing...

--
sometimes things happen, sometimes they don't.. C'est la vie... there's nothing we can do... la vie est simple.. vraiment..

i don't care if it hurts...

2007-11-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
When I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She runs runs runs
Run, Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

ecoutez.. ecoutez..

2007-11-28T15:57:00.000+08:00

i'm sorta in this funny mood kinda feels like being "lost inside".. and just happened to come across this video.. and it's beautiful..

don't give up, you are loved

good things come together.. (let me brag please! >.<)

2007-11-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Okay.. so today.. after the last lecture of the day, Drama Production,
my editing lecturer from last semester came up to me and said these 3 words that made my eyes shine like the sun...

"Hey, the ACE thing came already..."
he took out a brown cushioned envelope... and i had to struggle to keep back from yelling and cheering in the lecture theatre...

and then i Chiamo came over and gave me my $500 paycheck, which has been longover due, lol... so now i'm $500 richer ^^...

and and and.. k more about the ACE thing..
it's actually the "American Cinema Editors" it's the Editor union in America that covers the rights of editors there... they hold a student competition once every year, and if i remembered right, only 50 people around the globe get to participate.
(awesomeee!!!! :D :D :D)
They send footage, and a script and all the other paperwork regarding 1 scene from something that was shot, and the participant just edits it in whatever way he sees fit.
Final edit's must reach back in sunny California by January the 18th where it will be judged, and the Top 3 editors (and 1 guest), will be invited to California for the ACE Eddie Awards on 17th February, and hopefully get a chance to meet the likes of Steven Spielberg, George Lucas, Francis Ford Coppola, Martin Scorsese, Quentin Tarantino and someone who's work i've recently been interested in Robert Zemeckis who did stuff like Cast Away, The Polar Express, Monster House, ^^...

The top editor will win a Student Award also gets his name published in some sort of Hollywood trade newspaper, which is like a toe into the big film world ^^...

yes.. now that i've explained it all..............

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

lol i've been keeping that in for like forever muahahhaha..

suddenly being sick over the weekend, and still sick now doesn't matter anymore..
suddenly all that other upsetting stuff doesn't matter anymore..

suddenly my work load just increased and i'm beginning to feel the strain Hah!

it's like.. a letter delivered from angel ^^.........

I'm just doing my research.. and i hope i win lol.. cause it means i'll have an excuse to get a Suit WHAHAHAHHA.. hehehehehehehe

for more information on why i'm singing "I should be so lucky! Lucky Lucky Lucky!", look here

au-revoir!!!

so nearly a bad day..

2007-11-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

wookay... so i just got up.. started up me lappy.. and.. it wouldn't start up O.O
I was about to go "F^&*!! WHAT THE F%^*&*&" then the doorbell rang.. and i went to answer it.. and it turns out it was my License ^^.. and so i came back.. kinda torn between the 2 emotions.. and i decided.. i'd try the stupid RAM thingum.. the last round me lappy pulled a stunt like this, it was due to the RAM being loose.. and it wouldn't start up..

So i took em out.. cleaned their little gold feet and then popped em back in..
Prayed a little
Close one eye and hit the Power Button..
AND IT WORKS!

So nearly a very bad day *nod*

omg

2007-11-24T00:37:00.000+08:00

today was absolutely sheity but it got better towards the end..
The music at Red Camp was simply awesome...
and now i got home.. and it was simply a case of.. The best had yet to come...

LoL SO HAPPY NOW! *EUPHORIC SCREAMING*
Dexian knows of what i speak lol...

bleeding well

2007-11-20T12:47:00.000+08:00

bad blood out.. bad blood out..

a good day..

2007-11-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

so the day started with the 3 lkks.. 2 lao kok kok and the 'longkang kid' (-.-") so ridiculous lol..

and we had this absolutely insane idea lol.. here's a hint
it had something to do with the 3 of us getting in my mum's car,
driving to chiam's place to get his large bottle of Barcardi..
then buying some Minute Maid orange juice and some pineapple juice and chips,
and drinking everything away.. lol

so awesome.. would have been more awesome if chiam didn't steal my last drink!
ASSHOLE! i was nearly what we like to call the "Ultimate High" lol...
it's the perfect point of being drunk, and being able to enjoy it without "giving a shit" about anything, or anyone else.."
fortunately / unfortunately (pick which ever you prefer).. i wasn't drunk enough to ignore the nagging side of me screaming 'PRODUCTION BEGINS AT 8AM TOMORROW!' YOU HAVE TO DRIVE THE CREW TO YOUR PLACE! YOU CAN'T BE DRUNK!

i so wanna get drunk again soon.. and with a day that i won't have to worry about anything.. it's just about the people you're downing the stuff with.. and the things you talk about..

yeah.. so i only had 2 hours of sleep too.. lol amazing how i lasted through drama production.. it's a wrap! :D hopefully nothing's wrong with the footage or shite.. so tmr is a good rest day and a day for me to catch-up on my Production Planning shite.. and my Scriptwriting online entry.. prepare for french test, and maybe meet dexian about the stupid french thing -.- .. STUPID KNOW!

production later at 7pm -.- ... non-fiction.. gotta cover the handicap girl at this event she's singing at.. omg.. so tired *nod nod*..
and later at night, chiamo and mich are coming over to do some acting at my place.. got all the lights and camera here.. hurhur.. awesome man.. ^^ (love acting)
3 shoots in a day.. beat that lol..

ah it's sad it's sad.. a good day doesn't wipe out the bad ones you've had..
if only life was living a day at a time with no regrets.. Zilch..
i saw this yesterday "La Vie Est Simple"..
i think it is.. if you want it to be...
i think i'm not one of those.. la vie n'est pas simple.. *nod* that's better..

break free..
and do it now..
they're all hard to please..
so just forget how..

tie the laces on that old shoe..
hide the blue moon drops, keep it inside..
cause they don't care to know
they won't care to listen.

words can only say.. so much *sigh sigh sigh*

-----

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

:) :/

2007-11-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

so i got my license.. only incurred 2 demerit points :D
of all things, for driving too slow
LOL

anyways.. this is gonna be a slightly randomish like post..
it's what you get when you toss something like Sweet and Sour pork..
and all that other clashes in ideas..

people don't do what they say they will.. it's always "with time"
and they wait for a point where.. something happens.. and then they decide
"because of 'that' i don't have to do it anymore.."

driving brings a whole new bunch of problems with it.. one that might force
me into doing something i know i won't fancy doing.. it's almost like
doing something bad, to get something good.. something against all i believe in.

distracting.. disturbing..
how people say one thing and then do something completely different
(this isn't the same as the one above.. there're distinct differences..)

it'll leave you pondering *nod*

but whatever..
drove to dexian's house today.. lol now i know how close qammie and dx leave.. like 2 blocks away! lol..
and i think going to dx's house has just cemented something in me..
the idea that i want a house or my dream hosue.. would be somewhere.. near the beach..
or some sort of lake ^^

his house has got quite a spectacular view.. look past the walls with footprints and soccerball mud marks.. look towards the wind that's tickling your cheeks.. and see beauty... *nod nod*

i wana change the song on my blog now.. but i'm so tired.. another long day tmr..
the work's piling up.. god.. i wish i wish i wish...

This next week and a half will really set the tone for me..
Saturday and Sunday is important.. (drama pro shoot)
Monday is important.. (french final test, presentation.. something else i won't say *snigger*.. rushing out the Scriptwriting online entry i have to do)
Wednesday, Thursday (Non-Fiction shoot.. zomg *faint*.. worried sick!)
Friday.. i might find time to go back to floorball training.. i haven't gone in awhile.. i wanna make the team :(
and i wanna go for Ice Hockey TOOOOO! but now is just such a bad time to get that going..
and i need to buy guitar strings for mich and myself.. GOD!

seeeeeeeeeeeeeee so many things to do :( (and many more... some i'm too lazy to type.. some i just can't remember.. golly an organiser would sure be handy now)

anyways.. Good Night little people of the world :D
(i love driving)

NERVEY!

2007-11-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

MY GOD MY GOD! WTF IS WITH THE LACK OF BREATH AND LIKE LIGHT-HEADEDNESS!
CUT IT OUT ALREADY!

it's just a test..
there's nothing more to it..
just driving.. just being a cabby for a day.. listening to what a guy wants.. and helping him decide what is right or wrong.. if it can be done or not..
It's a test of nerves!

it's whether some old guy can trick this youth.. or this youth can out-wit him..
may the young triumph over him (jsut this once please!)

it's just like playing a floorball game...
i still get edgy before the games.. but EVERYTHING IS OKAY
nothing is new..

my hands are shivering >.<
omg i skipped lesson today.. cause i woke up and i was just jumping around everywhere.. and like felt quite tired.. so yeah...
think i shall take a nice long warm shower..
the adrenaline is pumping!

AWARE! BE AWARE MAO!

Vert Parking:
Go more to the RIGHT!
Check Blind before full-locking! so stop the car if you need to!
SLOW AND STEADY!

Parallel Parking:
More to the left would be better...
CHECK BLIND!
Be quick with steering wheel!
SLOW AND STEADY!

Slope:
Check blind before entering!!!
enter at 1st gear baby.. or poor car will die *nod*..
The rest you know what to do *nod*...
APPLY HANDBRAKE!
SIGNAL RIGHT!
CHECK BLIND BEFORE sending this mofo into space..

Directional Change:
make sure the car is centre *Nod*..
signal right
check safety! SAFETY SAFETY SAFETY!
Reverse till kerb nearly hits the point
Then CHECK BLIND
AND GO MAO FULL LOCK!
CHECK REAR SAFETY!
CHEck for returning!
STOP AND STUN THE GUY! WOO!

Stay 10km/h below speed limit..
we dun wanna give the instructor a heart attack now.. *wink* :D

let those nice lovely people of the world cross 2 lanes before turning left *nod*...
Unless it's my dad (WAHHAHAHA)

TH3 'S's

SLOW! STEADY! SAFETY!

A LICENSE! WEEEEE!
okay

i'm screamnig my lungs out to this.. hahaha helps me relax :D :D

warm milk ^^

2007-11-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

okay.. so mini update..

watched a show i told myself i would never ever watch in my entire life..
because i heard rumours that some people after watching it couldn't take it and committed suicide.. and because i'm one of those people easily influenced by movies especially... yah.. didn't wanna watch.. or so i thought..

Until today mich and i were looking for a movie to pass the time before my driving lesson and her nra thingum-me-jig.. i pulled out "THE EXORCIST" hahah yeah.. i know

but it wasn't as scary as i thought though hahahahaha.. it's just gruesome.. *nod*.. it's not shocking.. just makes u go Ughhhhhhhhh! *nod*...

so today's driving lesson thingum was alright.. stalled a twice.. but other than that.. pretty darn good :D.. going into tomorrow's test confident *nod*

so busy day tmr.. going school in the morn for Production planning class.. then gotta rush to yio chu kang for my test >.<
School sucks.. they ask for my reason for absence? and i gave them the receipt saying i had a driving thingum..
"Sorry it's not in the system.. So it doesn't qualify"
-.-... can i say wtf? so now my brilliant attendance has been tarnished lol.. awesome..

gotta do make up for drama production on friday.. cause tmr's one will clash with my test.. but no problem.. drama pro with chiamo, jj-double-j-joe-jackson, derrick, qammie and the rest is fun ^^

anyways off to bed.. bonne nuit!

bad day to be with guitars

2007-11-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

i'm jinxed today..
every guitar i've touched today.. is in need of new strings

i went to mich's house for a bit after class.. and while tuning her acoustic to high D for the 2nd string (so that i can play Iris -Goo Goo Dolls) i snapped that string... -.-

10 mins ago.. tuning my classical guitar to play the same song.. 5th string to D as well.. it snapped... and i had a bit of an abrasion thing like an ant bite on the finger that was on the string.. NOT MY DAY WITH GUITARS AT ALL!

i need to go buy guitar strings.. for mich, (cause i feel bad)
for myself (because a life without my guitar... is chaos.. no just kidding.. but quite unbearable.. i'm such a boring person as it is)

RAWR!!!

Good Night!

Nor + Man + Balance = ?????

boring CG lectures

library

2007-11-12T11:56:00.000+08:00

yes i know the previous post ruined my html stuff.. but nevermind.. lazy to change it..

so driving today was so much better.. like omg better.. honestly.. just need to remember everything i've learnt *nod* i'll probably blog tonight about all the things i should remember.. not now just yet..

so as u should have guessed, i'm in the library... been in here since 11.30 or something.. french lesson's at 1pm.. so another hour to go.. (and i think it's oral test today *nod nod*)

anyways.. i thought up this story idea with aliens in em haha.. and was telling dexian on msn.. and i tell you.. this made me laugh out loud in the library.. and like everyone was staring at me >.< (asshole lol)

Dexian Says: (11:58:26 AM)
and yeah i'll be the alien

mao- Grumps says: (11:58:30 AM)
yes thank you

mao- Grumps says: (11:58:33 AM)
hahahah

mao- Grumps says: (11:58:37 AM)
i was hoping you'd say that

Dexian Says: (11:58:40 AM)
there will be a touching epic scene

mao- Grumps says: (11:58:43 AM)
u shall be the leader of the alien

Dexian Says: (11:58:49 AM)
"WHY DID YOU COME TO OUR PLANET WHY?"

mao- Grumps says: (11:58:51 AM)
your name is SAGOD

Dexian Says: (11:58:54 AM)
".........to hump?"

hahahahhaha freaking stupid right? hahahah... in true dexian style man *rock*

i feel like watching Jurassic Park (hahahah) i don't know why..
I wanna watch a lot of stuff mmhmmmm... (as always no surprises here)

and and and i got new earphones lol.. cause my lovely old orange shure ones died :( .. now the new one is all black.. looks so boring :( :(..

i need to quit eating fast food.. i feel like my arteries are plugged.. with that icky goo.. and watever nots.. imma thinking i should go have a medical checkup or something soon lol.. (just for fun :D) it's always fun to see how healthy u are.. unless of course the results are more to the traumatizing side...

The Best Is Yet To Come! :D

waist deep in shit..

2007-11-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

oh look.. this's shit..
i just spent lots of time on shit..
i'm beginning to believe i've been eating shit..
because all the ideas that come out are shit..

shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.
shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.
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shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.
shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.

it's everywhere isn't it.. in my scripts..
in my head..
in the things i say..
everything i do...
one thing is definitely present..

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry.. gotta get it out.. OUT OUT OUT!
FUCK!

----

Death by a Hum

i was walking..
heard a slight hum to my right behind the walls..
i shut my eyes and took a couple of steps forward..
the humming grew louder..
i moved further forward..
the humming grew even louder..
and then i stopped steps before the hum and me crossed paths...

----

WHYYYYYYYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!?
FUCK!!!!!

n one more thing..

2007-11-10T22:19:00.001+08:00

I love Cast Away ^^

o.-

2007-11-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

hur i'm learning to play this.. it's actually got the same tune up as goo goo dolls like to have... hurr it sounds okay on my classical... would sound amazing on an electric :D.. *HINT HINT to Leginboulala!!* lol

-----

Looking back I clearly see
What it is that's killing me
Through the eyes of one I know
I see a vision once let go
I had it all

Constantly it burdens me
Hard to trust and can't believe
Lost the faith and lost the love
When the day is done

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
On and on we stand alone
Until our day has come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

I love the way I feel today
But how I know the sun will fade
Darker days seem to be
What will always live in me
But still I run

It's hard to walk this path alone
Hard to know which way to go
Will I ever save this day
Will it ever change

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one

Still today we carry on
I know our day will come
When they open their eyes
And realize we are one

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one
(its hard to walk this path alone
hard to know which way to go)
Will they open their eyes
and realize we are one
(lost the faith and lost the love when the day is done)

Will they open their eyes
And realize we are one

i want to open my eyes..

2007-11-09T23:47:00.001+08:00

nightmares and unpleasant ringing..
questions with no answers...

i'm so tired of all this..

the guy in a bear suit

2007-11-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

I've had enough
Of this parade
I'm thinking of
The words to say
We open up
Unfinished parts
Broken up
It's so mellow

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Keep waking up (waking up)
Without you here (without you here)
Another day (another day)
Another year (another year)
I seek the truth (seek the truth)
We set apart (we set apart)
Thinking of
A second chance (a second chance)

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

And when I see you then i know it will be next to me
And when I need you I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you

Just need to get closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Closer, closer
Lean on me now
Lean on me now
Lean on me now

Closer, closer
Closer, closer

update

2007-11-07T23:39:00.001+08:00

i want to get drunk... now prefarably

i feel like

2007-11-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

SHIT! Absolutely sucky... think it's cause i didn't get enough sleep last night.. everything around just feels so F***ed...

I'm moody as a kitty can be..

everything is irritating me..

i was walking home.. and this chubby guy kept running a couple of meters in front of me everytime i overtook him.. how stupid is that?
OI CHUBBY BABA! WHO SAY I'M RACING WITH YOU.. seriously WTF?!
all i wanted to do was have a nice quiet walk home.. after a long dang-diggity day.. stupid idiot RAWR!

and guess what? my iPod ran out of batt.. SAD!
i hit a kerb in driving today.. and that's SAD! freaking disappointing.. A KERB MELVIN! HOW IN HELL DO YOU HIT A KERB?!

i'm disappointed that i still find myself disappointed.. (what a killer cycle)

there's this strange request in me.. but stranger than strange..
stranger than the strangest stranger in a strange strange situation in the strangest place...
it is irritating..

EVERYTHING! IS IRRITATING..

Grump-Wumpy-Lumpy Kitty's got Lumps in those Dumps that go Stump-Stamp-Stomp..

I pray i'll wakey tomorrow.. and it'll all be a bad dream.. but i know better..
waking up tomorrow just makes it a nightmare.. Work Work Work..
I need sleep..
But i wanna watch my new movie (Mission To Mars -Brian De Palma 4.9/10 on IMDB.. WTF?!).. might help me get out of this grumpy-wumpy mood..
or maybe watching it just proves what i'm beginning to believe.. i've horrid taste..

afraid.. torn in 2

2007-11-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

it's already begun.. the thing they call ethics...
the decision you make when u're torn in 2 directions...
On one hand.. u can pretend to care.. because all you want is a good show..
on the otherhand.. she's just told you her story.. it may not be her whole story.. but she's also showing suicidal tendencies..

she said "really you're the only one.... am i scaring you off?"
i said "no... I don't scare easy... everyone's got a story.. i'm just the one you chose to told.."

it's hard for her definitely... all the things that are happening..
i may think it's hard for me.. i may have a point..
because i hardly know her.. and for her to share something so personal.. on such short notice.. it almost seems like really.. i was the only one she felt she could tell.. she gave her reasons.. and it just felt more scary.. that if she were to do something stupid.. the thing i couldn't pull of in sec 2.. i'd be linked.. and i'll be scarred for life.. i guess this fear is what wants me to pull back a little.. and not get too attached to the individual..

but this individual is a person.. and it was the last thing i said to her..
"we're all the same.."
whatever i think is hard for me,
is 10 times harder for her..
it's time i quit being selfish.. there is no 2 options in ethics..
i can still tell the story.. without hurting anyone...

i can't help it.. but when i see the fake tears on the screen.... i can imagine many more genuine ones that have fallen or are falling.. even though you don't see them.. inside.. she's breaking down.. crying..
"Can I just die?"
it's something everyone's scared to hear isn't it?
you don't wanna know if someone's committing suicide.. or thinking about it.. death is taboo..
why do we not want to know? i think because i'm scared i can't help.. i'm scared the words i say.. she'll just take as words... that i'm putting up.. an act...

when i heard this song.. i thought of her.. and i nearly cried..
(if i am here for a reason.. this must be one of them.. )

i will not tell you to go some place else at your expense..

------

catch your breath
hit the wall
scream out loud
as you start to crawl
back in your cage
the only place
where they will
leave you alone
cause the weak will seek the weaker till they've broken them
could you get it back again
would it be the same
fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense
left you with no defense
they tore it down

and I have felt the same
as you I've felt the same
as you I've felt the same

locked inside
the only place
where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe
you lost yourself
in your search to find
something else to hide behind
cause the fearful always preyed upon your confidence
didn't they see the consequence
they pushed you around
the arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones
breaking them till they've become
just another crown

and I have felt the same
as you I've felt the same
as you I've felt the same
as you I've felt the same

refuse to feel
anything at all
refuse to slip
refuse to fall
can't be weak
can't stand still
watch your back
cause no one will

you don't know why they had to go this far
traded your worth for these scars
for your only company
and don't believe the lies that they have told to you
not one word was true
you're alright
you're alright
you're alright

and I have felt the same
as you I've felt the same
as you I've felt the same
as you I've felt the same

saturate

2007-11-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

ah yes the weekend is here. and with the weekend comes much needed rest, and like.. time to complete all the work that's been thrown on my lap.
i feel like it's almost to a point where maybe i've bitten off more than i can chew.. (almost..) so i think i'll need to drop some of the stuff.. yeaaap)..

anyways i completely forgot to go meet the ice hockey people tonight lol.. and though i remembered and there was technically enough time to rush to jurong and meet them, i was too tired..
watched the rest of my favorite "The Green Mile" with qammie, chiamo, dxtehsex, tsar and jj-double-j-joe-jackson (rofl.. but he went off on his date halfway.. the currypuff addict haha =P)

i feel this intense need to yell.. but lol if given the opportunity.. i don't know what to yell.. it might all come out like gibberishy and non-sensical ouiii..

(so this is what it's like to put the face on)

i skipped floorball training today too.. just tired.. need rest.. honestly.. dead tired.. next week's not gonna help at all..
driving Monday (morn), Wednesday (eve), Friday (morn).. and they're each 2 hour sessions >.<>.< .. i think she's tired.. and she knows she could have done something about it.. (like quit TAIL-GATING!) but she's doing her denial thing which is typical mummy being herself *shrug*.. (don't get me wrong.. i love my mum) ----- i overheard a conversation between 2 little birds in school.. and it's kind of about the same situation as last sem? i don't know lol.. i found the accusations and what the people said absolutely RIDICULOUS.. but u know.. some people talk more than they should (i do that sometimes).. and some people have a knack for telling really 1 sided stories (which is human.. no one's perfect).. and some people just like to eat up 1 sided stories and start rumors.. and before we know it.. they think they know exactly what's happened when really.. they know shit.. (which is human as well..) all i can say is.. i find it IRRITATING.. and absolutely-positively RIDICULOUS... i don't think politics is the word.. because it's really stupid to be something as profound as politics.. (or is it?) If you're gonna say something, then expect a response.. and accept that a response, good or bad is likely to come... if you can't even get over something as simple as that.. or seriously have too much pride to stand a direct comment.. then seriously.. here's some good advice in the great words of Tom Hanks.. "Go Fuck Yourself" because the world isn't all happy happy and fairy tales.. i f u think keeping someone happy by not giving entirely useful comments is your way of helping someone.. then sorry but you've got s screwed up way of thinking.. Quit beating around the bush, dodging, and hiding all your thoughts about whatever. If you think it sucks SAY IT SUCKS! and then say why.. If someone says your idea Sucks and they say why.. but u didn't bother to listen to the "Why" portion of their comment.. and are too hurt by the "it SUCKS" part.. then "Go Fuck Yourself" If you really can't stand direct comments.. then tell me.. so next time, i'll shut up and let you live your "perfect" fantasy life... and for the rest of your life.. all you'll hear for comments are "That's Freaking Awesome man" :D they won't even have to say why.. because all you care about is what you want to hear... isn't that Awesome?

cuddled up.. and comfy... ALMOST!

2007-10-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

there's a small pebble on my bed that i can't seem to get rid off.. and it's irritating.. kitty now has to resort to all sorts of methods to get some decent rest and peace of mind..

Okay! first!

I'm so so so so so so so so so sorry Smiley Lady!!!! >.<
i'll make it up to u, for not firing this lousy gardener lol.. i'll like treat u Fish and Co or something hurhur... or (what was that "jap" thingum place we kept going to eat at Dhoby ghaut? I honestly can't recall O.O.. the one where they make us pay them for us to cook ourselves? lol) or my personal favorite... Brownies :D heeeeee.. or like Famous Amos.. heeeeeeeeee :D :D

Anyways happy birthday!!! again.. ppl just never get sick of good things *nod*

i just got home from school 15 mins ago.. You wouldn't believe lol how tired i am.. IT'S RIDICULOUS! and all i did was sit down and feed my mind! That's not tiring!! unless whatever i'm feeding my mind is boring..

but the extra long 4 hour and 30 minute scriptwriting class though extended, and was the last class of the day... didn't make me feel lethargic.. ( i actually wanted more MUAHAH *evil laugh*)
yes i am sadistic.. hurhurhur
tomorrow's gonna be a pain.. my got CG.. and we all know what comes with CG.. -.-
but at least i get to get up at 9am.. instead of 7am.. (i find it ridiculous that i've to wakey 2 hours before school starts -.- ... even though i've been doing it for a year and a half now)

In 3 weeks, I will get my driver's license (yes i'm confident.. cocky and arrogant.. I CANNOT FAIL! there's nothing on earth or out of this world that can stop me from passing the test.. NOTHING!)

i had the most emo and irritated bus ride home just now.. lol.. mainly because i think i was listening to a sad sad song by evanescence (thus the emoness) and cause there were Year 1s sitting all around me like making a huge fuss.. AND I COULD STILL HEAR THEM THOUGH I WAS WEARING IN-EAR.. EARPHONES! do you know how irritating that is?! it's like a fly... wait make that 6 flies.. buzzing around ur ear... *smacks flies and burns them with a lighter*
(did i mention i've got sadistic tendencies?)

RAWRRRRRRRR! i wanna post up a new song.. but i'm damn lazy.. and my lappy's with chiam :( *sniff* i miss it already... the poor dear.. away from daddy.. *sniff*

-Random-
wanna know a secret? :P

I think i'm fat -.- ...

nahh i'm just messing with yall..

GOOD NIGHT FELLOW PUNY EARTHLINGS! ( did i spell puny wrong? )

now

2007-10-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

wait.. i'm trying to think if i said anything...
*shrug*
memory's failing.. if i did i dun remember.. if i didn't i don't remember..

training was awesome.. think i've managed to ensure a spot on this team wahahahha!
even though i was seriously out of shape..

we had like 30-40 mins of non-stop game.. and no subs.. O.O .. do you know how sick is that? i was having trouble breathing after that lol.. like crawled out and sprawled on a chair gasping for like 20 minutes non-stop rofl..

seriously...

so so so went to meet qammie, huimin and jj after that's cause i was in dire need of some carbos.. lol jj was pretending to be a truck driver again in the arcade rofl.. damn funny..

the right ankle is swelling again.. but i think it's just cause i gave it a good work out lol.. honestly.. i feel AWESOME!

kk shall go shower (cause this kitty really stinks quite bad) tmr's gonna be a looooooooooong day too.. zomg zomg zomg..

doesn't that sound familiar? :P

Could you leave me with a scar..

2007-10-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

so i just came back from meeting the investing guy ^^ quite awesome.. he's damn friendly.. no wonder my mum trust's him.. he just exudes this aura for u to be like.. at ease when he's around.. yeap... cool guy

and i was gonna put up the song? but u know what.. i don't feel like that song anymore.. i feel like this one ^^ hehe..
kinda like these 2 people in my life.. go figure *nod*

ever line just seems to fit... simply awesome... pay attention if you will..

------

He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note
That said "use these down to your bones"
And before I knew I had shiny skin and it felt easy being clean like him
I thought "this one knows better than I do"

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit.

And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far...

"Could you leave me with a scar?"

So the next one came with a bag of treats,
she smelled like sugar and spoke like the sea
And she told me don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one,
looked at my insides clicking her tongue and said
"This will all have to come undone".

A triangle trying to squeeze through a circle She tried to blunt me so I'd fit.

And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far...

"Could you leave me with a scar?"

I think I realized just in time,
although my old self was hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine but I'll never give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of fearing that
I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys
Tell me, did you think we'd all dream the same?

And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could've gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far.
Could you leave me with a scar?
Could you leave me with a scar?

-----

my grandmama is awesome ^^ sweet lady she is haha.. she's taking care of my bro and me while me mum is in China doing business.. till sunday i thinks..

she's so worried about me not having eaten anything all day yet lol.. so she thinks i don't like what she made.. but i just haven't got on to eating it yet.. not anything about the food she made.. she just came in and like asked me if i wanted like a Burger patty lol.. like more modern young teenager sort of food? and she gave this broad enthusiastic smile when i said okay haha..

so dang cute right?! :)

the sound of white..

2007-10-26T12:02:00.000+08:00

"so I can't feel at all.."
"I was bruised and battered and I couldn't tell.. What I felt.."
"Delivering, out of sadness, from all the madness,
courage to guide me, a strength from inside me"

u know.. it's the first time i couldn't find a song to entirely show my emotion.. i don't feel this one does enough justice.. or maybe it's just this inner disgruntled feeling that's a lil biased for better reason...

but this one's kind of close so it'll have to do for now..

i was thinking.. but before i lead myself astray in a pool of thoughts, i grabbed hold.. and understood it didn't matter what these thoughts were going to bring me..
because ultimately.. the world isn't build on thoughts or words.. but something slightly more physical.. same word a director yells to the actors once they're rolling..

Aight.. busy weekend coming up..
gotta go meet the Investor today at 2pm.. i'm supposed to sign some papers and invest a sum of money in some fund... me mum thinks it's a good idea.. so u know.. if she says it's good.. it prolly is..
after which i've my first floorball match in ages.. kind of nervous because yeah it's a friendly.. but i haven't been exposed to this kind of competition since i dislocated my ankle what.. 3 months ago now? >.< .. and last night whilst en route to eat beancurd at dhoby with the FSV gang, think i pulled or strained it a little lol.. but it's feeling better today.. so we'll see how it goes ^^

tomorrow..Saturday.. going to a screening with dx in the morning at Ngee Ann.. think that's at 11am? some cinematography thingum by Kodak.. and and and hope it ends around 1pm.. so that i can go help Calvin, JJ, Chiamo, Eugene, Qamariah? i dun remember but they'll be covering some lecture or talk by MCM and we get CCA points ^^ .. quite awesome so yeah.. wanna go help.. and and it'll end 3+ so that's pretty much half the day gone..

Sunday's the only day that i can probably have a nice long think through the 2 stories i need to think up for scriptwriting on tuesday.. yeap.. and maybe do up my 2nd Aesthetic Analysis on the movie Amistad hurhur.. (c'est Magnifique!)..

feels like so much to do so little time..

-Production Planning-
i gotta go find a script and get 20 scenes and start my Production Planning folder by next week i hope..
I need to find a company that will allow me to sort of interview them kind of thing.. i'm hoping to get Infinite Frameworks.. so i've to email them soon...

-Non-Fiction-
i need to email the floorball association asking if they'd like us to cover the upcoming international competition in Singapore in early december.. hopefully this can be done for 2nd project or something.. then we can follow the Ladies national team.. and i feel there're several interesting angles *nod*..
Uniquely Ngee Ann is being a pain lol.. such a boring topic.. honestly...

-Drama Pro-
2nd Aesthetic Analysis to be done..
Crew discussion on our first project and our script.. it's the 2nd week.. needs to be shot in 5th week i think?

-Scriptwriting-
The 2 story ideas.. by tuesday

-CG-
Nothing loool thank god...

-French-
Nothing? i hope..

okay this post is getting boring.. i'll put the song up later.. gotta go now..
au-revoir!

the "Day, Ix" quiz

2007-10-23T00:35:00.000+08:00

Some Quiz
1. (the person who tagged you is) - DXTEHSEX hurhur

2. (your relationship with him/her is) - best bro bro bro bro to the coreness..

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - Outrageous, Hilarious, Extrovert to the Xtreme, The Sex, SAGOD *bows*

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - Produce with me for my first ever project in FSV

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - J'ai une grandeux coq (AHHAHAHA)

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - Loool that's not gonna happen.. but if it does due to some weird circumstance i'll say i'm blessed lol... (BUT IT"S NOT GONNA HAPPEN CAUSE WE'RE BOTH STRAIGHT AND I'M A HOMOPHOBE)

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - It'S NOT FREAKING HAPPENING ALREADY! rofl

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) - Go emo and "Cut my wrist and black my eyes!"

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - I became a complete jackass and deserve to die

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - I don't know.. he already has a XBOX 360.. i mean what more could he want? hahahah.. like i don't know win him a chance to have a romantic dinner with Mandy Moore by selling my soul lol

11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - he is my father and i am luc (lol)

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - will feel about me if i do what? I think people get irritated by me easily.. because i'm just irritating

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) - I don't know.. curiosity? (which kills the cat 10 out of 10 times? *shrug*)

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - ah too many to state.. so let's just say everything for now.. I hate myself lol

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - Caring, Sensitive to others, independent, passionate

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) - I'm sorry for being an asshole lately..lol.. I'm hoping it's a phase that will past

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
Do I have to?

(but everyone's got better stuff to do so u really dun have to)
1)Thong Wah (lol like kena put up straight away)
2)Ifan
3)Calvin mannnnn
4)Qammie?
5)jj? (hahaha)
6)Lam the man
7)Smiley lady! ^^
8)Nigel!
9)PeiZhen!
10)Tsar hahahah.. (dunno if u still read)
*oh and u guys can just like skip all the questions about like having a relationship with me lol.. quite ridiculous*

(Who is no.6 having a relationship with?) - Lam?! Hurrrrrrr i don't knowww like everyone loves him wahahha

(Is no.9 a male or female?) - Female lol... cause she gets angsty and moody sometimes.. but her baking rocks.. it's why nigel looks more adorably chubby now hahaha

(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) - O.O they don't know each other.. i don't think they'll fit lol

(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) - Just now before my 1st dinner at Alumni

(What kind of music does no.8 like?) - this fella likes a whole load.. but i'll remember him as the one who intro-ed Motion City Soundtrack to me hurhur

(Does no.1 has any siblings?) - Funny enough, Thong Wah has 2 brothers.. and i didn't know until recently LOL I'M SORRY!

(Will you woo no.3?) - I don't wanna get beaten up O.O.. he's got the muay thai thing going on mannnnn it's in his genes hurhur (and i'm straight)

(How about no.7 ?) - who can't love this fun person honestly lol..

(Is no.4 single?) - I think so *nod*

(What's the surname of no.5?) - LEE JUN JIE! (the french should make an exception for him in 'Articles' and name him Le JJ)

(What's the hobby of no.4?) - hahaha she likes dancing i think.. and and and.. eating fries with mayo lol ^^.. and laughing and laughing and laughing lol

(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) - JJ and PEA? WHHAHAHAHHAHA.. aye they get on well enough.. lol

(Where is no.2 studying at?) - Ifan.. Innova JC (good luck for the 'A's bro!)

(Say something casual about no.1) - WE NEED TO FREAKING JAM SOON! DAMN IT! MERDE! (and did u know Nike pronounced Nic in french means Fuck? LOL)

(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) - Nigel's my love.. step aside Pea rofl..

(Where does no.9 live?) - She lives like near NP and like opposite King Albert's Park.. which is like just enviously close to school

(What colour does no.4 like?) - QAMMIE I DUNNO! Pink? Black? Gold? (like her jacket? haha)

(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) - nope lol... but if they got to know each other.. they'll get along lol.. both extremely lovely people.

(Does no.7 like no.2?) - They don't know each other lol.. yah.. they might, they might not.. i'm in no place to say

(How did you get to know no.2?) - This guy's like the only one ever! EVER! that i can like shut my eyes and make a pass knowing he will be there to receive.. we've this telepathy going on.. got to know him in Secondary school yeaaaaap..

(Does no.1 have any pets?) - I don't think so hurhur.. did u have fish? i don't know dun remember lol.. been awhile since i went to like ur place

(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) - hahahha no comment.. but if i had to pick the sexiest person in the world... I would say DX cause he's the sex right there lol enough said..

forever

2007-10-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Acoustic ^^

(dang it i want orange hair hurrr.. )

somehow everything's gonna fall right into place
if we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday
if only time flew like a dove
we gotta make it fly faster than I'm falling in love

this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming "hallelujah"
we'll make it last forever

holding onto patience, wearing thin
I can't force these eyes to see the end
if only time flew like a dove
we could watch it fly and just keep looking on

this time we're not giving up
let's make it last forever
screaming "hallelujah"
we'll make it last forever

and we've got time on our hands
and we've got, got nothing but time on our hands G
got nothing but, got nothing but
got nothing but time on our hands

this time we're not giving up
oh, let's make it last forever
screaming "hallelujah"
"hallelujah"
"hallelujah"

So Who Are You?!

2007-10-21T14:14:00.000+08:00

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in... again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity, boy
The wheel is spinning me
It's never-ending, never-ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

In time or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say that I'll never surrender?

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

dance, prance, Waltz ^^

2007-10-20T03:31:00.000+08:00

The Waltz by Sllje Nergaard

Strike up the band let it play
Love songs to haunt me and I will stay
But when it comes to a waltz
Both words and music will ring false

For you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me

Those violins, they must go
So no careless hand with a bow
May play on the strings of my heart
And make me remember how lovers part

How you waltzed in and spun my world
Around in dizzy dance I swirled
But suddenly you waltzed away from me

Strike up the band let it play
Whatever it chooses and I will say
Play me a waltz if you will
I'll sit here and listen waiting until

My love returns to take my world
And spin it round in dizzy swirl
Where girl loves boy and boy loves girl
And feet don't touch the ground

running in air..

2007-10-19T10:12:00.000+08:00

-he said.. "I know what's your problem.."
he gives me a look.. and i know what he's talking about..
~"No.. it's not that"
-"It is!"
~"It's not that! It's.. some other stuff.."
the look on his face says it all...

i thought people who can act a little.. or slightly okay actors were supposed to be better at lying or hiding?
I guess not..

it's a little anger,
it's a little more frustration,
mixed with a tinge of disappointment and regret.
it's a heavy heart,
it's shivers through my bones,
and a song resonating through an empty room.
it's many sleepless nights,
it's fear of what those dreams would bring me.
it's the need for therapy,
it's this dying urge to be healed,
it's the cancer spreading through my body.
it's a little pain...
a little more pain,
it's what's happened,
it's what i need to believe in now...

i really hope the muscle aches would go away.. then i can hit the gym again..

couldn't get to sleep properly last night.. honestly.. i though i'd have a good night's rest.. no school and everything.. that's quite f***ed if u think about it..

there's so much more but nothing at the same time..

silencieux hurler; and we can breathe again

2007-10-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

loved this since forever.. but now more than usual apparently..
(maybe just cause i love amy lee lol.. evanescense for the win man)

busy day tmr.. oh god i need sleep..

and Superbad was totally awesome.. check it out yeah yeah.. (but if u get offended by like kind of M18 stuff? i'd suggest dun go.. cause it's seriously filled to the brim with crude like 18 yr old dude stuff and some chick stuff too..) but go with an open mind and like.. haha a sense of humor.. and u'll enjoy it i guess hah..

outlets for everythinggg

2007-10-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

anything that goes in to ur body, has to come out some way or another.. especially if they aren't good things.. like stress or anxiety *nod*

i scared 2 banglahs at the busstop after school today lol..
chinhwee and calvin just dropped me off at a busstop near my place.. and i was kinda tired so i shut my eyes and buried my face into my pretty (dirty) heineken bag (lol).. and i was thinking.. and all the thoughts came at once? kinda over powering so i wanted to sigh..
only... it wasn't a sigh.. it was like a yell lol.. like Pitu says "LET GOO!!!" i went ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRH! like freaking loud and the next hting i new the banglahs had spun around staring at me like they thought i'd morphed into that big, green, angry thing they only see in movies (the incredible hulk) or something.. lol

feeling this intense need for an outlet, i hit the gym... 2 hours man..
i'm so deflated now.. like haven't had dinner either? mad.. my bro was waiting for me to get home.. so we could order something.. *pats his head*...

ahhh reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i think tmr i'll have problems doing anything hahahahaha... muscles depleted tsk tsk..

wookay.. calvin has a point *nod*

New iPod 80GB Gen 5.5!! says:
hahahaha
New iPod 80GB Gen 5.5!! says:
tomolo drama pro lor
New iPod 80GB Gen 5.5!! says:
you go and hoot
New iPod 80GB Gen 5.5!! says:
wanna hoot also thursday night hoot

hahaa.. lucky him and his new iPod tsk tsk man...

kk off to watch tv.. wait for Grey's Anatomy later at 10pm ^^...
i feel so much better after "letting go" lol..

kk au-revoir!

-

2007-10-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

ironic the whole situation..
lol seriously.. things seem to look more foolish as they go...

and as much as i'd love to as my dear Pitu would say "LETT GO!!!!",
i really feel... this time, i'll save the energy..

there's no need for any surge of words in bold anymore..

gloryyyyyyyy

2007-10-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

i really love this hurhur.. but let me tell you this was just a rough cut.. since then it has changed dramatically.. yes yes.. I can't wait for the actual thing to come out on tv wahaha...

oh yes apart from that...
The finals of The Contender Muay Thai will be on the 20th of October

it's $30 a ticket (and it's well worth it if you ask me)
every fight's different, and every fight is enjoyable to the max...
if you're interested let me know.. i'll be buying tics prolly by tuesday.. yeap..

(because this is a production shoot, no pics or videos allowed *nod*)

slowly the pieces fall into place

2007-10-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

alright!

so today i managed to get ifan and jared to agree to join ice hockey with me.. and it seems jared is as enthusiastic as i am lol.. i also have derrick who might be interested... hurhur damn fun..

the ice hockey people finally replied.. and it seems we are going to be spending a lot a lot of money

a good pair of skates can cost u $150 and up..
and all that protective gear, like the absolutely necessary neck guard, mouth guard, and of course for guys the most important groin guard (hur) and the stick of course, is gonna push the total cost up to about $600-800 as me and jared have just calculated.. hopefully we can buy the paddings and helmets and all at inline hockey shops cheaper than those online stores in the US..

rawr damn excited hurhur..
this is what my week looks like apart from school from monday to thursday,

Tuesdays i have floorball training in kallang like 8pm till late.. the day might be changed i'm hoping it does..

Tuesdays 10.30pm onwards there's a beginners clinic for ice hockey in jurong...
(how i'm gonna make kallang and jurong work i dunno so i'm hoping floorball changes..)

and once i'm better at ice hockey,

Fridays 10.30pm to past midnight trainings. hurhur.. we have it all planned out.. no more trains? no problem! i'm getting my license soon hehe (hopefully >.<)

damn exciting :D ..

i need to start saving! rawr! and i realised french i might be able to take from 2nd year onwards.. cause i think i stopped there. *nod*.. so maybe from january onwards taking french again on a weekday.

and come january, the floorball league starts again.. and if i make the team, my weekends are burnt till april..

ice hockey i'm not so sure.. but i expect myself to be a really busy kitty hurhur.. DAMN FUN! :D

i wanted to put a song up.. but i forgot what i wanted to so nevermind.. it's getting late.. gotta go sleep cause going to jam with tw tmr ouiiii.. maybe get a sorethroat before school starts hurhur..

Bonne nuit!

et..

2007-10-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

i forgot to add..

i miss work a little..
and i think after working on that project at ifw, i have a new level of appreciation in reality programmes and AXN and mark burnette prodcutions.. like all that survivor stuff and and and all that... i wanna take part in the amazing race ^^ hahahahha.. seriously damn fun... survivor not too bad too hurhurhur

pertourber capricieux

2007-10-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

disturbingly enough.. i find the horrors of immortality... attractive

riiiiiiighhhht... o.O

2007-10-10T01:48:00.000+08:00

the world seriously needs to chill out for a bit..

So... In other more light-hearted news, check this out.. and if you don't laugh or giggle even a bit.. you are absolutely not human o.o

HAHAHAHAHHAHAA.. if you didn't laugh with that, u will with this one..

HAHAHAHA... the baldy in 1st clip kinda might be a terrorist reading his demands... HAHAHAHHA
2nd clip.. there are so many things to do? and wonderful animals ohhh yeah baby... rofl.. seriously...

and i absolutely love the "CAMERA ATTACKS! " O.O O.O

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

WANT MORE?! :D

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAAHHAHA ROFL!
STUDIOS ARE BLOODY SLOPPY! HHAHAH the hazards of working in the media industry *shakes head*... rofl.. BBC.. you gotta love it rofl

cows? OOhhh BEHAVE!
So you believe in Santa?
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH ROFL
MY GOD i haven't laughed so hard EVER! HHAAHA

ooooooooooo we know what Barry Baisden has on his mind *naughty wink*.. (fondling HAHHAHAHHAHA)

Quiet part of town... RIGHT HAHAHAHh!

seriously ahhahahahahha HAHAHAHHA
SHUT UP!!! HAHAHAHAHHA
obviously in the last clip.. SOMEBODY DIDN'T READ THE SCRIPT about that little snag about the pie thingum HAHHAHAH

*sings* I LIKE BIG BUTTS AND I CANNOT LIE!

okay it's getting late.. and i wanna head to bed..

i'm kinda sad that i've ended my last day of work with ifw.. hope i'll be able to go back there soon yaya.. but at the same time i really need a break from stuff.. ah well.. good things don't last forever..

never saw it coming

2007-10-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

anyways.. so... getting the break i feel i need.. deserved is another question all together..

random..
ever had one of those flashbacks of memories of the stupidest things that you've done? hahaha ohhh i've too many.. and it makes me gag at myself lol..

who would have known..

o.-

2007-10-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

i like this song *nod nod*.. okay back to liverpool losing 1-2 -.-"

soo...

2007-10-07T01:56:00.000+08:00

so.. i was watching ice hockey videos on youtube on my favorite team in america's hockey league the San Jose Sharks (they rock my socks).. and i slowly progressed to sportscentre 10 stuff.. till i reached this one hurhur...

i figured post something with more sports other than just ice hockey hur so this is a good mix *nod*..
kinda reminds me of that one time i scored my first between the legs goal hahahahah it was a feeling unlike any other.. and now being reminded of it.. i feel the need to play floorball again ^^ ...

the good old memories of awesome stuff i did i couldn't believe hahaha..
(please be prepared for a whole lot of self-praise hahahaha)

like the one time i did the "reverse air wrap around" (sounds so big hahah but loads of ppl can do it.. just doing it in game is tough ahha)
it's basically u're behind the net and the goalie leaves a gap on your backhand side.. there after you lift the ball onto your blade and with the momentum wrap it around into the net.. hurhur it's kinda like this..

yeap.. like that.. so cool! hhahhaha seriously... i like.. i guess.. the whole reason why i love sports with nets on either end, is the whole idea of making the perfect play, the perfect past, the perfect goal.. ahhaha or an awesome goal. doesn't have to be perfect...

i reckon i've done sick shit in my life (=P hahahah fucking cock >.<)
like the one time i did a blind pass on a 2 on 1 attack? a telepathic blind pass to Ifan.. who's the only guy i can play and have a telepathic sense to.. i'm like his wingman.. and he's like mine..

or another time that sick between the legs one hahaha.. i was already in front of the net with 0 defenders.. the ball came square from the right and i let it roll between my legs and flicked it onto the other side of the goalie ahhahahaaahhaha i still can remember his face when he realised it had already gone in ahahahhahaha.. a beautiful moment :) ...

i wanna go back training hmm.. maybe this tuesday won't go to the beach thing.. cause it seems kinda tight.. just go for training.. i haven't gone in forever... seriously.. and i wanna make the team for the season starting in january.. yayayya.. on this team which is awesome.. the moosemen.. xiuqi's bro used to be goalie for them some time back.. they won the league last year... so you could say they;re the best guys team in singapore.. i wanna go back to training and get up to scratch.. and hopefully make the team ^^ ...

aight ppl.. off to bed.. jamming with tw is cancelled tmr.. got absolutely nothing to do.. might hit the gym or something *shrug* or sneak in my floorball stick and get some court time in the squash court haha.. =P ...

nights yall!

oooo

2007-10-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

this is the song i heard 4 times today on the radio lol..

i actually quite like it :D

i'm ill again.. for the 2nd time in 2 bloody weeks -.-

2007-10-04T10:37:00.000+08:00

so last night i thought i wanted to watch liverpool play.. which would mean i'd be up till 4am or so? and i'd to be awake by 8...
but seriously.. i skipped watching it.. had a nice long sleep and when i woke up.. i felt like shit.. absolutely crappy-like-beyond-crappy.
so i smsed my producer saying i'd do night shift.. thinking ifi popped in the stupid "drowsiness tablet thingum" for i dunno what on earth, given by the doc the first round, i'd sleep all day and change my body time zone to like night shift mode *nod* ... brilliant?

NOT BLOODY SO! I'M AWAKE NOW AT 10.30AM AND THAT'S HARDLY NIGHT SHIFT MODE ROFL...

stupid drugs.. they work when u don't want them to like when u're working with heavy machinery and trying to save an arm *Saw 4, Loud grinding and splattering noise* >.< .. but when u want them to work they really don't? *Long take of mao sitting in bed eyes wide open like he's had too much caffeine O.O* I'M SO IRRITATED! And the best part is i'm feeling better now.. SERIOUSLY.. WHAT'S THE POINT OF TELLING MY PRODCUER I CAN DO NIGHT SHIFT, IF I CAN REACH WORK NOW at like noon? or like have lunch then go and reach like 1pm? and be off by 9pm with 8 solid hours?! so i think i'm going to work.. *nod*.. i'm so embarrased lol.. like they'll all see me walk in at 1pm and think there's something wrong with me.. like day shift started at 10am >.<>.< heeyer.. (and ppl ask.. why do you bother what others think of you?)

well.. i usually try not to bother just that this time, what they think of me also influences future chances of getting a job there on the long term.. and on a more short term note, they have the money and can just snip awaay at my pay as they see fi... *Pulls hair out* RawrRR!

okay.. going to get ready for work now...
(btw... i love my new phone ^^)

I'm in love! ^^

2007-10-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

I'm in love with my new PHONE! SFEEEEEEEE!

hehehehe! if any one loves their new E65, it's this kitty hurhurhur..

the first word that came to my mind was.... Sexy lol..

seriously.. like got this rubberish back that's patterened like leather.. and it's bloody sleek!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! NEW PHONE! NEW PHONE!

i promise to take better care of it than it's previous... kinda... unfortunate cousins lol..

Okay going to take my phone out for a romantic candle light dinner now..

Au-revoir!

(oh and and.. China trip is cancelled but it don't bother me.. NEW PHONE! :D i shall call it

"That Sexy Motha Thang" lol)

blueprint of the 'Master Plan'

2007-09-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

okay here's the plan i've made to begin immediately when school starts.. which might be 2 or 3 days later than other ppl cause some of us are going china trip ^^ or maybe not ahhaha *shrug*

yeah anyways..

because the week starts on a SUNDAY! (NOT A MONDAY like chiam likes to think.. dun give me all that working week bullshiat lol)

yes but i might as well..

so sat and sunday are my free time days.. do watever the heck i please lol..like
catch up on last work, watching AXN which is my new favorite channel for some weird reason lol, gym hurhur, jumping around like a bozo lol, maybe pick up some extra stuff like find a coaching job on sats (but because of stupid MOE encouraging schools to make cca on weekdays, this is gonna be a hard one :( ), maybe take french on saturdays?

i actually do have friday which is free also (YESSSSA! haha no lessons on that day hurr) maybe take french on that day *nod*

current dilemma is $$.. french is like $250++ for 2 months?
and i have to save for those contacts i've been absolutely dying to get.. which is $600 for a 6 month pair i supposes? i can't remember.. so in expenses, i'm already down like $225 a month >.<

then i've the concession shite thats like $96 or 98 buckeroos a month?

..$320+- a month... that's like freaking half my bloody allowance wtf.. how to save cash like that lol...

and i've the floorball training stuff? which require me to pay $40 a month for dunno how long..

..$360+- >.< (i'm feeling the strain of this material world..)

omg omg omg.. *struggles to come to terms*

and if i pick up ice hockey @.@"
i gotta save approximately i dunno.. 400-600 bucks? >.< (smiley lady! help! loool)
and like need to pay for ice time also.. dunno how much that is..

so i've already calculated.. i usually use about $100 a week (is that alot? HAHAHAHA)
when accumlated it sounds like alot lah.. but if u think about it, i rarely eat at home.. and all my meals are taken out.. and like i already dun buy stuff like clothes or shit.. i buy em once in a blue moon?

i really donno where all that money is going rofl.. RAWR I HATE MONEY.. I NEED THAT FREAKING COACHING JOB NOW! oh yes speaking of which.. i'd need to take first aid course first... omg... so many things to do.. i need to renew my passport which is gonna take awhile -.- like shit..

i will be resuming my tuesday trainings again from when school reopens.. (that's gonna be tiring.. like to kallang -.-) i'm worried for my ankle.. it's still swollen for some reason... like it's been stuck at this size for awhile.. like comparing with my other ankle, it's definitely bigger *nod* and i still wanna pick up ice hockey ahahahhahaha

hmm yes i need a coaching job.. i shall go get my first aid thingum by end of this hols.. and then push for a job with a complete cert.. and hopefully get one that maybe does monday and friday trainings? that'll be awesome...

i've the driving thingum coming up... which i better pass lol..

and that's basically it really.. hmmmmm... sounds so messy cause i just vomitted everything out randomly and not in chronological order right? hahahaha..

RAWR!

i dun wanna drop french >.<
i dun wanna drop anything really lol..

u know wat.. i'm getting so irritated with this post.. cause it feels like im bloody whining lol... WTH! ENOUGH!

hurhur...

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Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
yah but FUCK

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:36
lol wat?

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
i'm not going to waste my time on something not confirmed
11:36
so many ppl wanna go also

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:36
ahahhahaha
11:36
okay

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:36
god knows who the fuck is going

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
yaya when confirm lor
11:37
ur best friend Roger
11:37
ROFL
11:37
fail module still can go
11:37
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
????

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
kidding lah
11:37
lol

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
he's going?
11:37
wtf?
11:37
Fuck you

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:37
hhahahaha

Dexian Says: [dexianhbk.blogspot.com] Here I am. With a beer bong in hand.
MSN
11:37
go suck a dick
11:37
like
11:37
erez's

----

both of them dun read my blog so i guess it's okay lol

okay work tmr so i'mma getting to beds now.. and face PITU again hopefully not hahaha

singwei is doing night shift but i'm doing day shift.. so
*sings like donkey in shrek*
I'm all alone!
there's no one hereeee beside meeeee...

(ah yes.. before i forget something mentionable..
liyana seems to like calling me, Mellie lol..

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:08
ha ha ha
11:08
ok laaa i owe u brownieeee
11:08
i was just checkinggg

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:13
yay brownieeee!!!!
11:13
hahahahahah
11:13
weee!
11:13
^^

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:14
ha ha ha
11:14
yalaaayalaaaa
11:14
mellie

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:14
hahahaha
11:14
u know u're the only 1 tat calls me mellie?
11:14
ahahhahaha
11:15
and it kinda sounds like Mei Li in chinese which is beautiful?
11:15
ahhahahh
11:15
*acts beautiful*
11:15
lol

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:17
HA HA HA HA
11:17
ACT ONLY HAHAHAHDJSADHAQG!

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:17
hahahahhahaahah
11:17
of course mannn
11:18
i should like create myself the new nickname
11:18
mellie boo boo
11:18
sound so cute
11:18
like trying to talk to baby like that
11:18
ahhahah

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:18
HA HA HA
11:18
its like smelly boo boo
11:18
u know those smelly pillow
11:18
those which u go to sleep with and drool on it
11:19
and then never wash it because the smell rocks

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:19
hahahaha the smell rocks?!
11:19
wth!
11:19
HAHAHAHA

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
i use to have it. but my mom wash it. and then i hated her back then. i was 4 anyway.

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
HAAHHAHAHA wth
11:20
damn smelly

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
mellie boo boo sounds like smelly boo boo

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
must wash!
11:20
just dun add the S
11:20
ahhahaha

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
smelly mellie

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
then it'll be mellie boo boo which sounds so much nicer
11:20
hahahahah
11:20
NO REFUSE!

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
ha ha ha

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:20
Mellie's belly
11:20
that's better
11:20
hahah

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:20
ha ha ha
11:20
smellie belly

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:21
hahahha RAWR!
11:21
ahahahha

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:21
mellie sounds smelly

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:21
mellie sounds smelly but really mellie isn't smelly at all
11:21
hahahha
11:21
like some riddle

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:21
ha ha ha
11:21
yeaaah
11:22
smellie mellie isnt that smelly
11:22
but is still smelly.

mao- adieu adieu adieu
MSN
11:23
but he's smelly in a good way ^^
11:23
he smells ncie hurhur

♥ Liyana Joe
MSN
11:23
smelly is not nice smelling
11:24
ha ha)

Au-revoir le deux temps!

rofl.. kk Bonne Nuit!

and he said 'auf weidersehen, adieu, adieu, adieu..'

2007-09-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

today was a boring day.. didn't go cut hair in the end cause i was too tired lol (but no comparison to dx and jj of course and probably calvin.. cause they definitely have to work harder than me)..

yeah but anyways.. boring but i learnt new songs on the guitar :D weee!

i don't know why.. but i suddenly had the urge to learn some 'Vertical Horizon' songs and then somehow when i thought of Vertical Horizon, i also thought of Snow Patrol lol..

so yeah learnt a few of their songs like like..

my fav for the day
-"Open Your Eyes" by Snow Patrol.. which is one of the songs they played at Live Earth and seriously was quite awesome wee! :D.. it's actually damn easy to play? just needs a lot of endurance haha cause my fingers cramp up after a bit.. but the sounds is just so awesome *nod*... gives me the tingly sensation like my hairs all standing, cause when i play it the sounds just so.. i dunno how to say.. awesome lol..
and and
-"Signal Fire" and "Run" and "Shut Your Eyes" (lol so consistent doncha thing?) and and of course the one most of you will know them by "Chasing Cars"...

and then for Vertical Horizon, i learnt

-"You're A God", and tried to learn "Everything You Want"? but like either my fingers not fast enough, so the sound doesnt' sound right when it gets out from the guitar.. or the guitar tab i was looking at was wrong... and learnt "Best I Ever Had"

so from signal fire,

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth.
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.

and run,

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

i think tmr might be going to tw's place to do some recording... *shrug* we'll see how luh..
nt sure how enthu i'll be tomorrow looool

imma feeling like i should go sleep soon *nod*.. been having headaches of late for no apparent reason to my knowledge.. maybe it's cause
i'm getting so tired, and so old...

not old in age! (dun bother trying xq lol.. i'm still younger than you :P.. dun get ur hopes up..)

open your eyes

peeka boo!

2007-09-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

i just realised there's a whole section missing in my previous post.. about the headless dolphin... and i'm so certain i typed it in yesterday.. O.O
freaky... eeeeeeeeeee

anyway i dun wanna say lol.. maybe another time..

i'm having the weirdest evening ever lol.. but nt gonna talk about it... *nod*
(then why bother mentioning?)

hmmm

did seriously almost 11 hours of work today.. like i finally finished like typing a really stressful set of interviews.. my god >.<>.<>.< my my my... i'm wanting to get a hair cut.. and icy blue contact lenses.. lol.. and qammie knows too well the reasoning behind it ahahha.. =P k.. this next piece is a random piece of (hopefully you can call it) creativity. (in my own way which might be bullshit in your opinions)

he was filled up
by the music he was hearing,
and lost pretty much deep in thought.
but as he looked for a new staring spot where his eyes could be safely open,
while his mind was allowed to wander.
but as his eyes searched, he soon found himself looking across the platform.
into the doors of the open train going in the opposite direction from his.
and he stared into her eyes, as she stared into his.
it didn't matter, they didn't bother to look away even though in any other situation,
it would have been a throughly awkward moment.
they were leaning by the same place.. and in the same posture..
it was this symmetry that connected their thoughts almost telepathically to one anothers.
and both minds were on the same idea...
though he knew not her name,
and she knew not his...
both thier minds felt the same way..
both felt so lonely,
and so detached
even though they were caught in the hustle and bustle
of every thing else and every one else.
they're gaze didn't break even though the doors of their respective trains shut themselves,
and he only realised the beauty of that moment,
until after they went their separate ways..
and would never see each other again.

ca va? >.< je ne sais pas.. hopefully..

lol damn random.. oh nuit...

i hate it when i'm forgetful :(

2007-09-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

i'm dead.. got so much explaining to do now.. cause i forgot like jerry's bday (nope dun think he reads this blog..)
anyways.. he's like my bestest friend, biker gang mate from primary, and secondary school..
we've got a long history..
and his bday was well. .yesterday which ended 44 minutes ago.. like WTF!

even with all the Friendster reminders i get in my email hahaha i can still forget!
i'm one forgetful kitty... tsk...

okay anyway.. short post.. because i'm tired lool let me explain how tired..

my bro and i were watching this funny "Megastructures" program on discovery channel... about like the biggest ships and things? and i just fell asleep.. lol.. like duno.. maybe it was boring? but seriously quite tired.. like people at work asked singwei and me to go with a couple of them to Velvet Underground? which is some glam rich people place i think loool.. like damn mad.. the dress code was stylish? so immediately said no haha. like i wasn't dressed for the part?

like i was wearing my fav pair of jeans, me lovely brown addidas shoes ^^ *loves*, the white shirt i bought from gina's ahahhaha that i love so much cause it's so handy.., and like my fav grey capricorn hoodie ^^ *loves x10* yah damn unglam for a high class party.. where there'll most likely be celebrities.. lol.. nope turn em down.. might have been fun though.. also cause i'm so tired..

okay tired.. yah so i went to sleep it was like.. 10.30pm? like damn early ahha earliest i've slept in months.. and like i just got up awhile ago at midnight to go shower.. lol cause i was still in the outfit i described above.. jeans and all.. and had weird dreams.. ah yes

i've been having the freaking mose nonsensical dreams of late.. last night, they were worstest-est-est-est-est ever!..

i dreamt i was acting? and my dad was also acting? like in the same movie? and he was supposed to "fake" stab me? and he actually did stab me? like and then got a wound and all.. then like we go for 2 more takes? and both takes he stab me still! and like all i can do is tell him what the hell u doing? kinda thing? then he'll say like sorry and shit and go for next take? yah but the 3rd take was when i passed out and fell into this new dream.. WHICH IS A FREAKING NIGHTMARE TOO! like I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THIS THOUGHT CAME OUT FORM..

LIKE SERIOUS DAMN SCARY...

i dreamt i was going out with a friend.. a close friend.. like go to this Horror performance/movie thing.. and we signed up for these special seats, which i forgot what they were called in the dream, but the idea was.. that if u sign up for those seats, you absolutely cannot leave halfway during the performance.. and u must seat through the whole scary thing? and like it's frontrow seats too? i think it was "Sane-mind" treatment seats or something i dunno damn wtf right? hahaha.. and basically, u'd be given the "Prime-house" seats in the theatre.. and be subjected to psychological or physical torture? so wtf.. made people... in my dream.. so that kinda makes me mad? hahahahha i can go write a new film script already.. loool
then like damn scary!
like the ju-on kid? was actually the lead performer? and he came out at first.. and liek not scary at first.. hten like got this dolphin sound? like there was a dolphin swimming behind? then the kid went backstage and

----Rated M18 by the MDA for extreme Gore----
like he brought back the dolphin? without it's freaking head! >.<>.<>.<>.< .. and was like sitting beside me.. taunting me.. i woke up damn scared! HAHHAHA like freaking hell! then i came out from brushing teeth and all and my room door was wide open!? I WAS LIKE WTF! WHY'S IT OPEN! then i realised my mum had come in to check if i was awake? omgggg.. u dun wanna know man ahhaha freaking SICK DREAM! i hate! no more! and I THOUGHT I SAID THIS WILL BE A SHORT POST! >.< kk i going back to sleep now.. good night people! have safe, nice sweet and simple dreams with no freakish stuff like bloody ju-on kids and dead dolphins :( ... Night!

(yes dx... we should sell Xiuqi on eBay.. i think safe to say there will be one very strong bidder ahhahahahahhaha L? and got Chee Weee! and JOHN JOHN JOHN! and LOVEY DOVEY! and i dun remember hahaha.. WOOPS! DID I JUST SAY ALL YOUR SCANDALS!? =X)

mittens and kittens

2007-09-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

kitty's sick today :(..
didn't go to work and slept over time.. like i slept a total of 15 hours? i slept from 12 last night to 3 today?? woke up and had a slight fever carried over from last night.. so called in sick and took a fever tablet.. hur woke up at 3.. felt better wanted to go get mc and go for work... then me producer called me and told me no need to go.. restt.. hurhur.. so here i am!

but but but but i tell you wat made my day heeeee!
i went to ang mo kio polyclinic.. get mc and meds and stuff.. then the place where i was waiting for my number to be called got so many little children!!! like REALLY! children and babies and stuff and all damn CUTE!

I WANT CHILDREN!! RAWWWWWR!

like there was this kid beside me so cute! he can't talk yet so he was making funny gurgling noises to imitate talking? hehe so cute!! then he that the biggest cutest eyes! ahhahah.. and he was with he grandpappy.. like damn loving all.. young generation with old generation hurhur.. damn nice!!
like the grandpappy hold his hand and they walk to one side to get a brochure just for fun hurhur.. like he's just started walking then can't walk unless someone holds his hand haha. SO CUTE CAN!

I WANT CHILDREN!! RAWWWWWR!

and like his shoes made that sometimes really irritating squeaking sound? but it was so cute on him looool.. like WTH! and and and.. when he's grandpappy feed him bread like he'll be damn engrossed ahhaha it's like the bread's in a plastic bag.. but when his grandpappy hold it open in front of him he don't know how to take the bread himself? hahaha damn funny! the grandpappy have to like pluck small bits out and then he will open his mouth wide and chunk down sometimes onto his grandpappy's fingers ahahhah DAMN CUTE!!! and and and like when his mum moved to one side cause she can't see the numbers on the digital board, he cried out "mummy! mummy!" hahaha... affectionate oooonly..

(did i already say i wanted children?) hah!

tskkk i love kids..

i want my own kittens ^^..

eeny meeny miny mo

2007-09-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

This day and age we're living in
Gives cause for apprehension
With speed and new invention
And things like third dimension.

Yet we get a trifle weary
With Mr. Einstein's theory.
So we must get down to earth at times
Relax relieve the tension

And no matter what the progress
Or what may yet be proved
The simple facts of life are such
They cannot be removed.

You must remember this
A kiss is still a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by.

And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you."
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by.

Moonlight and love songs
Never out of date.
Hearts full of passion
Jealousy and hate.
Woman needs man
And man must have his mate
That no one can deny.

It's still the same old story
A fight for love and glory
A case of do or die.
The world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

Oh yes, the world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

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-random!-
go figure, even if i blog a new song for every new day from now, i'd take 20 years to have posted every song at least once O.O ... and my song library isn't that big if u compare it to dexian's or like nigel or seriously the god pav lool..

work again tmrr.. i'm beginning to feel the strain of working the long hours..

i need to hit the gym soon, i'm feeling like a lazy piece of poo and i dun like it... i wanna be a fit and slightly muscular hunk of poo... hurhur..

some times i really wonder wat it'll be like...

like a child on the way, i know u're barely listening...

2007-09-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

I lie awake on this phone call, she's dreaming of better days
Flowers lie on the counter, remind her of better days

She sends a prayer up to Jesus
And she asks him for his strength
And the night will go on bleeding
Was it faith that paid the rent?

And I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
Now I know you're'.
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
I know you're barely listening
Now I know you're'.

Standing here in the doorway with a candle and a gun
The lights you threw open windows
For now the day has won

Like a child on her way here
You just smile and run the other way
And faith won't find me a reason
It just smiles and runs the other way
And It just smiles'.
It just smiles and runs the other way
It just smiles'.
It just smiles and then runs the other way

It's not worth waiting

You question love with a camera
And you're catching love with a will
Well heart lies in loneliness
Now fight, the past can kill

-----

i know u're barely listening,
cause you can't see the ideas i'm tossing..